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Leo's POV

It was the final appointment, Donnie slowly unwrapped the bandage around my neck, he looked up at me. His expression was blank and nothing I wanted to try and interpret.Donnie met my expression, his shoulders wiggled slightly in a what?Kind of expression. I shook my head and walked out the lab. Raph looked at me straight away, he was training on his punching bag. He winced at every punch, He had several bruises and his walked as if every step hurt, when I'd first walked out to breakfast and found him like this I'd asked him, but as I expected all I got was the grunt of 'none of your business fearful' He had growled.Fearful, again with the nicknames, least he hadn't called me coward again. Of course I was, I had tried to end my life...So I was in fact a coward, still hearing those words... They pounding in my ears,sending a short stab up my neck. Cruel reminder, a cruel reminder I needed. I grimaced and walked into the dojo.

I walked straight to the cracked photograph of Father and his family, my fingers gently brushed the layers of dirt. Hamato Yoshi, I remembered meeting him. The disappointment in his expression and voice when I...attempted. I bit my lip, I thought about myself in his position, all he had was us.His sons, the four brothers the broken brothers. Thinking about I realised he had his brother, and due to dangerous thoughts his brother became...evil. That evil killed his wife, that evil had destroyed his daughter, that evil took his sons memory. That evil fueled my evil. Is this what Shredder would want? My hands were shaking thinking about it. I refused to accept Takashi. Would Yoshi give him that chance? I know Splinter would, I had tried so hard to be just like Splinter, heck I'm surprised I didn't dress up like him for halloween as a kid...and yet I was always the furtherest away from being him. I put down the photograph. I took in a deep breath and stumbled back.
"Sorry dad." I mumbled shaking, I rolled my neck back, looking at the cold sewer ceiling.

Raph's POV

I paused and leant on the training dummy taking in several deep breaths. Leo grunted from the dojo. Dammit curiosity I walked into the dojo. Leo was standing in front of sensei's shrine, shaking as he clenched a photograph. I titled my head, and walked up to him. A long scar ran down his neck, a cold shutter ran down my body. I grimaced and took Leo's hand. It was cold, I wanted him to stop shaking, It reminded me of Donnie, I studied to him, Did he really regret it? Was he really trying to get better...? Leo's eyes slightly opened, he looked towards me in confusion.
"The foot are getting stronger." I informed,setting my mouth straight. Leo slowly lifted his head. His hand twitched under my grip. I let go of it, maybe I could trust him. My heart wanted to, but my mind, my mind needed to protect Mikey and Donnie, if Leo wasn't, if he refused to. Maybe this was a phase and he'd go back to the cold monster he was for two years. Donnie wouldn't...none of us would. The Hamato clan would go back to how it was. Living for the sake of living, no purpose and just destroying each other in the process. There would just be one, or really two more people to join the mental blood bath.
"Did they give them to you?" He asked, pointing to the bruises along my arm.
"Bepop and Rocksteady," I asked, "They've gotten stronger." I explained. Leo nodded. His mouth set hard, I hadn't seen this face in a long time. His leader face, he was planning something, I... I looked down and noticed the frame in his grip. Yoshi and his family. Was Leo trying for him? My frown dug deeper. He was trying for sensei. Which meant maybe he wanted to be a leader again.
"We need to take them down." Leo burst, I snapped my head to see his eyes. I nodded slightly.
"Right..." I said, "Do you have a plan? Or attack and go?" I asked. Two years ago I wouldn't of asked, I would've grabbed my sais and prepared for war....now....Now I had to be strong. Had to trust my leader, no matter how much I still hated him.There was a reason Splinter had made him the leader not me; control.I just had to hope that control was still there. The control Leo was digging for was still there. Leo grunted.
"I will soon." He said. I nodded, taking the frame from his hand slightly and placing it on the shrine again. Leo looked at the photograph and grunted. His shoulders lifted slightly.

 I nodded and walked into the kitchen and found Mikey and Takashi talking in the kitchen over pizza. I sat across from him.
"Mikey." I said aloud. Mikey snapped his neck to me.
"Yes?" He smiled. I looked him in theeye.
"Do we trust Leo?" I asked, he would know. Mikey's eyes lit up.
"We do." He smiled. I nodded. Right...war we prepare for.

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