I didn't want things to be complicated with Guanlin, not right now that he's the reason why I'm hurting again. It wasn't good for my heart and it will never be.

I started moving to go inside of the apartment building and as expected when I opened the entrance Guanlin's attention is on me now, basically he saw me, he stands up and looked at me. I avoided his eyes and walk pass through him, but I was surprised when a hand pulled me ending with arms hugging me tightly, his head where on my shoulders, I can feel his body trembling while we're in this position, wanting to hug back but I didn't but instead my tears start to fall down through my cheeks landing it on Guanlin's clothes

The both of us were a mess, the both of us didn't know what to do and just the silence cover he atmosphere that surrounds us, but most importantly the feelings between the two of us were not clear enough for us to understand what it means and what is it.

"G-Guanlin please l-l-let g-go of me n-now." My trembling voice blurted out but he didn't let go instead his hugs has gotten tighter than before.

"Guanlin, please." Trying to push him but I failed because he is stronger than me, my tears continuously fall, it was flowing like a faucet, from this pain that I've been through and right now too.

"Jihoon, don't go." He finally said a word but I don't get what he meant by it, I stayed silent stopping my actions to break the hug.

"Don't go out with Daniel hyung Jihoon." Guanlin clearly said what he meant yet one question has suddenly appeared on my mind, The question, why?

"Don't go out with himJihoon, just don't." Repeating his words again and again like he's will never get tired of it.

"Please Jihoon dont." He spitted again begging me, I can't reply to him, I don't know why Guanlin is saying this kind of things now, I cried out of frustration because I can't understand what he really wants, what are his intentions, does he likes me or not, why is he even concerned about me and Daniel hyung. Just what is it Guanlin.

"Guanlin, I don't understand you." I voiced out while crying, wiping my tears, suddenly I can feel his arms pulling away from the hug, I'll admit it the warmth wasn't there anymore, but instead his hands traveled to my cheeks making me face him wiping my tears that's falling.

"I don't understand you too Jihoon." Our eyes locked starting that moment, I hate it, I hate myself that my heart is still beating for him like this, how much I love his warm hands in my face, why can't I just forget about this boy in front of me, hurting me.

"Guanlin." I called him, holding his hands that's in my cheeks now, his eyes weren't hurt like it's for me, that he's concerned about me.

"Jihoon, I'm sorry that I pushed you away, saying that you should forget about what happened yesterday." He slowly wiped my tears again since it hasn't stop. He leaned his forehead into mine making our faces so close to each other.

"I'm sorry that I hurt you, I was so confused about my feelings about you, I-I was scared because it's my first time loving a guy." His words pierced my heart, he loves me?

"You love me?" I asked.

"Yes Jihoon, I was so in love with you that myself couldn't even noticed it." I saw him smiling right now, but we're still in our position.

"I'm sorry for being late Jihoon." Guanlin said, while still caressing my cheeks.

"You're late, Guanlin." I respond to him, I didn't even realize that I'm now smiling too, moments passed by so quickly like just minutes ago I'm crying because things are getting complicated and right now, the person I love, loves me back too.

I feel like I'm in cloud nine right now, maybe I'm just freaking bipolar even though I'm not.

"I said I'm sorry." He giggled between his words making me smile more, this guy is mine now, and I'm his. It was the best feeling ever.

"Can I kiss you now?" I was shocked by his question so I suddenly looked straightly in him to see his face. Not knowing what to do, I mean do really people ask for a kiss?

"Uhh?" I hummed awkwardly making him laugh a little, he cupped my cheeks again and pecked my forehead after that he looked at me smiling.

My heart was beating abnormally fast, maybe this was just a dream that I didnt want to wake up, but now I can feel Guanlin's hands making me believe that all of this are real.

"Jihoon, you're mine." He hugged me again so tightly this time I hugged back cherishing this moment, the best day of my life.

"I love you." I said, while I lean in his chest.

"I love you too." We stayed for a couple of minutes in that position, but we were suddenly interrupted by the care taker of the apartment warning us not to do strange things at the waiting area, we both blushed.

Since it was kinda late I invited Guanlin to stay in my room for the night, he accepted my offer so we came up entering my apartment.

"Guanlin just sit there in the couch I'll make us drinks." He nodded and sits.

While I entered my small kitchen getting cups, making some coffe for the two of us. Now that I realized it was the first time someone entered my apartment except Woojin and my parents.

But today is different, my first boyfriend just entered my apartment, I froze in my thought, not that, not that, I'm not thinking of that. Seriously Jihoon your just freaking 18, stop stuffs. I slapped myself to come back in reality, thanking gos that it worked.

After I finished our coffee, I hold it the cup separately with my hands, I saw Guanlin looking through the photos that's been displayed in my living room, placing the cups down to get his attention and it did caught his attention, now he sat in the couch at the left side and I'm on the right side.

"Thank you." he reached out his coffee starting to cool it down and I did the same thing, we drunk our drinks peacefully and quietly.

"Jihoon, I think I'll just sleep in this couch." I placed my cup rapidly in the table looking at him.

"What no, you'll catch a cold!" As I was concerned about him, a smile crept in his face, while I just realized what I just said, Jihoon are you inviting him to sleep in the same bed with you, stupid.

"You really love me that much Park." He teased me, I'm still here embarrassed with what I said, Jihoon you're totally great.

"No, ah, Yes, I-I was just concerned about you." I denied.

"So you don't love me, hmm?" He hummed, which made me flustered.

"N-No! I-I love y-you!" I exclaimed, I felt his arms wrapped around my waist which made me shocked, his mouth were in front of my ears.

"I know, and I love you too Park Jihoon." He whispered, my face getting red because of what he said. I stand up awkwardly to retreat from what's happening.

"T-Take a shower, and w-we'll sleep, o-okay?" I walked out in the scene leaving hm smiling at me.

"Oh god, This is too much." As I whispered to my self.

The first time that I have a boyfriend, and it was the person I love.

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I'm sorry for the typo, and the grammar, I don't do proofread.

But anyway, they're together now, is it too fast? (Yes) is it lame? (Yes), well whatever.

Hope y'all like this chapter.

deionie🚬