"We should go to Disney land!! There is one in California right?" practically squealing as we drive past the bright city lights. I have to admit I am a little excited to be here. If I don't focus on why we are here then there are so many things to do, everything is done in the US of A. Practically every movie was produced here, all iconic eats are made to a whole new level, like chicken and waffles who does that? Americans and its celebrity central.  

"Jay I think we should focus on getting you too your family" I yawn and groan at the same time, Jordan is a buzz kill, "I doubt supernatural terrorist groups will look for us there" I mumble. But of course super hearing and both males catch it. Noah looks rather amused from the drivers seat while Jordan turns around to give me a very unamused look. 

"Jaime, this is a serious situation we are in you know, we have to be careful where we choose to go. We are putting all the people around us in danger, If they die because of us, that'll live with you for the rest of your life Jay. I don't want you to have that over your head" His expression turns soft in the end. 

"I know" I whisper dejected, "I'm just not looking forward to seeing them" My confession causes Jordan to raise a concerned eyebrow, "Why?"

Sighing I look back out the window the pretty lights and billboard catching my wandering eye, "I'm walking into their house pronouncing to be their daughter, that's fucking awkward Jordan. And even worse, they have at least a small amount of memories and emotions to my name. I have none. My brothers are going to see me as their sister, but I'm stuck in the mind set that you are my only brother. This hasn't sunk in yet" Tracing my finger along the window I sigh once again, "They will identify me as family, I will identify them as strangers"

"It's going to be hard to except all of this when it comes crashing down in front of me, it feels like I'm still living in a never ending dream"

I am also terrified to see my parents, will they even like me? what if they kick me away when they find out my lycan is dying and may be weak for the rest of my life. Will my brothers be kind? or will they find my presences threatening. 

Not to mention I am still living like a human, am I going to cope in the world I was born into? Or will I run back to the safety of the known.

I want to talk to Jordan or even Noah about my doubts, but they have been living in the supernatural world their whole lives and they know who they are. I don't. I haven't decided if I'm ok with being a lycan or if its what I want to be. I still have a small chance of being in the human world. As helpful as they are, they don't understand these feelings.

A small part of me even wants to go back, back to New Zealand, to my abusive parents, as wrong as it sounds. But I don't remember the abuse and it was my normal for so long. I talked of leaving when I started to get a whiff of what was really happening, but that was to escape to a human city, not a werewolf pack. 

Everything was just easier back then, even if it was a lie. Nothing has sunk in yet. I have accepted that I am not human because the signs are there but that doesn't mean I have accepted it fully as who I am. 

These last few days I have been strong so that my brother doesn't regret getting me away, I am thankful its just going to take awhile to accept everything. To be honest I just want a few minutes alone. So that I can cry and digest everything. I need a good cry without anyone in my face, as good as their intentions are I need to do it alone. 

Will there be anyone at White Crescent I can talk to? Someone whose human, perhaps they fell in love with a werewolf and had their world change. Or will I be alone in all of this?

I'm a car with two people I am learning to trust, and care for. Yet I feel incredibly lonely right now. 

As if sensing my sorrow I see my abused self when I look at my window, Are you here to make things worse I think to myself. I find myself internally begging her to leave me alone, I am feeling enough grief as it is. Instead I feel a strange sense of calmness rush through me. Drawing a soft gasp from my lips, the feeling soft but intense at the same time. A caress to my mind. And strangely it feels loving.  

Maybe you are my lycan after all. 

I'm sorry you've been through all this and that I am finding it difficult to accept you. It must be a punch to the heart to know that, when you've been the one protecting me all your life. I hope she can hear what I'm saying. If we weren't so weak, maybe I could talk to her. She could be the one I need to talk to about this, the only one who would understand.

The refection smiles weakly, did she hear what I said? She does a small nod, causing a relieved but sad smile to grace my features, it even drawls tears from my eyes. 

Lifting my hand to the window, "I am so sorry" I whisper. Her hand connects with mine drawling even more tears from my eyes.

"Jaime?" I turn to Jordan tearfully then turn back to the window to find her gone.

"I- I talked to her" My eyes still trained to my reflection.

"Who?"

"My lycan"

I don't hear their rushes responses because I find my eyelids go heavy and within the blink of an eye I was out like a light.

