"Dad? Dad what's happening to you?!"
"Honey just listen don't talk until I'm done...*coughs* saying what I have to say."
"Ok daddy." I was balling my eyes out by now.
"Ok, I want you to promise me... *coughs* that you'll find someone and be happy. I know you've been through a lot but darling you deserve better. *coughs* I love you, tell mom I miss her and I love her. Promise me you'll get along fine without me, I'll always be here for you. I love you, do you promise?"
"I promise dad. I love you too."
"Goodbye, I love you so..."
*BEEEEEEEEP*

I watched the flat line go across the monitor. I grabbed my dads hand as it went limp. "I love you." I didn't even notice nurse Nancy crying with her hand on my shoulder. I whispered thank you for everything, her response was a simple nod. I ran from the room to the big doors and ran all the way home slamming my front door behind me. I told my mom everything and sat there with her while we cried together. She went to bed and I did too.

*TRIGGER WARNING*

But I got up to use the bathroom. I looked at the old razed blade I used to use when I had depression. I picked it up and examined the dry blood from last time. The last time I cut was about 2 months ago. I washed it off and sat on the toilet next to the tub with the water running and my arm over the water so I could wash the blood away with no one knowing. It was around 8 so it wasn't that late for me to take a bath so my mom didn't come in or question it. I slowly inserted the blade taking every ounce of the pain in. I didn't even notice I had a tear steaming down my cheek. The warm water on my cheeks didn't even bother me. I just kept cutting lines one by one. I stopped at five lines in my arm. I remembered the promise I told my dad I would keep. I would carry on and be happy he'd be watching and I would find someone who would make me happy. I washed all the blood out of the tub and off my arm. I grabbed some big bandages and put them on my arm. I grabbed a long sleeved shirt to cover up the bandages. I went to my room and sat on my bed and pulled the covers on to me. "I promise" I whispered before I drifted off to sleep.