George's Point of View

December 16th, 1984

16/12/84

I found this (journal) in a box while looking through some stuff. Since I don't have a journal to write my feelings in, or anyone to talk to, I figured I could just use this instead. The pages are thick, and I think it would be hard to rip them. My other journal is for songwriting purposes only, and I'm in the works of something now...

If I ever come back in years' time to reread these, I better recap. DJ totally cheated on me. Guess for who? Jimmy. I guess he finally got what he wanted, and I'm sure he'll stop bothering me now. Maybe it's for the best, I don't know. It's been almost two weeks since this whole thing happened, and now I avoid DJ every day. Is it hard? Only a little when I see her face... I had such a good present for her as well, and I guess I'll have to return it when we go back home. It brought me to tears not long ago staring at the gift knowing I will never give it to her. Oh, I guess I should say what it is, even if this is something I'd never forget

I was startled when I felt a presence behind me. The thing was, I wasn't sure how long they were there. "Bloody hell, Andy. What are you doing?"

"My question is what are you doing letting DJ get away like that?" He swiped the back of my head.

I put my face in my hands after shutting the book. "I don't know what's happening, Andrew. I walk out of the bathroom to find Jimmy kissing her while she enjoyed it. Man, we were about to get it on in the bedroom too. I guess she just couldn't wait."

"There is no way you're giving up on her like that." He sat down next to me. "This woman is the love of your life. How can you sit here and act like your entire life is over?"

"Because maybe it is. Our relationship was toxic and I don't think it's smart of me to go back to her."

He looked at me with almost a disgusted look. My heart was hurting but I would never tell him that. "What a fool you are, George."

He got up and walked out of the room.

I sat there realizing how he was right. I know how foolish I'd been during our entire relationship, letting the toxicity and hurt build up.

And then I got an idea.

Jeena's Point of View

DJ didn't come down for breakfast. Nor did George. At first, I thought maybe they had both gotten some sense into them and were talking and just forgot to come out. The thought of it made me happy, so after I ate I walked over to their room. But I only found DJ sitting on the bed staring out the window.

"I think he sleeps on the couch." She said. "I'm not sure where else he has to go. He hasn't even tried to step foot in here while I sleep. At least, I don't think he does."

"Smart of him," I replied. "Your mom made us all brunch. Come down and have something to eat. I won't take no for an answer."

She stood up and followed me out to the kitchen, where George was talking to Andrew. Their conversation was hushed when we walked in. George's eyes were burning into DJ with hurt, but she couldn't even look up; her eyes stayed down at her feet. She was probably feeling ashamed and ready to cry.

"Hey," I whispered while getting her food. "Don't let any more tears fall because of him. Boy, I'm sure it's hard to not be able to call that pretty face your boyfriend anymore."

I should not have said that.

George's Point of View

I heard sniffles.

They came from DJ and I knew it because I could see the tears falling down her cheeks.

"Oh, DJ..." Jeena tried to comfort her. I wasn't sure what she had said to make her start to cry.

And I hated that I had the urge to jump up and comfort her.

They both ran out of the room, and Andy looked at me. "You have got to talk to her."

"I can't." I stood up and walked away. If I kept talking about what just happened I might start crying myself. And I can't let that happen.

I opened the journal again to keep writing.

I came back. Just had the strangest encounter with DJ... She was crying. I'm not sure what about but I hope it wasn't me. I wouldn't be able to handle the thought of that. She and Jeena came into the kitchen, which is when Jeena said something that seemed to really upset her. I don't know what it was but It's really hard to think it was about anything other than me.

Other than seemingly Amanda, Jeena, and Andrew, everybody thinks we're still in a relationship. I'm not sure how they haven't noticed that we haven't been talking much, or how our bedroom seems to be very quiet these days. I can't lie, I've been wanting sex a lot recently... now that I don't have anybody, I'm pretty inactive. It wouldn't exactly be the easiest to try and go solo in a chalet with ten people in it. Sorry, I don't know why I'm saying this. I could talk about this with Andrew, but a notebook won't give me a weird look. I seriously doubt he would want to hear about my neediness, and how long it's been since I've had sex. Speaking of Andrew, he's really bugging me about this whole problem between DJ and me. I told him I just don't think it's a good idea to go back to her since our relationship was a little toxic. With us, everything just went in a full circle. After we just made up, someone would get the other person hurt, silence, and then it repeats. I don't think I should take my chances again, which is why I'm letting go.

I know it's for the best, but why do I still hurt so much?