So... I was listening to the song above... and... it really brought back some.... deep... very deep things... and I wanted to add it to Aysoars backstory... this is more like a book chapter.... but its just really sad if you listen to it... at one point i actually cried... but uh yeah....

enjoy?.... (For best effect put on headphones and be sure to listen to the song..)

To be honest I cried awhile writing this.. it really hurts

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I had left the house one they had fallen asleep... if they knew.... they.... wouldn't be able to bear with the pain... B.. wouldn't be able to take it ethier... And there is were I began my journey to the realm of lost souls... a place I would once join... "Father?" I called out as I stepped through the code and into the realm, I still can't remeber his face... but.. hes still here... still with me in some way.

I can hear him call out, in the distence....

I decided to walk forward... "Father... Im here..." I said as I run torwards him, I find him sitting... alone... forgotten, I don't want him like this, I want him home... I just want him back... I help him up knowing atleast here I can be with him. "You still look like crap Aysoar..." he joked I just smiled. "Ha, sleep deprived... father like son right?" I said as we sat together. "Yeah... I suppose so, has B been alright." I nodded with a shaky sigh. "His soul has been healing with the others... hes made amazing recovery..." I put a hand to my chest knowing I may not be able to be with B. Father turned to look at me. "Its not healing... is it?" he asked with a depressed and scared voice. "No... but, still even if im gone in thier world. Im sure they can live without me." I looked at him, the place he had to be in... how lonely he was. He had no company, no one here to care for him, he was just alone, lost, confused, gone... I want to stay here with him, but I can't, not like this. i hand't realised it but I was crying. i felt him hug me, though I couldn't feel warmth, nor the feeling of him being alive. "Aysoar... even if im no there with you physically. Just remember.. I will always be in your memories... and in your heart." I smiled the best I could. "I love you dad... don't forget it.." I felt as if everything was slipping away...

I heard a faint voice. "Aysoar- Aysoar!, Guys, B, Stars, WIngdings, hes having another one of those attacks!" I heaved as I was brung into reality. "S-Swap, whats going on.." I said slightly frantic, he was shaking me a little violetnly... "P-please stop shaking me..." Swap stopped. "Oh uhm sorry." I could sense the other enter into the room, and the loud thud of fell falling over on his face. I stood up using the couter for support... Hes right.... i will always have him with me.. even if its not physicaly. Kind of startled at the imidate pick up from Wingdings. "Come on your going to sleep." I blinked. "Is picking me up really nessary..." he just kept walking. "Yes." I glared. "Oh come on im not inable of walking." i could hear the slight laughing of the others ,they listened . "I hate you." I grummbled at wingdings. He just smiled, I couldn't help but smile myself. "You to." Now i know why I can't leave them... because they are my family. And to me family matters most, I love my family, even if... my true family is really gone....

One day... I will find him... I promise myself that...

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sorry if i made you cry.. i.. im gonna leave.... cya.