Ok can I just starting with... WHAT THE SHELL WAS WITH THAT SEASON FINAL?! AH THE FEELS!! *screams* splinters gone!! Yeah...

Donnie's POV

My eyes drifted over Raph's body. 
"Please be ok.... oh shell." I sobbed. My mind was running in a million pieces. I rubbed my hands over his head. Raph moaned slightly. "No." I shook my head. Come on Donatello pull your head in. How?! How could I? What did I do wrong? My hands were moving around the wound. My hands were easily finding the spot I hit Raph. I identified the mark. Light. Maybe slight brain damage... Tears welling up. What was wrong with me?! I could hear Leo leave. Good. Raph moaned slightly.
"I'm sorry."  I whispered to him. Cleaning the wound with antiseptic.  My legs were shaking hard, struggling to hold me in place. Metal head twitched next to me. Sparks were still flying. I flicked my eyes towards him..
"Sorry Raph." My hand curled over his head. I reached for bandages from my fallen red cabinet. Bandages... I drove my teeth into my front lip to stop the cries. What did I do wrong? Even before all of this... The kraang? Shredder... They hunted us because what? Because Hamato Yoshi and Oroku Saki fought over a girl! Because jealousy... I never asked for this. Fifteen year old me was excited me wanted to be the hero. We all did... Raph's head was mostly covered now.  Eighteen year old me cursed against the rat. He was selfish. Here your my sons pay my debt. Karai... She was thrown into this... Force to decided her side on life. I sat on the floor of my lab and cried. Feeling six years old when I got lost in the sewers. What was the one thing that cheered me up? Mikey... I kicked my foot across the floor.
"Give him back!" My words were slurred. Drooled. "Give me my younger brother!" Raph was stirring, honestly I didn't care if Raph woke up now, his eyes flashed open. 

"Donatello!" He wrapped his arms around me. "Bud?" He asked, eyes laced with worry. I bit in my lip. Words refusing to come out. "Hey Donnie, I'm here." I could tell he was trying to work what was wrong. I looked at him.
"Careful with your head." Was all I manged to say before the rest became drooled. Raph frowned, as if he'd been completely unaware of the injury. Raph shook his head  and wrapped his arms around me, nuzzling his snout into my chest. 
"It's ok." He soothed. I shook my head, lazily trying to push him off. These passed two years confused me. Raph went from don't you touch me. To I'm here... Almost like he was trying to replace Mikey. No! This wasn't intentions. Raph was whispering words to me... Wait was that Tarzan he was singing? 

"I will protect you
From all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry  

I smiled, taking his hand. Raph slowly rubbed my palm continuing. 

"Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on"

His voice was soft, slight cracks in it... but in the end those were the best... His tone gave away the fact he really wanted to protect me...

"No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart
Always"

 What they say, what Leonardo said. I winced as the memory of the blue eyed turtle kicking me... 

"Shhh..." He slowly stroked his hand over my stroke gathering forehead. It was all right, Raph had me... My big brother had me... Eyes starting to droop. Just alittle sleep. 

I woke up with smoke screamimg up my nostrils. I sat up, head hitting the pole above my head. 
"Shell." I winced, wait why was I in bed?
"Ahh!" Raph screamed, I bolted up.
"Raph!" My legs wobbled, as I went toward the kitchen. The usual frown pasted on my face. Life was fun dealing with depression! Raph glanced at me and flashed a smile.
"I tried to make bacon and eggs." He shrugged, using the fire extinguisher. I shrugged, sitting on the chairs. Raph bit in his lip.
"It'll get better Donnie." Raph mutters, those words. I jumped up.
"Why do you keep saying that?!" I demanded. Raph blinked.
"Because..." The words caught the green eyed turtle. Even Raph was broken... When was the last time I'd seen him mad... The questions swarmed through my mind. Raph blinked. "Can you just listen to me..." He asked calmly, trying to change the subject. I furiously shook my head.
"So you can lie again?!"  I growled. Raph struggled to keep his face straight. He curled his hands and places his head into them.
"Donatello." He muttered... Tears were starting to fall.
"What?" I asked in short anger. I was tried of this... The world just shoving everything in my face and making me deal with it... What did I do wrong? Was this the price of murder? Was this the price for being a freak? Maybe the world was asking for payment... Why?! I was sobbing again. It felt good the way my shoulders hiccupped the sobs...

Mikey's POV 
Leo was sobbing deeply in my chest, I rubbed my single arm along his shell.
"Its ok I'm here." I whispered... The way he relied so heavily on my support..what the shell was my older brother suffering with?

So... Yeah that's chapter 14... My poor baby Donnie!! I love how Raph its the older brother now!! So cute!! I wanna have a little of his amgee side later... Idk anything from your guys views? Say in the comments!! But guys I've gotten 400hundred more views since last update?! Thank you!!
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