The words that I've heard on the other line, I don't know if I'll believe it or not but I've been waiting for this to happen, Jihoon finally woke up.

"Hey, you—" before he finished his sentence I've already run outside of the cafe, I didn't cared the cold weather, running and running like my life is depended on it, Bumping to some random people and didn't bother to say sorry to them, I don't care Jihoon is awake right now that's definitely a good reason for this.

I can't wait to see him, I'm going to finally see Jihoon again.

When I saw the familiar stores around the hospital it makes my heartbeat faster, maybe because I'm running too fast or I'm excited because of Jihoon, but let's set aside those feeling, just a bit push then I'll be seeing Jihoon again.

As I've set foot on the hospital I didn't waste time greeting the faces I've known straightly going to Jihoon's room, my breathing isn't matching my stamina anymore, it's like i overexert myself from running,  and finally I stopped when I saw Jihoon's room door.

I can hear my heartbeat, only my heartbeat, I placed my palm on my chest making myself comfortable after all the running I've done, when I creep closer tot he door the more nervous I'm feeling, reaching it but with hesitation, questions keeps invading my mind.

Does he really have amnesia? Is he really awake? Or not? What is it?

My mind is gonna explode from all of this thoughts, but I need to open this door so that I can find the answers. I clenched my hand and sigh heavily taking all the courage I have left within me, when I opened the door...

I saw Jihoon looking outside.

There's one things in my mind right now.

He's truly awake, Jihoon is awake.

My world stops stops for a minute, I loosened the grip of my hands slowly, this isn't a dream this is the reality I've been waiting for. The tears suddenly fell down through my cheeks, I'm just standing seeing Jihoon looking so spaced out, he was so beautiful, his hair, hands, or even the angle his in now, once again I've fallen in love with Jihoon.

I courage myself to call him but before I completely called his name he already looked at my direction, looking at me innocently but confused after that.

So he really has...

"Excuse me, but who are you?" The first thing I've heard Jihoon's voice for a long time he's bed ridden, it sounded ears to me yet caused me a painful feeling too, it's definitely true that he has amnesia.

I didn't answer Jihoon's question because I know our conversation will just be more painful for me but instead ran towards his direction giving him a tight hug, I don't care if he doesn't remember, he's still Jihoon that I love though the difference is his memories are gone now.

As I hug him more tightly he began to push me away but I didn't budge in any of his attempts, he keep saying 'Mr. Who are you?', 'please stop I can't breathe.' but he stopped when I was so stubborn to let go from the hug, I'm contented with this hug now, I'm just really happy to see Jihoon again.

Awake, and his eyes aren't close anymore.

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A random guy suddenly hugged me, it was so tight that I can't breathe anymore, trying to budge him away but I failed, he was crying like a kid in my arms while caressing my back he didn't answer who he is, or not even mentioning his name.

Why's this guy crying over me, when we just met?

I let him hugged me but didn't hug back, it's not like I hate the hug but it feels warm, it was like the warmth that I've known so long, it feels nostalgic, I can feel his body fits in mine and how I felt secured in his hug.

Why am I feeling this way for the guy that I just met? I don't know,

I don't remember...

He then finally let go of the hug, wiping his tears and he's not looking at me in the face, it didn't bother me, maybe he needs time too.

"I'm sorry for that." His husky voice bursted, then it was another nostalgic thing that I can't remember, I heard it somewhere, somewhere but I can't think where and when.

"N-No it's fine." I replied to him stuttering.

After that the atmosphere covered with awkwardness, this wasn't supposed to be like this, right? But he won't speak too and I don't know what to hold conversation with someone who. i just met few minutes ago, what's worse is even though he hug me without my permission earlier, I didn't hate it at all. Should that be a good thing?

"I'm Lai Guanlin." He suddenly spoke, which made my heart suddenly thump hard, it was painful, I can't explain what's happening to me, who's this guy in front of me and why am I acting like this. I'm scared.

I slowly turn my face up curious of his face, as I've done that I clearly saw little by little the structure of his face, his lips that's very plump, or his nose, his eyes that's very brown, until I saw his face.

