Chapter 1

And the Prologue has nothing to do with this chapter. That nightmare was from another night.
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The rain drops that beat down on the roof top sound like a lullaby to me. It was night time and most of the pack was asleep.

They were tired and frustrated. The attacks on us have not been kind. These rouges had a plan. They were strong, and almost unbeatable. We have lost to many of our members, members that had lives and a family. I'm just glad that the people I have met and learned to love over the years are safe.

I walked into the kitchen careful not to make much noise. I looked out the window and watched as rain poured from the heavens. Thunder roared and lightning lit up that brightened up the dark night sky. I let out a soft sigh and poured some water into a glass.

I can't sleep. Ever since a few weeks ago when the attacks became serious I cant fall asleep. I cant eat, I can't even think straight. My mind could only think about the night my family and pack were killed. It was such a long time ago that I thought I had moved on from most of the pain, however now the only thing I could think about was that night. I stayed up late at night praying that the same fate that happened to my pack wouldn't happen to this one.

This pack, Flaming Night, took me in like I was one of their own. The Alpha that had saved me that day took me to his pack and adopted me as his child. They let me keep my rank as an Eta even if I could no longer fight. I think it was out of pity. I lived with my Alpha and his family. He has a mate, my luna, and a very handsome son, Ryan. Ryan has his own house not far from his parents, he usually lives there. However, he has been living here for the past couple of weeks whereas it's unsafe for him to live alone.

Ryan and I grew on each other. He is two years older then me. When we first met he wasn't sure how to react. I don't blame him, one minute he was an only child and the next he had a thirteen year old sister. He was smart, he was mature for his age. I think he realized he was one day going to become Alpha, and he had to be taken seriously. However, I have seen him the times he decides to lets loose. He has a smile that lights up a room.

I set the glass down after taking a few sips. The water wasn't helping me fall asleep. Slowly I climbed up the stairs.

I stoped in my tracks when I heard soft voices coming from Alpha Jacksons room. I don't know why but the voices pulled me towards them. It was like they were asking for me to easdrop. I quietly leaned my head on the door and listened in on their conversation.

My heart was beating inside my chest loudly. I bit the bottom of my lip nervously. I shouldn't be doing this. This is disrespectful to my Alpha and Luna. My mind was telling me one thing but my heart was telling me another. The conversation I knew they were having had to be important, there was no other explanation as to why they would be up this late.

My ears prest fermly on the wooden door. The cool wood made goose bumps form on the back of my neck. "Everything will be alright Jackson. You need rest." I could hear the soft, sweet, voice of my Luna. There was a loud frustrated sigh from inside the room.

"How do you know Lauren? We have crossed the line. We maybe able to hold of the rouges, but him? We don't stand a chance with him. We can't make him mad." Alpha Jackson replied in one long breath. I felt worry bubble inside me. I felt the need to pull away and go back to my room. The need to pretend I didn't hear anything, but I couldn't leave now. Just by a couple of sentences I have heard too much. I stay and listen to them talk.

I stayed because I'm tired of being left out of news. Most members of my pack would come home after a long day of fighting off rouges, and they wouldn't speak a word about it to me. They wouldn't tell me what was going on, how many rouges there were, they wouldn't even tell me why they were here. I couldn't help them fight back because Alpha Jackson told me I maybe a great fighter, but I wouldn't stand a chance without my wolf or with my weak leg. I didn't argue with him, he was right. I was practically human. I new my pack wasn't telling me news of the rouges because it involved me in any way, but because they knew how much it worried me. It worried me that one day I would be told to wait in the closet, I was worried that I would have to listen to the screams of my pack once again. I was worried that unlike last time, no one would come and open the closet doors to find me.

They had every right to not tell me what was happening. They were only trying to protect me. However it's not like I can't see what is happening, I know how strong the rouges are. I know how strong they are because when our packs best fighters come home bleeding to death, I'd have to be blind not to notice. So nonetheless this is still my pack, and I need to know what is going on.

