bought the vase
'it lacks something'
next day
the flower shop
'which one?'
and i don't know
i really don't know
each one looks beautiful
too beautiful to ignore
and too beautiful to destroy
whatever gets my hand to hold
gets ruined
'which one?'
the flower lady whispered
eyes straight to hers
hands shaking
voice cracking
'i don't know, i don't know, i don't know'
and i'm not alright
and i can't breathe
'excuse me, what's wrong?'
everything is

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