smiles fading
face aching
there was so much pretending
i'm still hurting
there's a lot inside i'm keeping

knees trembling
hands shaking
vision blurring
chest tightening
i don't know why i'm still fighting

f a l l i n g
falling apart
f a l l i n g
falling into the abyss

my words are screaming
my tears leaking
my world quaking
i am losing
sleep and will, i am losing

nose burning
cigarettes i keep inhaling
mouth watering
alcohol isn't supporting
wishing my breath stops, i am numbing

f a l l i n g
falling down
f a l l i n g
falling further now

02/03