Chapter 5

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The soft pillow smelt of lavender. I inhaled it drinking in the boreing smell. The crackle of the fire place brought me back to reality. It snaped and a piece of ash flew close to the edge of the wood floor. I watched it float down with ease, lightly touching the floor. The red inside the ash went out leaving it to turn black and gray. I closed my eyes softly. I took a deep breath in, the air was warm from the fire. I felt comfortable, I felt at home. It was peaceful and calm inside the dead quiet house. I opend my eyes to see Beta Noah walking in front of me holding a mug. He set it down on the coffee table, his head turned to look at me with a soft smile. I returned the smile and sat up from my warm position on the couch. I picked up the cup, steam blew in my face greating me with the sweet aroma of coffee.

I brought the hot cup to my dry lips. As it touched my skin I felt it burn the cracks. The coffee stung my throat as it flowed down. It felt good but at the same time it felt awful. I pulled away taking one last sip. I wrapped both my hands around the mug hopeing it will bring feeling back into my pale, numb fingers.

I looked up into the grey eyes that watched my every movement with wonder. I was careful with my movement as I was being observed. He let out a cough and slowly backed until he sat in one of the only chairs not broken. He set his elbows on his knees and leaned forward. I looked into his grey eyes, they had specks of light blue and gold. They were beautiful. They looked like they held the world inside them. On the outside of Beta Noah you could see the strong, powerful Beta, but the closer you looked into his eyes you could see the pain. The outer shell he was wearing was tearing down breaking like a crack in a glass. The crack was small but each day the crack will grow larger until it finally breaks.

It felt odd to be able to see all of this by just looking into his eyes. I know what it is, it's hard to admit it. I know it's the pull of his Luna. I want to help him when he needs it and I want to look into his eyes and be able to know everything about him.

I pulled a strand of my damp hair back behind my ear. The robe he gave me hung loosely on me. It piled on the floor in waves. Beta Noah had helped me clean my cuts, each time the cloth had touched my skin with the achochol on it I could wince. We barely spoke, he didn't ask any questions and neither did I. Afterwards he gave me this robe and I took a shower. The water washed away not only the blood and dirt, but away my heart ache. I spent long minutes with my eyes closed under the warm water. The water ran down my cuts and passed by like they weren't even there. It took away the nauseous feeling I had inside my stomach and took it down the drain. I felt safe and perfectly fine. When I got out I felt clean, and pure. I had slept for a long time after I had gotten out of my shower. When I came out most of the furniture was placed back to its original position, and the glass was swept form the floor. The fireplace provided a sound that made me sway side to side. It was then I had realized how tired and worn out I actually was. Instantly, I laid myself down on the couch. My eyes fluttered shut and relaxed, not able to think of anything for I was sucked into my own slumber. When I awoke a pale blue blanket was placed on top of me.

I felt exposed in the rough robe. I could tell it has been in this house for a long time. The softness of the fabric had turned into a rough, hard, stale like fabric. It smelt of dust and a cobweb was made on the left sleeve when I had first received it from him. It hung low on my chest, luckily not showing anything but my bare chest and shoulders.

He cleared his throat, his eyes looked away from mine and down at the floor. "I would offer you something to eat, but we don't have anything here. I don't think anyone was expecting to actually eat here." I nodded my head in understanding and took another sip from the coffee in my hands.

"That's fine, I'm not really hungry anyway." I set the coffee down on the table in front of me. I lean myself forward until my feet touch the ground. The hardwood floor feels like ice on my feet. I pull away from the floor and curl my legs underneath me. I played with my fingers, my teeth lightly bit onto my bottom lip. I bit onto the skin that was peeling from my lips. My lips were extremely dry, they burned from the exposure to oxygen.

There was a long pause. Beta Noah did not face me as he looked at the floor, almost liked it held the anwser to any question he had. I did not want to be the one to break the silence, questions over powered my brain like him. However, there were too many questions to ask, I can't pick one because another one would pop into my stressed mind. I don't know what to ask him first, or how. I don't even know how I am suppose to talk to him. He runs a hand in his dirty blonde hair. Beta Noah finally looks up to me, he opens his mouth to say something but quickly closes his mouth stunned. A large smile breaks out onto his face. His stone-cold expression is long gone having faded into a sweet- heart warming smile. His face held no wrinkles from smiling, I could tell this was something he did not do often. It was a shame because his smile lit up his facial features, he looked like an angel on earth.

