Just because I stopped chasing you doesn'tmean I stopped loving you; it only means that Iam putting one foot in front and choose to freemyself from the shackles and nightmares of ourpast, a wish that I would grant on my own.Chasing you was like anticipating for the rain insummer, it made me realize that I am justwasting my time, energy and efforts.Instead of waiting for you and hoping for you tocome back, I've decided to just let it go, let yougo.There's no point of holding onto something that Idon't have any assurance of. I've been yourcaptive for how many years, and maybe it's timefor me to focus on myself now. You deal withyour own and I with mine.In need to live a happier and more peaceful life; Ineed to do this, not because of you or even foryou but for myself.I am not saying that life with you was just alldisgrace, drawbacks, and troubles; with you, itwas a combination of ups and downs but nevergiving up, an incredible and unstoppable mess Ienjoyed creating, a rollercoaster ride that mademy heart pound, an exciting journey I wouldnever mind getting lost, and an adventure I willalways miss.But this is it—God, the universe, fate, destiny—they intervened and there's nothing I can do tochange what has happened.If gaining the best for myself means letting yougo, then I must be willing to do it. If losing aconnection with you right now means openingmyself to new connections around me, then I'drather choose not to hear anything from you. Ifnot giving you the ability to see me in myweakness means being capable and undauntedof my own frailty, then I'd give you thesatisfaction that I am doing well and fine bymyself.I must grab this opportunity to grow, to recoverall the time that I've lost, to discover new things,to create new relationships, to make wonderfulmemories especially with my friends and family,to achieve the things that are ahead of me, andto become this woman I've always wanted to be.I can't deprive myself of the true joy that I fullydeserve.All the tears we wept and problems we faced,they were bridges to something moreextravagant, and I truly believe in that. All thestories we made, wishes that we once clung to,plans that were thoroughly laid out, and goodmemories we collected, shared and treasured,they were lovely things that will always be in ourpasts.They are pieces of us that no one can ever takeaway.I swear, they were all true, they were real, andwe were real. We were tandems you and I, butthis time it's different, it's going to be just youand just me.But choosing to end things with you and puttingmyself first doesn't mean that I'll stop lovingyou. Because in the back of my mind, you're stillthere, a space in my heart that will forever beoccupied by your existence.You left a mark on me that no one could everreplace.I'll forever love you. I'll love you in a way thataccepts you as the person who changed me,who gave me the inspiration to make myselfbetter as before, and to love myself even more.I'll love you for the friendship and companionshipwe've established and shared. I'll love you forthe way you helped me through this cruel life. I'lllove you in a way that will still leave space foryou, if we would ever stumble across each other5, 10 or 20 years from now. And if we run intoone another then, I'd be pleased to know yourstory over a cup of tea or coffee.And what I promise to never stop doing, is tolove you by praying for you, wishing what's bestfor you in life and hoping that you'll haveeverything you've been dreaming of.Because, after all, you're still that person whoonce believed in me, trusted me and loved mewith all your heart, mind, and being. And you'llalways be special to me.