im bored

i hate homework

im suddenly angry for no apparent reason

i hate this

i hate wattpad

i hate everything in general

i want to write something violent

or just angsty stuff

ughghahdfads--

I WANT TO DRAW BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DRAW 

why do i live

why did .. god or whoever created me like this

why do i have to be so awkward

why can i not voice my opionions betters

why do i hate everything

why am i like this

i dont want to be like this anymore

why could i not been born a captive parakeet and have a life without internet, and homework and school

where i was born to a personality and not develop one my own

its not like i would make an imprint in history

its not like im any use to this world

its not like im special 

its not like i have a place in the world

all i can do is get good grades and try to talk to people i want to be friends with

but  both are stressful

i dont know how to do these things

besides sitting and procrastiating homework

in which i hate

but at least im born when hamilton and lin-manueal is still alive
friends and things I can care for
i love yukki back off; she is my st8 child

but the questions remains

why am i so good at losing friends..?

why did i discover this media

i met dappled here but still

i cannot escape this place

no matter what i do