When he finally did speak his voice was soft and light. "Why did you come back?"

I scrunched my eyebrows togther in confusion. "What do you mean? I was always going to come back, I just needed time to think." I turned my head to the side, I watched as his large smile disappeared behind his normal expression. My plan was never to leave, I can't leave King Jaxon. He is my other half, if I leave him truly I would slowly die. Separating from ones mate may not instantly kill you, but it will leave a large whole in your heart. A hole that no matter what it cannot be replaced. You would stop eating, and sleeping, doing the things you normally love will to do. Even getting out of bed would feel like a chore. The light would not hold beauty, the stars would not look graceful, and the flowers would not have a sweet smell. Life would be full of suffering and pain. I can't imagine someone who could live threw that pain. Being regected by your mate is very similar, however you would be able to go on about your life normal but something will always feel missing. My mother had told me all of this when I was young. She told me to love and care for my mate because he is and will be my other half. But thinking of King Jaxon it's rather hard to believe.

"I know, but what made you finally come back here?" He said this as if he knew the anwser himself. I looked out the window by my side and watched the rain pour down, the angels were crying. They were crying loud and they never looked like they would stop.

I let out a large air of breath, it left me empty of air and oxygen. I took a quick breath in and looked towards the floor as Beta Noah had done. "I was worried for my family." I said this with confidence, not ashamed for a second.

"Why were you worried for your family?" He looked up from underneath his eyelashes, a smile played on his lips as I motioned around the house.

"Beta Noah, this may come as a suprise to you, but I know the real reason why you and your pack members are here. And it's not for a friendly visit." His smile droped and his face held an empty expression.
His body tensed, he looked at me for an explanation. "My brother told me."

"And your brother is?" He raised an eyebrow. Humor laced in every word.

"Alpha Jacksons son." I said this as simple as possible. He looked at me for a second before finally nodding his head in understandment.

"So, naturally you thought after you ran away he was going to hurt your pack?" I nodded my head to his anwser. He did not look suprised by it at all. His eyes wandered behind me towards the kitchen. The fire crackled behind him. The heat from the fireplace radiated all the way over to me. "You do not have to worry." He said this quietly and full of regret. His voice sounded strained.

"So he hasn't hurt anyone?" I asked him hopefully. I have no clue where King Jaxon is or what he is doing. It is strange that I have not seen him, I craved just to see his face even if it was for a short second.

"You do not need to worry. I promise you he has not hurt anyone. Trust me, he has been too busy looking for you." My heart skipped a beat as he said this. My cheeks burned and I looked down with a light smile. I had thought he stoped chasing me. I know it is what I wanted was to be alone, but I felt glad he was searching through the dark woods for me. Even if it might be to punish me, my heart warmed at the thought. I feel foolish for feeling this. I'm not fit to be his mate, a Luna, and much less a Queen. This is the man that is threatening my pack. He is and will never be anything more then just a killer, not a mate. The smile fell from my face like the drop of a hat. I am left with the refreshment of knowing my family is safe, that is what matters to me most.

"And he is where?" My eyes stayed glued to the floor. My voice no longer held the confidence it held just seconds ago. It had left along with my small smile.

"He had went to the north boarder, he wanted to make sure you were not around that area." I nodded my head connecting this with the comment he had said at the party.

"Oh." This was the only thing that I could muster up to say. I picked up the coffee missing it's presence of warmth in my hand. As soon as my fingers picked up the mug, heat grew like weeds in my body.

"He knows your here, he's on his way back." I nodded my head without saying another word. "I mind linked him while you were sleeping, I figured I would give you some time alone before I told him." His action made me smile grateful for holding off to tell him. He could get into a lot of trouble for what he has done, even I knew that. I looked up from the floor. My hands wrapped around the mug tightened.