When I wake up its still dark, but I'm not in a car, now I'm situated comfortably on a bed. Jericho snoring soundly at my bedside. I wonder if he knew what I was this whole time? He is a very dominated breed, but he didn't question me being the boss at all, even as a puppy he allowed me to be the Alpha, but he made it very clear to Dad he was not this leader. Did he know I was on top of the food chain? That hidden beneath my skin is a beast.

It would explain a few things, I did my research when I first got him and it heavily advised that if you are a soft person not to get this breed, practically written in bold it said you have to be a dominate person. Someone who can teach the Mastiff who is the actual boss.

Maybe that's why my parents quite easily let me keep such a dominate dog. To test my lycan reactions to other animals, or so help me to test on Jericho. That question has been haunting me, I don't want to know what they could have done to my dog. 

I try to go back to sleep but curiosity gets the better of me, I end up finding me in the bathroom looking at my reflection expectantly. Minutes past and I see no sigh of her presence. Maybe she showed her self because I was vulnerable.

"Jaime?"

Noah approaches the bathroom slowly, his hands rubbing his eyes, with a yawn on his lips, "Are you ok?"

Nodding, "Yeah"  I turn to face him.

He looks at the mirror, and nods his head to it, "Where you communicating with her again?" 

Sighing softly I shake my head, "I tried too, but I guess she doesn't want to talk at the moment" My eyes train back to the mirror one last time. I look up to Noah and smile apologetically, "I'm sorry if I woke you up"

"It's ok" He looks at his watch, "We need to get going soon anyway"  

So I did wake him up, I wince slightly, "Sorry" He reaches out his hand to caress my face softly, his own just centimeters from mine. He mumbles something, but the fact he is so close has my heart beating so loud I don't hear him. 

I feel something screaming at the back of my mind, but I ignore it the moment his lips touch mine softly. Following his lead, I kiss him back. But it doesn't feel right. It feels wrong. Noah sensing this eruptly pushes back, practically throwing me far away from him. 

It all happened so quickly, the sudden kiss and the attraction I felt instantly fainting away. It was not a good kiss, it wasn't like I thought it would be, I thought it would leave sparks and a dreamy look on my face, but instead it just felt so wrong.

"I- I.. I'm sorry I shouldn't have done that" Noah says before making his escape.

I'm left to the bathroom for the next few minutes, my head spinning and mind clouded by what just happened. I wanted to kiss Noah. I was defiantly attracted to him. But now... I don't know.

Jordan finds me in the bathroom, asking what happened but I don't reply. He helps me load Jericho into the car and pack up our things. Noah and I ignore each other and don't say a word.

"Why don't we have iHop? That's an american food chain? You wanted to experience American culture right Jay?" Jordan says in an attempt to lift the tense atmosphere around us.

"Hmm? Oh yeah, sure that sounds great Jordy" I mumble from the back. 

Needless to say breakfast was extremely awkward, my eyes remained on my pancakes, I'm guessing Noahs was also trained onto his food, I could feel Jordans glaze on us constantly, but he never questioned us. He remained to himself and silently observed. 

When Jordan has enough of Noah and I picking at our food, he suggests getting back onto the road. When I get up to leave I stop short. A disgusting smell lingered in the air, something only I seemed to have noticed, "Whats that smell?"

Jordan sniffs the air but doesn't catch what I've caught, neither does Noah, when they brushed it off and went to go through the door but something just doesn't feel right, I feel on alert. I couldn't help but yank them both back, "Something isn't right" I try again. 

Before they can put in a word, the smell intensifies. In an instead they both stiffen, Noah starts pushing us both towards the back door, "I need you to go with Jordan out the back door, it'll lead you straight to the forest you need to run, as fast as you can"

"But Jericho-" He cuts me off, "I'll follow you in the car, he'll be ok, now go"

Jordan has his hand in mine firmly pulling to to the exit, "What was that smell?" I question. 

"Rogues" Pushing the door open I'm pulled straight into the shadows of the looming forest. Pulling me behind a tree, Jordan quickly surveys the area, "I'm going to shift and you are going to get on my back, it'll be quicker" 

Jordan give me an apologetic look, "Stay here"

A few seconds later Jordan is back in wolf form his clothes around his neck. When Jordan sees I'm safely on his back he quickly takes off into the forest.  

Before long we have rogues following us, leading all hell to break loose.

A/N Sorry guys but they aren't mates, I felt it would have been difficult for Jaime. To accept her new life and be thrown a life partner. She needs to get use to her new life before accepting a mate. Her bond with Noah will be explained in the next few chapters.