Just like how he promised Pei Xin, he decided to fix everything. He wasn't certain he could do it all by himself but he could try at least.

No matter how he reacts, he's still your brother. Have faith in him.

Like always, Xiao Zhan did tell his physciatrist about the promise he made with his nephew and like always, his doctor encouraged him to take another step. Dutifully Xiao Zhan has been reporting all of the feelings, all of his emotions has been subjected to ever since he stepped into the Jiang mansion. 

Wang ZhuoCheng's room was literally next door and so Xiao Zhan found himself standing there holding his fist in the air, ready to knock.

He knocked!
Again,
And again,
And again.

But there's no response.

Maybe he really hates me, Xiao Zhan thought. They should give each other some time because they just met after many years.

"A-Xian! A-Cheng isn't home."

Xiao Zhan turned around to find his source of life standing there with a bowl of soup.

"Come on, let's go inside." Xuan Lu urged his didi and went inside his room. The first thing she did when she entered the room was to move the curtains away to let the fresh air and sunlight bask them.

She then sat next to Xiao Zhan who was staring at the bowl of soup for long.
"A-Xian, don't you want to drink?"

Xiao Zhan who was deep in thought, heard what she asked and immediately picked the spoon up.

"I do! Shijie. It's just..."

"Just?"

"It's been too long." 

It's been too long since he last talked to his family. It's been so long since he felt like living again.

His nightmares haunt him, reminding him of the days of his naivety. Even his old house couldn't take the demons from underneath his bed.

Xuan Lu patted his shoulder and gave him a reassuring smile.

"A-Xian, everything will be alright! Despite how  A-Cheng appears, he really loves you."

Xiao Zhan wasn't sure about that, the two of them had gone through something horrendous, what if he's suffering on his own? He gave a small hum.

"Where did he go though? "

"He didn't tell me, he just said he wanted to take care of few things."

Xiao Zhan just hoped that his brother was with his friends? maybe he could unwind his heart with them?

"That reminds me, he made a new friend in Japan. I think they came back together. A- Yu met him at the airport when he went to pick A-Cheng. He said he's a gentleman."

Xuan Lu chuckled because his husband doesn't easily give compliments to people. The man must really be nice.

"I think his name was Liu Hai Kuan."

Xiao Zhan's eyes sprung open.

Liu Hai Kuan?

If his memories didn't falter, then he's Wang Yibo's older brother. He went to Japan back when Xiao Zhan and Wang Yibo were dating. Would Zhuocheng really befriend someone related to Wang Yibo? Or maybe it was someone else? 

Xiao Zhan didn't have to reach to a conclusion. There are many people with the same name as this. It could totally be a false alarm. Like his physciatrist, his name is also Liu-

Realization took it's seed in Xiao Zhan's mind. These two people didn't have to be same but what if they are? Meng Ziyi specifically told Xiao Zhan about this doctor. And even the psychiatrist had the inquisitive look when he asked who recommended him.

Sh!t the card!

Xiao Zhan threw it away without giving it a proper look. There were so many things rushing in his mind and so many dots he was ready to connect.

But if he really was Wang Yibo's brother, why didn't he tell him?

"A-Xian... Are you okay? "

His sister's Angelic voice broke the turmoil rising in his brain. He let go his breath which he didn't know he was holding. He weakly nodded.

"Hurry up and drink the soup, it will go cold."

Xiao Zhan took a sip of his soup and overwhelming feeling filled him up. He had never been this hungry before.

After he finished soup, Xuan Lu collected the bowl and was about to leave when Xiao Zhan called.

"Jie Jie."

Xuan Lu halted her steps.
He had always called her Shijie, putting a distance himself. Not letting himself Delude if he got too attached only to loose them. Loosing one family was enough, he didn't dare to lose another. But now, he wanted to accept, move on and become a Big Happy Family like how  he promised Pei Xin.

"What is it A-Xian? " Xuan Lu turned around, holding back her happy tears.

Xiao Zhan took a deep visible breath, readying himself for the confession he was about to make.

"Jie Jie, I've been sick..." 

 He said with big pearls of tears dripping from his almond eyes.

"You finally told me A-Xian." 

The two embraced and cried, attempting to dissolve their sorrows. Unknown to them, their brother was crying, leaning outside the door.

. . .

Xiao Zhan had been staring at his screen. He knew what was demanded of him, yet he didn't feel like answering.

Doc: How was your day? Did you manage to talk to your brother?

He contemplated for a while and finally texted.

Zhan : Can I trust you? Like really?

Xiao Zhan remembered it was the first thing he had asked the psychiatrist, back then his own emotions were out of control for him to make a clear judgement but now he has many doubts.

Doc:  As I've said before, trust is yours to give. I hold no credit for that.

Doc : Did something happen?

Zhan : No, I went to my brothers room but he wasn't there. My sister told me he's out. Maybe with his friend,

Zhan : Liu Hai Kuan?

Xiao Zhan purposely sent the name separately, Hoping to evoke a reaction. But deep down, he didn't want it to be the case.

Doc : Don't worry, you'll get another chance to talk to him.

Zhan : Hmm. But I talked to my sister instead.

Doc : How did it go?

Zhan: It went well.

Zhan : I told my sister about my sickness.

Typing the word sickness made Xiao Zhan feel like a wasted space, rejected piece of society. He scoffed at himself.

Doc : You are not sick Zhan!

Now Xiao Zhan knew how he felt Every time, he called him by his name. He felt disgusted.
Maybe because now a doubt was planted in his mind, and he didn't want that nightmare to come true.

Doc : what did she say?

Zhan : She told me that just because I'm handicapped now didn't mean I should look down on myself.

Zhan : She said, she would love me no matter what.

There was once someone, who said the same thing but guess he turned around and left. Traitor!

----------------------------
Sorry for errors thank you for reading.