"Thank you." He nodded his head in response. Slowly he stood from the chair he was on and walked towards the fire. A pile of logs was stacked neatly into a bin. He effortlessly pick up a log and set it into the fire. If King Jaxon was on his way back from the north boarder he should be here any minute. My chest started to pound fast, I bit down on my lip harder.

"Listen, he has been-"Beta Noah started off not turning to look at me, I cut him off before he could finish.

"Let's talk about something else. I don't want to talk about him anymore." My voice cracked loudly. He didn't say anything as he turned to look at me. He puckered his lips together, a soft sigh was made from him. He gave me a short and stern nod before turning around to load more wood into the fire.

"Okay fine, so your Alpha Jacksons daughter?" My bones rattled with emotions. Beta Noah turned around and wiped his dirty hands on his jeans.

"Yes, in a way I guess." He turned his head sideways looking for an explanation. Each moment I sat in his presence I became more comfortable talking to him.

"And by that you mean?" I awkwardly let out a humorous laugh. Beta Noah stayed calm.

I stoped laughing and looked out the window once again. "So why were you here by yourself?" I decided to ingore his question altogether. He looked suprised at first, however decided against asking again telling it was a bad topic.

"I stoped by to get a change of clothes. Good thing I did, I guess." I took a sip of my coffee only to see that was the last swallow. I set the empty mug on the table, my fingers played with the rough fabric of the robe. It was hard and uncomfortable, however I felt free to be out of the long heavy dress. I had set the dress nicely on the bathroom counter, hopeing one day someone could fix it. It was no use however, as beautiful as it was it is nothing now. The stain dirt had merged with the cloth never leaving, there were large rips that would be almost impossible to sow back together. And it was soaked with cold water that made the silky fabric hard and wrinkly.

Silence once again spread over the room like a disastrous fire. I looked into the fire and watched the flames burn around us, eating at our carefree notions. I wonder if Ryan is looking for me? What am I suppose to tell him when I finally do see him? I don't even know how to handle this myself.

"So what's going to happen now?" I asked knowing I have broken the topic I had asked to leave. He looked at me dead in the eye, and I could see he was as lost as I was. He had no clue as what to do, no path or direction to tell him what is going to happen. His eyes were wide with curiosity.

"I do not know." His strong voice had broke. It cracked and at that I felt weak. A strong, powerful man like himself, had no idea what was going to happen.

"What do-" I stoped short when I heard the slam of a door. Beta Noah stood up from his chair in the matter of seconds. His relaxed stance tensed, his face turned blank and cold. The power I had gotten use to surrounded him, I felt the size of a mouse next to him.

The same intoxicating smell from the party filled the room. I had missed this smell, I wanted to hold onto it forever. It warmed my insides, I can't think straight. I closed my eyes taking in the exotic smell. My hands relaxed and my hold on my robe droped. Tingles erupted just by inhaling the smell of my mate. I could feel his presence behind me, this time the power practically choked me. Eyes burned the back of my head, I couldn't bring myself to turn my head. I opened my eyes when I heard the dark voice of Beta Noah.

"Alpha Jaxon, sir." Beta Noah bowed his head in respect. Calm foot steps were heard behind me.

"Beta Noah." King Jaxon's voice made me shiver. It was dark, yet light, his voice was soft, but held power and athuorty at the same time. Like when we were dancing, I wanted to listen to him talk just to hear it.

I couldn't keep my eyes off of him any longer. Just his presence behind me was a siren calling my name. It was sweet and I yearned just to be closer, to breath in his scent like it was a bakery. The siren was a soft whisper I couldn't ingore, it pulled me in until I had to look. The sirens devilish plans outcome had me wishing I had not turn to look at him. His loving blue eyes had turn into a solid dark ocean, blue. His jaw was tense, his hands were in fists tight enough for his arm veins to stick out. His suit he was wearing had the first couple of buttons undone, it was soaked with water telling me he had been in the woods for a long time. The neat hair was now a tangled mess, his cheeks flushed with bright red. I couldn't resist the urge to think he was handsome even if he looked torn and a mess. He was very becoming. His lips suddenly turned into a furious scowl. He glared at me as if he could snap me like a twig. I held my shaking hands together trying to hide the fear that washed over me. I looked down at the floor, his face remained plastered inside my head, it terrified me. Just the look on his face made me aquiver.

