I forgive you

"you are fascinating."

I looked in the mirror

but saw a naive girl

I didn't find it like you.

though what you said was new

and I floated on your words, on cue

I have never liked compliments

when they are a thousand biting needles

raising the hair on my arms.

you never gave me one

and my heart knew a thing none

yet it cherished your smiles, like you gave me the sun

I never let the light fade

I never let the warmth cool

I carried it in my heart

where every dream was a river

and every drop made me shiver

as my heart, in the end, was always the giver

I forgive you...