"G-G-Guanlin?" My voice trembles as I called his name, not knowing what's the reason behind it, my tears swelling up in the edge of my eyes but I'm trying hard not to make it obvious, why am I even feeling this way?

Just who is this person? He feels like someone I know but it feels like he's not too? Why's my tears coming out? What's the reason?

As I tried so hard to think all the questions that's coming up to my mind to find the answers within myself, it did not helped me but instead it gave me an headache, I forcefully help my temples curling up my knees to hid my face, This is too much.

The boy in front of me panicked as I started crying out of nowhere, he shakes my shoulders asking me if I'm alright or where am I hurt, but I didn't give effort to answer him, until I can't take the headache anymore, The surroundings were covered by black.

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When I opened my eyes no morning sun greeted me, but just the snows falling over the outside that I can see clearly at the window of the room. I guess I stayed up being unconscious all night.

But what happened to the guy yesterday?

I looked around in my room not seeing the guy, he left. I felt a sudden gloom in my mood, and stared at the door, unexpectedly it opened that made me flinched a little but the person that's in the door right now is the guy or he named himself Guanlin.

he then flashed a gummy smile at me that made my heartbeat skip, and avoiding his eyes with my own reflexes.

"Are you feeling okay now?" He asked me while he sits in the chair that's beside the bed, I nodded into him and he hummed as a response to me. The silence covered the two of us again.

I need to say sorry for what happened yesterday.

I clenched the sheets of the blanket that I'm using collecting all the courage I have, when I felt that I'm ready I finally spoked up.

"G-Guanlin!" I intentionally raised my voice, he looked at me immediately with his frowned eyes and he just stared at me not saying a word.

"Y-You see, I'm s-s-sorry." I sighed of relief taking out what I wanted to say to him, yet there's no response.

"Guan—"

"It's fine, I scared you, right? The doctor said you need more rest because you just woke up and it's my fault not yours, I should be the one who's saying sorry?" His gentle yes met mine, but it was full of sadness yet happiness at the same time, this guy... Maybe he's not fine.

"It's okay, by the way what am I to you?" I straightly asked Guanlin that made him obviously quiver, is it a sensitive topic? Maybe I shouldn't have asked him.

"It's okay Guanlin, you dont—" he cut me off again

"Your friend." He answered but with a monotone voice.

So he's my friend, that's disappointing? Am I disappointed? Why?

I leave the questions in my head be, Guanlin and I then started talking like there's no tomorrow, it was fun.

Guanlin visited me everyday until the visiting time ends then we're going to bid farewell. We both laugh and talk endlessly, His laughs were like a dolphin but it's not irritating to hear, I also learned that he has someone he loves but they can't ne together right now, That guy surely is fortunate having Guanlin.

Guanlin can love someone else doesn't he? Someone's out there loves him or maybe close to him, Just like me...

I was shocked, the words that I've thought of. I heard my chest beats abnormally than before, I wasn't nervous nor scared, my mind was occupied by the thoughts of Guanlin, just Guanlin himself. That's when I realized those words, I felt the sudden heat in my face copping.

I like Guanlin.

I realized my feeligs for him yet I managed to hide it, I was scared that if I tell him maybe he'll hate me or he's going to stop visiting me, he mentioned it himself that we're just 'friends' those words may be painful yet it's good to have a position in his life, right?

Then Guanlin visited me once with a stranger, that's shorter than him, his name was Park Woojin, he said that he's my best friend since we were kids, I didn't remember him but I get to know him, he even said that He'll help me to regain my memories.

Then days passed by and I'm ready to leave the hospital.

"Are you ready to go?" Guanlin asked me, carrying all the baggages, I nodded into him while saying thank you for all of the things he have done.

The both of us bid farewell to the nurse and doctors we're familiar with when we stayed at the hospital, it was kinda sad that I'll never get to lay in the bed whole day, or the scent of the medicine all over the place the view in my window every morning or night. This place was like the first place I've made memories maybe because of having amnesia.

