She wanted to breath, but she doesn't feel the sucked air into her lungs.

She wanted to eat, but hunger was never in her favor.

She can touch the land and soil, the cold and warm, the smooth and the coarse.

She was frustrated and confused.

So she drowned herself into the river, although she is already dead.

Until a young lad spotted her body at the shore and brought her home with care.

***

      I opened my eyes and winced out of the fatigue. Drowsiness forces my eyes to close again, but sleep never came to greet. I rubbed my head and glanced at a familiar figure, her back facing me.

      "Oh my God, you're awake!" Yoohyeon excitedly said and rushed to my side, grabbing my hand.

      She looked at me worryingly, examining me thoroughly. I squinted my eyes, the drowsiness was heavy. " I was so worried about you. You stepped into the room looking terrible", she stated.

      I snorted a laugh. "Thank you for the compliment", I said sarcastically and brought my arm against my head.  Then I remembered what happened yesterday, like a snap of a finger.

      My mood toned down into none other than sorrow.

      The door suddenly open to reveal Hoseok before he closed the door behind him. "Good, you're finally awake", he said with relief. I hesitated to smile back at him, but I tried, even if it was a brief smile.

      Hoseok looked at Yoohyeon. "I need to be alone with her. It won't take long", he requested.

      Yoohyeon circled her eyes and looked at us alternately, before her pink lips stretched into a mischievous smirk.

      "Okay, if you want it so~", she cooed. She eyed me at the corner of her eyes with a playful pout. I laughed through my nose and shake my head. I feel better bit by bit.

      Just as she closed the door behind her, Hoseok sit at the edge of the bed. "What's up with her?", he asked me. I shrugged nonchalantly and let my head drop to the side.

"No clue."

      Heavy silence echoed the room, the air were strangely intense more than awkward. My mind lingers with thoughts as time passed by.

      "......where were you during the attack?" Hoseok asked. I tensed up, loss of words to answer his sudden question. Even if I were to lie, my mind jammed to come up with words.

      I decided to leave him unanswered, avoiding eye contact with him.

      He sighed and scratched the back of his head. "You don't need to tell me now. I can wait", he muttered.

Silence.

"...You're the one who lit up the beast into flames, right?"

      I quietly gulped despite the unnatural feeling of my dry throat. I hummed a yes without looking at him in that moment.

For the first time ever, I was scared.

Scared of losing everyone.
Scared of being rejected.
Scared for not being human all along.

      Distressed, I throw the blanket to the other side of the bed and stood up from the bed. I was about to walk passed him when my wrist was grabbed, pulling me to sit at the edge of the bed with him.

"I know", he said huskily.

"What—"

"I know who you are."

      I was too shock for words. I stared blankly at him with my mouth agape. A question that lingers in my head of "How?"

      Finally, his bright almond-shaped eyes gazed at mine softly, an eye-contact that makes me want to feel how a human being feel about that moment.

......but I feel nothing inside but the empty, inevitable void.

      Hoseok looked down and lifted a strand of my hair up from my neck. "Remember when Gahyeon suddenly attacked you? The knife was deep enough to make a cut on your neck. But you didn't bleed. That's how I know", he explained.

I can't believe I didn't notice that.

      "A-Are you going to kill me too?" I stuttered. Hoseok let the strands fall from his fingers and looked at me sadly. Then he placed both of his hands against the side of my head, making me focus on him and him only.

I wanted to have that feeling.

But why is it not there?

Why don't I feel anything but his warmth?

      Suddenly, his lips stretched into a soft smile. "I'm going to save you. We all going to save you. Doesn't matter if you're the dead one, I will save you and get you out of this house together with the others. I promise", he said.

      He looked surprised when tears streamed my cheeks. He uses his thumb to wipe them off before he pulled me into an embrace, enveloping me with warmth.

I feel worse when I didn't get a feeling of love to developed in me.

***

Yoohyeon

      I closed the door behind me. I almost jumped out of surprise when a manly figure appeared in front of me out of nowhere.

      "You scared me, Namjoon!" I complained, receiving a small chuckle from him.

      He scratched the back of his neck, a small dimple formed on his left cheek. My heart flutters of how good-looking he was. I looked away from him without being obvious.

"So, is your leg okay?" he asked. 

"Yeah, thanks to her and Jungkook! Though I need Dami for a full healing. But I'm okay", I said.

"Good, good. I'm glad", he smiled.

      I nodded before breaking eye contact from him, my eyes wandering around the living room. Siyeon,  Gahyeon and Handong slept on different sofas. Taehyung and Jimin slept on the floor, a table divided them for a good amount of space. Then I glanced at the clock. It was 9 o' clock with no idea if it's morning or nighttime.

It was still dark with the night sky.

 "....Yoohyeon."

"Hm?"