"If you do excuse us Beta Noah, this lovely girl and I have much to discuss." His voice was deadly calm, he pronounced 'lovely' in a sickly sarcastic voice.

Beta Noah was hesitant. He looked at me weary, like he was debating on leaving me alone with my mate. After seconds of no reply from him he came to a decision. A short nod was directed towards me. "Ma'am." As if his feet were made of lead he took slow steps towards the stairs. Each step he took farther away from me I came to realization that I was going to be alone with King Jaxon.

I looked up once again to face my mate, he held a sly demeaning in his eyes. He inched closer to me while I pushed myself on the other side of the couch. A nefarious smirk crept it's way onto his face. He reached the front of the couch, his hand set on top of the of the couch. I couldn't tell if I wanted to cheer in joy for finally seeing my mate, or cry out in fear.

"Mine." This one simple word came out in a low monstrous growl. Goose bumps rose up on my arms. Before I could react he was in front of me in seconds. His hand on the couch grabbed onto my left shoulder. He pulled me up until I was standing on my feet. I was too mesmerized by him to notice we were moving. He slammed my back against a nearby wall, pain shot threw my back. I scrunched my face together in pain. The hand not clutching onto my shoulder was placed on my waist lightly. His imperturbable state had changed into one full of anger. His dark blue eyes had dilated into pitch black.

I looked at him and it was as if I was seeing the devil himself. His jaw was clenched together. His lips were in a terrifying scowl. His eyes sparked with the vile plans inside his head. His hand on my shoulder dug his nails into my skin. I kept in the cry that washed over me from the pain.

"Maybe I didn't make this clear enough Ethereal, but you are mine. Do you understand me?" He narrowed his eyes at me as if waiting for me to run off again. I slowly nodded my head. My lips felt glued together. The tingles in my arm did little to no help extinguishing the pain in my shoulder. His face nestled into the crook of my neck. His hot breath fanned over me, I shivered at the feeling. I could feel him smirk against my skin at my reaction. He took deep breaths inhaling my scent. "I don't think you do." He pulled his head away from my neck to look me dead in the eye.

His eyes were no longer black, but back to a dark blue. "King Jaxon, I-" I tried to talk too him, but was inturupted by his loud foul growl. I flinched at the loud suddan noise. It filled to empty quiet room. I felt sick as I could feel my chest move up and down. I was scared. Not even in my nightmares would I thought to have this happen. It's too sureal, and not in any way shape or form good. His body was close to mine, inches apart.

"Don't you call me that." I trembled with fear, yet at the same time I felt confident. I scrambled searching for something to call him. I was left blank and flabbergasted. "Jaxon." He responded after my confused silence. I scanned his face trying too decide if he was serious.

"J-Jaxon, I understand we are mates-." His name felt right coming from my mouth, it felt natural to say. My voice was soft, it was almost unheard. I didn't want to speak, however I felt that if I didn't reply in someway it would make things worse.

"Then why did you run from me? Do you even think? You ran into the rouge infested woods in the middle of the fucking night. I swear if you ever do that again I will have no choice but to show you how merciless I can really be." This statement was not only a threat, but a promise as well. His face held confidence and truth as he a said this.

I gasped at his words. I was unable to say anything now. My body was practically shakeing. No matter how many times I'd try to come to a grip on reality, I just couldn't believe that King Jaxon was standing next to me and talking to me. Never once had I'd ever thought to even see him. One thing just leads to another, and to me it lead to something I couldn't believe was happening. He smirked at me, enjoying every second.

"Go on. Test me." His mouth came close to my ear, his words were a soft whisper, however they were rough and bold.

"I didn't mean to run from you, I needed to think, I'm sorry." I cringed at the pain in my shoulder caused by my mate. It was unbearable, it felt almost bone crushing. My voice was soft and light-hearted. My intentions were never to fight with him, and I do not believe fighting with him would solve any of our problems. I can't argue with him, I won't. I could hear the unevenness and cracks in my voice as I spoke, I could hear the regret and sadness in my own voice.

