It's been a little over a month since I got to White Crescent Moon Pack. 

A lot has happened but we finally received News of Redstone, after two weeks of radio silence we received the unfortunate news of the pack facing causalities. Vanessa wasn't one of them, but her son was. Leaving her completely and utterly alone. Della went and spent a week helping the rebuilds and to comfort her friend, I was not allowed to go but Della assured me that Ness would be moving to white crescent in a few months time. She wanted to be at Redstone for now to mourn. 

During the past few weeks I've spent with my parents, we've slowly made improvements in our relationships, I'm not calling them Mum and Dad yet but I hope to one day. They still haven't pressured me into anything which I appreciate greatly. I've put off seeing the witches Della speaks of, they were meant to arrive weeks ago, but I didn't feel ready to change everything. I will, but I want to get use to the life I'll be forever more living first. 

I've put off meeting my brothers and everyone for weeks. I know it's unfair, but every time I've gone to do it I've wussed out.

Word is rumored in the pack of my return but nothing has been confirmed, everyone's lips are sealed, but everyone has noticed the Luna and Alphas uncontrollable happiness over the last few weeks and the disappearances of their sons. Whom, last I heard were currently in England, Theodore is said to be training to be the Alpha of Della's fathers pack in Europe. And since they aren't 100% welcomed in their own home, Della thought it best they studied a few weeks in England, her exact words to me were, "Its not a big deal Jaime, it is going to be his pack to protect one day, he should be living there in a year or two therefore he should know the packs ins and outs before then anyway. It'll be good for him and Adrien will get a feel for a ally pack"

Highly unfair of me to have the boys set away. But no matter how much I try to convince Della to bring them back she refuses to, "They are not to step foot here until you are ready and I don't want you saying so just to bring them back out of guilt"

Jordan is supporting me but I know he thinks I should try and give them a chance soon. I do appreciate everyone's patience but I don't want to keep everyone waiting too long. Which has me spending most of my days walking this path behind the house; Dxton says it's the familys personal trail to use when they want some privacy. No one else is allowed to use it, making it a nice place to be with Jericho and get my thoughts in order. 

It's my favourite time of the day, being with my big boy, just like old times. I have made it my mission to spend my time with him, I haven't been able to while trying to rekindle with Della and Dxton.

But according to Roxana she's been taking extra good care of him, and based on how much Jericho seems to like her I can see he is indeed being cared for. 

But if I'm being honest I have been taking the trail for another reason, it leads to a small lake that's situated in the middle of the packs forest area, giving me complete solitude to speaks with my lycan. She doesn't always make an appearances, only when I seem to need it most. She says its easy to communicate when our appearance is shown so that I can actually see her within my eyes. But she says that her appearances drain her energy, because of how weak she is from the years of injections and the lack of shifting to strengthen our bond. But Della says the few talks we have had are good for us, and she can see a small bond forming already. She said its as clear as day that my Lycan cares for me greatly, and I find my self caring for her too. Even Dxton has been inputting his wisdom on me by saying that, me seeing her in my reflections are me seeing directly into my soul, seeing her. He explained that he can see her every time he looks within my eyes, and that I should try seeing his and Dellas, every time we speak. I haven't seen them yet, but I could have sworn I saw Jordan's the other day. It was a real trip.

I find myself enjoying my chats with my parents, even if its their blunt as a knife wisdom. But it's their bluntness that's working for me, it's kicking my ass in the right direction, keeping my mind clear and thoughts on a better path. 

My Lycan agrees, she cares for them greatly and appreciates their wisdom. 

But she is also egar to see the loved ones that have missed us and you know what I think I might be too. 

So first thing I do when I see her golden eyes this morning is smile, "I think it's time don't you?"

Her eyes glint with happiness, She of course knew I would say this, but she still nods "It would be nice to meet more brothers" she agrees, "And it would also be nice to be referred to as Delilah, but as Delilah" she hints at the witches.

I take a moment to think, I have been thinking about this all week, and I can't keep putting off the inevitable, "I know"

"Youre going to have to tell them" she says sensing the small unease, I nod and repeat the words "I know"

Our parting words are her telling me she proud and that I am allowed to wait longer if that is what I decide in the end. 

Walking back home I end up stopping in a clearing to play with Jericho for an hour or two, it made me happy seeing Jericho looking happier, the poor boy hadn't been given enough attention. But I am determined to change that. "what about you Jericho? Are you ready to become Jericho Bosque?"

He barks loudly, with a mall howl towards the air, "Yeah I figured as much" I softly patted his ear.

Patting the side of my hip and motion him forward, "Lets get it over with then aye"

Sitting in the living room are my parents and Jordan, talking about the warriors training regiments or something. A  sense of warmth spreads in my heart at the friendly atmosphere. 

"I want to meet them tomorrow, and the witches" I wince at my awkward demand. They all look up at my erupt appearance. 

"You aren't saying this to bring the boys back home are you?" Making my way down to the couch to join them, sitting beside Jordan I shake my Head. 

"It's not fair that they can't leave in there own house, but no it's not because of guilt, I want to take a step forward, even if its a big step, I need to stop putting it off. And my lycan is getting restless, she wants out"  

"Are you sure? You can see the witches in a few months if you want to meet the boys" Della suggests. 

"I'm done ignoring it, I want to see them, then see the witches" 

"You know this means you'll be Delilah Bosque, not Jaime Garcia" Jordan speaks up adverting my attention to him while my parents are distracted talking hushly to each other over my demand, "And the memories, they will come back"

"I know. It scares the shit out of me. But if I don't do it now, I'll just keep pushing it back. I'm not 100% ready, but how can I ever be 100% ready to live a life only told in fairy tales" grabbing his hand I give it a squeeze, "Besides I have your support for the whole thing, I know I can do this. But I will need you Jordy"

"I'll be there, every step I'll be right beside you no matter what, I wont stray from your side ok?"

"Ok, But hey" I squeeze his hand again, "I'm not making this step so that I can escape the past, but so you too can escape them. We will deal with it together ok?"

"Ok" We do a side hug, not remembering that we weren't the only ones in the room. Della has a smile adoring smile at our show of sibling love. I always thought they would hate when Jorden or I showed a sibling bond, but she doesn't, neither of them do. They understand.

"I would like to meet them by not as Jaime, but as Delilah. It'll be my first introduction as the female lycan I was born to be and It'll be my first step forward" 

"I don't want to hide anymore, I need to be the one to stop them. I can't let them continue going forward with their plans, I need to stop them in order to continue forward. Maybe then I can finally relax into this new life"

Jordan softly pushes my jumping leg back down, he's smiling at me, a proud smile. I smile back.

"Are you absolutely sure Jaime?"

Taking in a deep breath I nod, "Yes"