I closed my eyes and took a deep quiet breath. "Jackson, you won't make him mad-" Unlike Alpha Jackson , Luna Lauren stayed calm and steady. I've never heard Alpha Jackson this worried before. He always contained his emotions.

"We have interfered with his invastgation on these rouges. I'm suprised he hasn't had my head. And God knows what he would do to you and the children." My heart broke as I heard his voice break at the end of his sentence. There was a long pause and I held my stomach as a painful feeling evolved as I realized Alpha Jackson was crying. I have come to conclusion that the rouges were not the problem anymore, but however the mystery man was.

"Honey." Luna Lauren stoped speaking, her voice was wobbly. Her calm state had changed into one I could not comprehend. "If he wanted it we would be dead, but we are fine. I feel he understands we didn't attack the rouges first. For now we will j-just have to wait." Her voice was soft and was quiet enough to be a whisper. I flinched when I felt a sharp pain on my bottom lip. My hand felt the bleeding spot I had just bit. The iron taste slowly made its way into my mouth. It wasn't bleeding drastically, it was the resemblance of a scrach, but I could feel the sore spot on my lip.

Alpha Jackson once again let out a large breath. I heard the shuffle of blankets move and the small light had turned off. I was about to turn away and leave when I heard them talking once more. "I can't help but think about it now. I need to take care of this now." Alphas Jacksons voice sounded deeper then usual and clouded.

"It can wait until morning. You can't do anything now." Luna Lauren responded in a monotone voice. I could tell she was ready to forget the subject they were talking about. She was hiding her emotions well, but I could tell she was a bundle of nerves. "Nothing is going to happen tonight."

"I know, I know. You're right. I love you Lauren." I heard Luna Lauren let out a soft laugh.

"I love you too. Now stop worrying, it's not helping anything." Silence followed after. I slowly step away from the door and walked down the hall to my room. I opend the door, my hand griped the door tight as if holding me up from falling on the floor.

My knees were shaking, I couldent stop the nauseous feeling at the pit of my stomach. I felt regret for listening to their conversation. This is what I wanted though. I wanted to feel this feeling, it was better then being treated like a glass doll. I wanted to open my eyes and see what was going on. Even if it hit too close to home. Questions filled my mind. What was going on? Who was Alpha Jackson worried about? Who was threatening the pack? Why were the rouges here?

I didn't feel like I was going to puke, but I did feel nauseous. After years of never knowing anything and being treated like a wonded animal I finally know something. Or at least I think I do, but after listening to the conversation I am left with more questions then before. I want to know the anwsers. I'm restless now, sleeping is the last thing I wasn't to do right now.

I feel tired and wide awake at the same time. I shut the door to my room quietly and laid down on my bed. The moon light lit up my room. I let out a small groan. I couldn't shut my eyes. I didn't want to shut my eyes.

I don't want to close my eyes and pretend everything is fine. I don't want to close my eyes and pretend the rouges weren't in the woods just outside my window. I don't want to close my eyes and pretend that this was my true family. I don't want to close my eyes and hear the screams of my real family. I don't want to close my eyes and pretend I wasn't hurting to lay in my bed alone. I don't want to close my eyes and pretend I'm fine. I don't want to close my eyes because if I do all those problems will go away for a few hours, but when I open my eyes next, I feel worse then I did before. If I close my eyes I will only open them the next morning to face all my problems over again when I just pretended they weren't real. My problems only get worse every day I open my eyes to the greedy sunlight that stole night from me.

My problems are all inside me. None of them are caused from others, but from myself. I rubbed my hands over my eyes.

I laid down on the bed and watched the stars from outside my window. The rain had become a light sprinkle. The stars were bright and beautiful. Something we need more of in this world. I gazed at their beauty all night, they kept the questioning thoughts out of my mind. Sadly, all good things must come to an end. The sun rose up like a child on the first day of school, fast and ready. However I remained still and motionless.