"Think? Think about what?" His deep loud voice made my goose bumps stand up taller. His voice grew louder each second longer we talked.

"I...needed to think about you." My answer was short and simple. I took a deep gulp when I watch his face morph into a deeper glare.

"What the fuck is there to think about?" His voice was loud and terrifying. His actions and words were igneous, he looked like a bomb ready to be set off.

I turned my head to the side and close my eyes. I squeezed them tight ready to tell him. "You're King Jaxon." I paused for a long second before I reopened my eyes.The silence that filled the room made me shiver. When I opened my eyes I saw his eyes were in a fixed glare at me. My three words were clear enough for him to understand.

"Listen here, I don't give a shit if you like it or not but you are my mate, we will get married, we will mate, and you will bare my children. If you have a problem with that, get the hell over it." I felt a cold wet liquid slither down my arm. I turned my head to my shoulder to see a light trail of my blood. At this sight the warm room felt cold. The fireplace providing heat was nonexistent, the air around us droped ten degrees. The wall I was up against felt like a wall of ice.

While the thought of being mates with King Jaxon frightened me, it was not what I was scared to tell him. I know I cannot be a strong and fearless Luna or Queen without a wolf, and if I tell him this he will as well know it. I can't be a great Luna like he expects me to be. "That's not it."

"What?"

"I-I..." He let out a short low growl. I felt finally able to breath as his hand on my shoulder released. In one swift move I was flung over the side and landed on the couch with a bounce.

My heart pace quickened as I saw how furious he really was. He did not look happy at all, his body stood over the couch like a skyscraper. My body felt weak and a strange feeling in the back of my mouth formed. It was the cry for help waiting to be spoken.

"Tell me, now." I did not reply. Jaxon walked towards me and leaned on the couch with his left knee. He grabbed onto my wrists and brought them above my head pinned on the couch. The grip he had on me was not tight, however I knew if I tried to get out of his hold it would only end badly.

The sparks felt ineffable. The robe around me moved slightly showing my bare legs. I felt uncovered in the large robe. I kicked the cloth of the robe over making sure it wouldn't show anything else. "It doesn't matter, I promise." My voice was shaky showing him the lie I had just told.

"Yes it does." I shook my head at him and tried to look a him without showing him how worried I truly was. He was not going to let go why I ran into the woods. Jaxon is a King and gets what he wants, if he wants me to talk eventually I will have to tell him

"I'm human." I said this too quiet for even him to hear. He looked at me trying to comprehend what I had said. "I'm human." I repeated louder.

He froze, his face went completely blank. His body relaxed, but he did not look better. His face paled and his eyes went wide. "What did you say?" His loud voice droped into a whisper.

"I don't have a wolf, I'm human." I felt a pang in my chest to see his reaction. His face was deadly pale, he looked completely stunned. He stood up completely from the couch and let go of my arms. He turned away from me and ran a hand threw his wet brown hair. He closed his eyes and shook his head. It was as if he had seen a ghost.

"My room is the second door up stairs. Find some clothes to put on. I've got to take a phone call." His motions and voice were completely monotone. I had no clue what he was thinking of the information I had just give to him other than the fact he was not happy.

I took a deep breath waiting for him to explain himself. He turned to look at me for a second before turning and walking to the front door. He didn't say another word as he left with the slam of the door. I jumped in my seat at the sound. I was left confused at what had just happened. I lifted my hand to feel my shoulder. It stung as I lightly touched it.

I took slow actions as I walked towards the pale blue blanket that had fallen on the floor. I wrapped it around me and laid down on the couch. I pulled the soft blanket closer to me trying to warm my body. I watched as the fire spark another small speck of ash next to the one from where I opened my eyes.

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I'm so so sorry for such a slow update, I was really trying to update last night but my chapter did not save. If you guys want to know when the next update will usually be I'll post a message.

I really hate having Jaxon walk out on Elizabeth like that but honestly it's not what you think!! Don't worry eventually you will find out the reason, maybe not for a while however.

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