Guanlin escorted me to his car placing the baggages at the back sit then he opened the door for me taking a seat inside, he goes to the other side in the driver seat starting the engine finally leaving the place.

"Where do you want to go?" Guanlin said while focusing at the road.

"Hmmm, Cafe?" I answered him hesitantly.

"Okay." He shortly replied.

I was quite shocked because the cafe was totally near at the hospital, yet the both of us gets inside of it, we both ordered what we wanted then takes a seat for a mini chitchat. When the both of us finished everything and was ready to go the rain suddenly pours we hurriedly came inside of the car, not totally drenched but our hair  are kinda wet, but Guanlin just drove the car out of the place.

We were coming places to places, the mall, the park or even the streets.

"This is the last one." Guanlin said looking outside of the car's window, when I looked where he was looking it was a School.

"Let's go." He smiled at me, he gets his video camera that I've just noticed right now opening the door of the car which made me leave the car too.

When we're at the gate Guanlin opens his Video cam facing it to my direction, I just smiled at it saying Hi. Guanlin then leads and we walked throughout the school grounds, it was fun.

When we're about to walk into the second floor Guanlin's phone suddenly rungs up making me hold the video cam then he excuse himself after that, While I continued walking through the schools hallway.

But when I was about to make it to the third floor I remembered a scene, where I was listening to the two guys that's having a conversation, the guy looks familiar though, nevertheless I continued walking finally stepping in the third floor.

This place looks very familiar.

I went one of the classroom taking a seat inside, Guanlin sure taking his time, when I was getting bored and remembered that I have the video camera in me, Why don't I watch what it contains, right?

I smiled to my plan while waiting for Guanlin, when I browsed to the content it was so many that I didn't know where to start, but deciding to watch the first one, when I reached the end I immediately clicked it, seeing Guanlin's face.

He was saying kind of things,p in the video, mentioning 'you' but when I saw myself in the video and in the bed, I was kinda conflicted what's happening until Guanlin said this words

"I miss you Jihoon."

I wasn't contented with one video, watching the next one and then the other one, fast forwarding the videos, it was all about me and him he's saying, he tells all the memories we have before I got accident, how much he love me, why he leave me.

What's all of this? Who is Lai Guanlin to me?

The tears fell, it wasn't stopping it's just like a faucet that over flows, dripping some of it in the screen of the video cam and the video still playing.

"G-G-Guanlin is not m-my friend at all." I manage to whisper at myself.

The door opened that made me face the direction, I saw Guanlin's face, he travels his eyes into my hands seeng the video cam hearing his voice in the videos that I'm playing.

"J-Jihoon."

That's when it hit me, when he called my name everything is clear now.

"Guanlin I love you." I blurted out but still crying, he was in awe when I said those words but he manage to run into me caressing my face to wipe my tears out.

Then our lips met, the very sweet kiss that I haven't taste in a long time, slowly yet devouring the taste of the kiss preciously, it was the savory feeling we need for each other, I hold his hands that's in my face then I ket his tongue traveled my deepest cavern until we lose out of breathe parting ways after that.

"You remembered?" I nodded to him hugging him, he hugs back me then scoffs into my neck to kiss it then leaning his head into my shoulders after that.

"I'm sorry if I was late." I said to him then he faced me not agreeing with what I've said.

"I was the one who's late." Then he kisses me in my forehead, leaning his forehead into mine, intertwining our hands together, it all fits.

"I love you, Jihoon."

"I love you too Guanlin."

It wasn't only me but instead our feelings haven't wavered for each other at all.

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It's done, it's finish!

Thank you for all the support you've given to me, I'm really crying, UNWAVERING FEELINGS HAS OFFICIALLY ENDED. Well at least y'all got an happy ending.

(Which I planned it to be a bad ending.)

I'm sorry again for the typos, grammars, I'll edit this story when I have time to lessen the errors.

Hope y'all like this, and thank you very very very much to all of you, y'all are my motivation that's why I can finish this story, I love y'all.

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