My breath hitches
the memories replay

why me
why I go through such

life is cruel
but this is crueler

Shouldn't have to
experience what I have

still living
though memories aren't erased

clear as day
one I'll always remember

I grow quiet
and silent

no one questions
shrugging off as fine

yet deep down
I am not as fine

I fight by myself
never needing help

at times I wish
one was around

at end of the day
we are alone
only having ourselves

no one can fight for us
we fight alone

God, how I wish
such wasn't true

I struggle
yet "I'm fine"

November 1st, 2019