Forty-Two

Days went by without speaking to Clayton, and soon those days turned into weeks. And after a hour or so of me not talking to him Clayton began to ignore me himself. So the two of is lived together in silence, both of us refusing to talk to the other.

He hadn't even bother going with me to go and get my ultrasound to see the gender of the baby, instead he sent his mom. And when I got back he didn't even bother asking if it was a boy or a girl.

I stood in my living room with Jocelyn staring at all our hard work, feeling accomplished. We had fully decorated the living room for Christmas, which was only a few days away.

She smiled at me "See now it looks so nice and homey in here, and you actually look prepared for Christmas!"

I sighed "I'm hardly ready for Christmas. I still haven't done any Christmas shopping. And I don't know if I'll even be able to do any shopping this year."

"Why not?" She asked raising an eyebrow.

"Well I have no money, and I can't ask Clayton for any because we're currently not talking. And I can't even leave this house without asking Clayton if it's okay. If left without his permission again he would probably lock me up in a room all day."

"Well you should at least ask him. I mean you have to at least get his parents, and your parents a gift. I know Clayton won't do it because he never buys gifts for anyone. And you have to talk to him at some point so you might as well start now."

""I'm not talking to him first because if I do then he wins." I mumbled sitting on the couch.

"Your relationship shouldn't be about winning or losing. That's not what relationships are suppose to be. Sometimes you have to be willing to cave in first."

"Well as far as I'm concerned when he made that deal he ended our relationship." I grumbled.

"Ev, just ask him for money and if you can go. After that you can ignore him again all you want. And I know he's sorry about what he did. He hates himself for what he did."

I rolled my eyes "How do you know that?"

"Because he doesn't buy anyone gifts." She spoke quietly, probably so Clayton wouldn't hear. "But he bought you a gift, for Christmas. And he has never given anybody a gift before in his life but he went out on his own, and he bought you a gift."

I bit my lip and sighed "Fine, I'll ask him. But I'm not speaking to him again after that."

I stood up and slowly made my way up the stairs then to his office where he was. I lightly knocked on the door I felt my stomach knot up talking to him didn't feel right.

"Come in." I heard his deep voice say. I felt my body suddenly go crazy from the sound of his voice that I hadn't heard in weeks.

I ran my fingers through my hair one more time before I slowly opened his office door. I walked into his office while keeping my head down so I wasn't looking at him.

"Um well I was just wondering since Christmas is only a few days away and I hadn't gotten anyone gifts, if I could maybe go to the mall with Jocelyn. To go and buy gifts." I looked up and saw Clayton intensely staring at me.

He sat there silently for a few seconds before he cleared his throat "Yes, I suppose that would be fine. As long as your back in two hours."

I nodded my head "Oh okay. And I was also wondering if maybe I could burrow some money. To buy the gifts with since I have no money."

"Don't be silly Evelyn you don't need to burrow money. We're married so my money is your money." He spoke standing up and pulling his wallet out of his pocket and handing me his red card.

I walked over to him and grabbed the card "Yeah, thanks." I said grabbing the card and leaving the room.

"Wait Evelyn!" Clayton yelled as I walked out of the room.

I turned around raising an eyebrow.

"I uh. I um wanted to tell you that I uh that I uh." Clayton said biting his lip nervously, he shook his head and sighed "That I want you home in two hours."

I nodded my head and went downstairs.

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Two hours later I walked into the house with my hands full of boxes, I had got all my gifts wrapped at the mall. For Clayton's mom I got her lotions from Bath and Body Works and a charm bracelet, for his dad I bought a Seahawk jersey since it was his favorite football team. For my mom I bought her a new set of pots and pans, for my dad I bought him new covers for the seats in his car. And for Clayton I bought him a watch.

I didn't want to get Clayton a gift but Jocelyn all but forced me to. I put the gifts down in the couch and took my coat and shoes on then I noticed a soft noise. I quit my movements and closely listened I heard soft cries coming from upstairs.

I slowly walked up stairs once I made it upstairs I walked into the bedroom where the crying was coming from.

Upon entering the room I saw Clayton laying on the bed holding my pillow tightly in his arms and crying loudly.

Clayton looked up at me and immediately sat up and wiped his tears off of his now red face. "Go away!" He screamed at me in his Alpha voice "Can't you tell I don't want you to see me like this!"

I flinched slightly but I shook my head now very scared "No, I'm not leaving." I softly whispered walking in front of him "Why are you like this? The Clayton I know has no emotions."

Clayton sighed "I'm such a screw up. My whole life I've been the fucking screw up! I've always screwed everything up in my life first with let my mom get killed and now I ruin my mate!"

I sighed and touched his face gently wiping away his tears "You're not a screw up. You just make really bad decisions."

"I'm so sorry. For ruining everything with you, I don't know what's wrong with me. I ruined everything and now you hate me but that's fine because I don't blame you, I have ruined your life in every way possible. If I could go back I would make it so I would've never met you, so I would've never got the chance to hurt you."

I sighed "I wouldn't. I wouldn't change anything that happened with us because if we would've never meet, I would have nothing. I would have no friends because everyone in my old pack fucking hated me, I would only have my parents, and I wouldn't have a sweet little boy growing in me." I whispered.

Clayton's eyes widened and his face broke out into a huge smile "Did you just say boy?" He asked excitedly.

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A/N keep in mind her mood in changing because she is pregnant!

Vincent or Grey? Which name do you guys like better? :)