song: self by khalid

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perception. it's a wild thing, isn't it?

one moment you can feel intelligent and wonderful,

the next, an extremely ugly imbecile,

even for a small mistake that doesn't have

significantly negative consequences.

if you are like me, 

your perception changes like clockwork,

except the clock is broken.

it's like having a bajillion tabs open on a laptop 

with music playing, who knows where

and the web browser is constantly freezing and unfreezing.

sometimes i feel like i am the king of the world,

i'm smart, i'm witty, i'm beautiful, i love my smile,

my clothes are fitting just the right way.

sometimes i feel like i am nobody,

i'm pretty dumb, i'm not even funny, i'm ugly,

my smile still irritates me, and my body is all wrong.

it's a constant battle in my mind.

i'm not even sure who the two sides are exactly,

or if there are only two sides to begin with.

sometimes one is winning, sometimes one is losing,

or maybe all sides are simultaneously winning and losing.

regardless, i am here, i am present, i am valid, i am me.

because of this, i need to be here for me. 

i should always have me, even if no one else does.

i should be putting myself first, perceiving myself amazingly. 

the process is difficult, and sometimes it sucks.

but i have to, for myself. 

you should to, for yourself.

to get you started, i've got some nice affirmations for ya.

below are some affirmations you should consider telling yourself:

i hope you will fight for you, because you matter! <3

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you get a quote! you get a quote! you get a quote!

❝ self-transformation is not just about changing yourself. it means shifting yourself to a completely new dimension of experience and perception. ❞ - jaggi vasudev

❝ because one believes in oneself, one doesn't try to convince others. because one is content with oneself, one doesn't need others' approval. because on accepts oneself, the whole world accepts him or her. ❞ - lao tzu

❝ self perception is the main gateway for self love. and self love is the main gateway for self confidence. ❞ - jannat parween

a/n

idea:

⋆ random idea on jan. 7, 2022/written & posted on jan. 7, 2022. 

⋆ this update is mad late because life decided to make it late, then i organized my room because i needed it. i am far less stressed out because i listened to music and organized. then, i made these affirmation cards last minute :)

⋆ anyway, i struggle with my perception of self a lot. some days are better than others, but at least i'm trying. it might help to look and think about yourself through a trusted loved one's view. or think, if you wouldn't say it to your friend or someone you love, then don't say it to yourself.

preguntas:

⋆ is there a topic you'd like me to think over in depth and talk about? let me know in the comments! i'm always down for research and educating myself.

⋆ how's your self perception? even if you have good self esteem and self love, trust, etc, is there anything about yourself that you could work on? could you become a better listener? enhance a skill? take on a new one? let yourself evolve and grow, even if you are happy with yourself. it's okay to adapt and change, but, as i used to say in middle school, "stay true and be you." <3

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