To my one and only!

As December is coming and I'm making another cross on my calendar, I realize it's only a couple more weeks until I come back home to my loved ones, especially to you. Again, I know there are many reasons which keep me singing until this very moment but I just want you to know that you are the main reason why I keep trying harder to complete my problematic self every day.

Today was a very good day for me, I have to admit that. Even though snow is still pouring down the sky and everything is now covered in a depressing shade of white, something still make my heart dances excitingly in my chest. Let's quit that "something" style of conversation since you complained that it's time-consuming, incomprehensible and makes you feel like you are reading another English comprehension for the worst class of the whole day instead of enjoying a letter from your girlfriend. So the story is I failed badly when I tried to keep myself together this month, I completely lose my passion in business and accounting even though I once admitted to you that I want to go into this field of partying and socializing. As you are reading this line, I know you will be frowning and murmuring to yourself that your psychopathic girlfriend is still depending too much on other opinions instead of following her original plan. But please be aware of my lack of passions and the boredom I easily develop in what I do. Day one I try something new and day two I may be dropping it, luckily I haven't lost my interest in our relationship and in my lover. To be honest, it is not the job that attracted me, it's the way society looks at it and the way others around me promoted it.

"You will make such a good office hoe!" - They would tell me whenever I ask them about what career choice is suitable for me.

So growing up listening to others' beliefs and stop listening to myself, it's very hard for me to make the decision I need to make. But right now as I'm dating you, as I'm trying to make my dad proud of creating such a smart daughter who inherits all his best personality traits and facial features, I have decided that engineering is the best path for me to walk. I'm sorry for not screaming this into you over the phone, singing: "Babe someone inspired me to go into the field of software or electrical engineering! I will get that degree and you will never have to fix the electric around our house when we get married.". I have to put this in words cause it's such an important decision in my life, I'm feeling like I just explored a new aspect of my own personality. So that's the new plan, I will complete a degree of electrical engineering in university, I will live alone instead of living with a roommate because you know, nobody can withstand me except for you. During my time alone in a small apartment, while trying to comprehend every single information of that thick thermal statistic textbook, I will try to follow a couple of recipes online, try to learn to make some healthy dishes so that you don't have to lose your perfectly fit body when we live together. Then when I study for my exams I will give you a call, I will tell you how much I love you and how hard this it for me to go through this without you. Then I will kiss you goodnight and keep on studying. While we are both getting a degree, or an expensive piece of certification as you always call it, we will have more than one argument. Love is not gonna be as easy as it was on the short but sweet years of high school, a far distance relationship will demand more than just phone calls and messages. One of us will want to book a plane ticket, one of us will ask to meet at a certain destination and maybe both of us will be looking at other couples around campus and wonder when is our turn to be together. Then maybe we will drift apart, I don't know. Cause people tell me not to bring more sand to the beach, rumours tell me girls slept out with other guys in uni then come home and break up with their boyfriend. Movies and shows showed me how couples break away after high school and some of our friends, the older couples who have been together since forever agree to break apart after graduations cause they don't think they are capable of maintaining a far distance relationship. But that's them, not us, right my dear? Even if we drift apart, I know for a fact we will be making our way home to each other.

Anyway, breath my dear, just breath! It's actually too much planning to make, let's get back to our Christmas day party with the council on the twenty-fourth, make sure we are both okay on that wonderful occasion and try to cure me of jet lag. I'm sorry I made a bunch of plans today and threw all of it into your baby face. Now just breath in, exit this awful app and go into your photo to take one last glance at me in a burning red lingerie. Oops, don't forget to text me goodnight too as I have to study for that complicated IP addressing test tomorrow and your words or voice mean the world to me.

I love you my one and only, we don't have to wait for long, not anymore since I'm coming home into your loving arms.