I heard noise from down stairs. It was still early and odd for someone to be up this early. I didn't want to face Alpha Jackson or Luna Lauren. I feel as soon as I see them they would be able to read my face and know I heard them last night. They would take one look at me and just know I knew something I shouldn't. But what did I really hear? I didn't hear anything

I let out a long breath. I could taste the metallic of the cut on my lip. I lifted my legs out of bed and slowly walked down stairs. I took each step as if it might crumble underneath me. My legs felt like lead each time I took another step.

I peaked into the kitchen only to see Ryan sitting at the dinning room table eating oatmeal. He looked up at me from underneath his eyelashes. A small smile made his way onto his lips as his way of greating me. I smiled back. I didn't feel like using my voice right now. I know it would come out deep and disordered. I sat acrossed from him and looked out of the big window behind him.

The sunlight hit the trees casting a shadow into the woods making it look darker and almost like it was night still inside the woods. The grass had morning dew spread acrossed it like a warm blanket.

I looked back towards Ryan to see he was not paying attention towards me. His black hair was dirty and a mess, his clothes were wrinkled from sleeping in them, and his eyes had deep purple bags. He was looking down at his oatmeal like it disgusted him, he twirled the spoon around inside the bowl.

Ryan and a group of other wolf's had been out tracking down some rouges that had passed the boarder line. They have been gone for two days and it looked like Ryan hadn't slept at all. It didn't suprise me he wasn't saying much, he needed to eat and rest.

The rouges have been staying just outside of the packs boarder line. They would occasionally visit our side causing Ryan to stop what he was doing and attempt to hunt them down. "Ryan." My voice filled the quiet room. Ryan didn't wake up from his trance. "Ryan." I said once more. I reached over and put my hand on his wrist. Slowly his eyes met my worried ones. "What are you doing up? You need sleep, and a shower." My soft voice told him, I added a small laugh at the end of my sentence.

His light smile formed on his face and he nodded his head in agreement. I was thankful he didn't argue with me. "I can't sleep Eli. I have too many things on my mind." He slowly closed his eye while taking my hand in his. He was my brother, and I was worried about him.

"What is it Ryan? Please tell me what's going on? I can't stand to see my pack like this. I can't stand to see you like this." I begged him to tell me.

He shook his head and looked up opening his big blue eyes at me. "Its nothing you need to worry about. I promise, I will tell you if it gets too serious." He tried to push me away from the subject but I won't let him.

"No you won't, and you know that. Please, Ryan this is-is happining all over again. I'm scared shit less. Please tell me something, anything. I-I, I'm worried the same thing is going to happen again." Ryan frowned and looked down thinking. He knew very well what I meant. I told him what I was feeling, he knows how badly I'm terrified of that night. Even if it was seven year ago. It feels like it's happening all over again.

"Fine, fine. But you have to promise you can't tell anyone you know about this." He ran his hand through his hair and looked me dead in my eyes. He showed no emotion. I nodded my head quietly in response. He let out a soft long breath before speaking. "Listen, the rouges that are here are powerful. There's hundreds of them, maybe even more. They take over packs and wipe out everyone." His eyes didn't leave mine. I felt my blood quicken as my thoughts flowed.

"Like mine?" I spoke up. My voice cracked. I held on to hope he would tell me something different but I knew. I just knew. He nodded his head yes. I looked down at the wooden table leaving Ryans eyes. I bite my bottom lip as Ryan squeezed my hand in support.

"They believe that us wolf's shouldn't be controlled by an Alpha and Bata. They go to pack to pack whipping them out, a few weaks ago they decided to target us next." He stoped to catch his breath. He looked passed me making sure no one was behind me. "Its hard to see what they are planing. But whatever it is we can hold them off for now. And- and that's it. That's all I know." He shifted to the right avoiding my eye contact. He was lying.

"Ryan, tell me right now. Or I swear-" He looked up and gave me a toothy grin. I felt awful when I saw how tired he looked behind the smile.

"Okay, listen no one else but me and mom and dad know this." I nodded my head. Is this what the conversation was about last night? "We arn't the only ones trying to stop the rouges."

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Anyone have any clue who it is?

Yeah I'm not really trying to hide it.

Oh well, so that is the first chapter!!!

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