      "I...have something to ask you", he said seriously. Lately, Namjoon looked so pale ever since he walked out of SuA's room. Was it because of her? He said that she managed to escape through the mirror. 

      But I couldn't buy that story. It just sounds off.

"What is it?" I asked without stuttering, although I almost did.

      Namjoon sighed, looking troubled. He must be thinking a lot of things with burdens on his shoulders. He had been straining himself without showing it.

I waited for him to speak out.

"If I did something wrong, although I was forced to do so, will you forgive me?" 

I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. "What do you mean—"

"Just answer if you will, Yoohyeon. I can't tell why I ask you this. I just can't", he said in distress.

      Seeing him like this makes my heart ache. I placed a hand against his shoulder, comforting him. When he looked at me, I smiled at him.

      "No matter what you do, I will always forgive you", I answered despite my questioning mind of why he would ask such question.

      Although I didn't looked back at him, I can sense his genuine gaze at me. It makes my heart beat like crazy. "Will the others do?" he asked.

"They will", I answered shortly but surely.

Of course they will, right?

***

      All eyes were on me as soon as Hoseok and I exited the bedroom. Hoseok placed his arm around my back for support.

      Yoohyeon who was nearby immediately hugged me, wrapping her arms around my shoulders. I was confused of why she suddenly did that. I pat her back until she let me go, a sweet smile formed on her lips.

      Taehyung, Handong and a girl I never met before woke up from their slumber. Gahyeon and a pink-haired boy I didn't know was still sleeping peacefully, undisturbed.

      I almost giggled when Taehyung's hair disheveled and his eyes dull from sleeping. He looks like a cute child although he looks older than me.

      It was Handong's turn to embrace me. When she pulled away, she looked at me up and down worryingly. "I should've stopped you", she almost whispered.

"You knew, didn't you", I whispered.

Handong hanged her head down, staring at the floor before she met my eyes again. "I-"

"Know what?" The unknown girl asked as she approached us.

      Hoseok stepped forward and introduced us. "Siyeon, this is No Name. No Name, this is Siyeon."

"I heard the girls' conversation before we got separated. Most of them agreed to kill the dead one. But one of them is the most determined to kill."

"Who?" 

"Siyeon." 

      A chill ran down my spine. I tried to not make it obvious so I nodded at her. Her appearance is intimidating. Her aura is no joke, pressuring me just by her existence.

If looks could kill, I thought.

      "Know what?" she repeated strictly, completely ignoring the introduction— looking seriously at us one by one. I gulped, nervous that at this moment, I could vanished anytime.

      A hand wrapped around mine. Hoseok squeezed my hand, reassuring me. I avoid looking at him to raise suspicions, although there's the urge that I want to.

Handong stepped in front of me, blocking my view from Siyeon.

      "I know that she stole one of my Victorian dolls from the doll room", lied Handong. I played along, gaping my mouth to look innocent, faking my disbelief. Siyeon seems to buy it when she looked at Handong judgingly. 

"Seriously, Handong? It was only a doll—"

"It's a Victorian doll, Unnie!"

      "Yeah but too bad, I stole one before I placed it back", Siyeon said as she looking away from Handong.

      Handong looked at her in disbelief. "So that's why the doll were placed weirdly", muttered Handong. "Unnie, why would you do that?"

      "The doll was so cute and Dami looks like she wanted it so I took it", answered Siyeon nonchalantly.     

      I froze at my spot as I watch the two argue about Handong's dolls. Then I felt a nudge on my elbow. Hoseok leaned closer to my ears.

      "Go check on SuA, I'll deal with them", he whispered with his raspy voice. The nonexistent feeling came again, making me feel so unsure of my feelings.

      I nodded and look at him one last time before we let go of our hands. I quietly sneak passed them to SuA's room. I opened the door and immediately close the door. I exhaled a sigh of relief when I made it alive.

"No Name, right?"

      A voice made me jumped in surprise. I turned my head towards the voice out of impulse. SuA was awake, her lips formed a smile.

"I've heard about you", she said.

Chapter 15 updated!

Hey guys! Finally I updated. I'm actually sick but I just have to update since you all have been looking forward to it 😊 Yesterday's hangout with my friends was so fun. I miss them already😢

And can we talk about how cool @CoronaIsabelle did for this book cover? I was on my way to the train station when I got a notification from her and she brightens my day! I also read all of your comments and the rising of reads and boy, that day was the happiest for me. Especially the comments about you guys got scared and I never expecting this story to be this scary 😂😂😂

Oh and I fell on my butt at the train station for getting too excited just as I want to say Hello to my friends. It was so embarrassing, but you could say that was my dope entrance 😏😏😏

Anywhale, thanks so much for reading, leave a vote and comment! I love reading your comments and receiving positive feedbacks 🙌🙌🙌

Chapter 16 coming your way~