*Contains adult content

❝ All good boys go to heaven,

but bad boys bring heaven to you ❞

❦

Fai drops me off at Harper's. When I get down from the motorcycle and pull the helmet off, shaking my head, Fai kills the engine. "So, when am I seeing you?" he asks, taking the helmet for me.

I put my hand on his jaw and kiss him. "Whenever you want," I tell him against his lips, opening my eyes to look at his.

I give him a wink before retreating.

He grabs my arms before I can go anywhere. "Kadie, this thing going on between you and me ... what is it?"

"Relax. We're just having some fun, babe." I pull my arm from his grip. "I'll call you," I tell him. I wave at him and send him a kiss before I disappear into the building, running to the apartment.

Harper isn't home yet. The place is idly quiet and I take a moment to throw myself down on the couch with a shit-eating smile on my face.

I get up to make some lunch for Harp when she comes back. And then I settle on the couch with a science book in my hands. I get a message from Fai not that much later.

You still can't go to the bar.

I think this overprotectiveness is absurd and, usually, I'd never let anyone tell me where I can and can't go, but it's different in this case. I kind of like that he cares so much that he takes the effort to keep me safe.

Can you take me to our place then?

I started referring to that place he first took me as our place. I still don't know exactly the address of it or where exactly that is.

Can't tonight, he replies.

Tomorrow then. We can go back to your place afterwards ...

I realise Fai is a quick texter. His response comes in just seconds.

You're working?

Nope.

To which he only replies, Ok.

I text back, It's a date simply because I don't want to let him have the last word. He doesn't respond to this one.

When Harper comes home and sees me sitting on the couch, she stops. "Oh. You're here." She nervously tucks a hair strand behind her ear.

I give her a weird look. "Where else would I be?"

"I don't know. With Fai?" she asks, walking to the kitchen. "And you cooked! God, I'm starving."

I close the book and follow her to the kitchen. I sit down, just watching her. "Did you eat yet?" she asks.

I nod. "Went on a burger with Fai."

Harper looks at me. "He took you out to eat?"

"Something like that. Nothing as romantic as you're picturing in your head right now."

"Oh," she replies. "But still. That's nice." She sits down. "So I take it you two are serious now?"

I shrug. "Eh," I say. I sort through the mail that's on the table.

"What? That's not an answer."

I look at her. "I don't know what else to tell you. We're just fooling around a little, nothing too serious."

"But do you have any feelings for him?"

Feelings? I've never had feelings for anyone. Ever. "No. I like him, that's all."

"I don't really believe that." When I just tilt my head to the side, Harper elaborates. "You're happier now. You smile more. I don't know, you're just different."

I put my feet on the chair and lean back, putting my hair up in a ponytail. I understand what's getting through her mind. It's true that she never met any guy I was fucking, and I never fucked anyone for long enough for her to meet him anyway, but her idea of love is a little different than mine.

"What can I say? He gets me. The real me. And I like that. And I like that I can talk to him about all kind of shit. You know?"

Harper puts her head on her hand, forgetting about food. She's also smiling. "I'm happy for you, Kadie. I don't even care that he's not a good guy, if he's good to you and makes you happy, then you have my blessing."

I raise my eyebrow. "Why are you team Fai all of a sudden? And why are you trying to convince me of something here?" I don't love the guy, although Harper, apparently, thinks I do.

"I'm not team anyone. I'm telling you this because I don't want you to hide things from me. I want to hear about you two."

I make a weird face. "Harper, darling, you need to find yourself a boyfriend. Pronto."

She rolls her eyes and goes back to her food. "As if I have time for anything else or anyone else right now."

I just grin as I stand up from the table. "You have to make time." I give her a wink. "Going back to the book now," I tell her.

Fai is late the next night and I make sure he sees my annoyance because I had to wait for him outside.

"Oh, shut up," he says before I even say anything.

He puts his hand on my chin and kisses me before he gives me the helmet. "Get on," he says.

I jump on behind him and he drives off. I was really looking forward to this today because I started looking at this as a getaway from everything. A quiet place in this loud world. I started to enjoy riding with him. I get the excitement and the thrill now. It's awesome. It feels like you're flying.

When we get to our place I just lay down on the grass and close my eyes. I love the serenity around me. Fai is quiet beside me and I opened my eyes just to look at him. He's looking at the city, too.

I slowly sit up. "How did you find this place?" I ask him, remembering that I asked him this once already, but he left the question unanswered.

He shrugs. "On one of the rides."

"Mmm," I say in acknowledgement. "Do you go on those often? Alone or only with the guys?"

"Yeah. Alone, mostly." He looks at me.

"You can take me with you the next time you go."

He chuckles and shakes his head. "You know, about what you said the other day, about us just having some fun. I don't do fun, Kadie. You're either in or you're out. There's no being halfway in this shit."

I lean my head on my arm. "I think we both know I'm in this shit already."

He looks at me. "Are you really?" I catch the double meaning. I know what he wants to know.

"Yeah, Fai. Really."

"I hope you know what you're agreeing to," he says.

And I just look at him. "Actually, Fai, I don't. I don't know what it is that you do."

He raises his eyebrows. "You're smart. I'm pretty sure you figured it out."

I shake my head. "No, I can only assume. And I hate assuming things. So unless I hear you say it to me, I don't know shit."

He gives me a long stare, probably just trying to figure out if I'm telling the truth. I think he's also debating if he can trust me. "Drugs," he finally says.

I cock my head to the side. "Drugs what? You do them? Sell them? What?"

He rolls his eyes. "I don't do them. Obviously." I just shrug. "Sell. And I collect money. It's not a pretty business."

I roll my bottom lip into my mouth as I process this information. No, I believe it's not a pretty business. I know about it. I didn't sell drugs and I wasn't particularly into drugs, but I experienced it, nonetheless. "And in future? What do you see yourself doing in the future?"

"What's the point of thinking about the future when we still have today to live?"

"Sure you have dreams. Everybody does."

"What are yours?" he asks me.

That's an easy one. "I want to become a lawyer."

He raises his eyebrows. "A lawyer?" he asks as if this is the last thing he expected.

"Yes, a lawyer, Fai. What's so surprising about it?"

He purses his lips. "Nothing. You're smart. You'll be a good one. I just thought you'd wanted to be something ... I don't know, less boring?"

I have to laugh. "I can do boring if I want to," I tell him. "Your turn," I tell him.

"I have my own tattoo shop and I want to continue with that."

My mouth falls open. "How did I not know that? That's so cool. So drugs aren't your only business."

One side of his mouth pulls up. "You have to have something clean going on if you want to hide the dirty stuff."

We're silent for some moments, just looking at the lights. "When will it be safe to go back to the bar? I can't keep stuff from Harper for much longer and she'll completely lose it if I tell her I'm in some sort of danger. She only just started liking you."

Fai raises his eyebrows. "Good to know I'm starting to have a fan club. You can go when I'll be there. It'll be safer that way. And I'll take you home."

I throw myself at him, wrapping my arms around his neck and just laugh. "Thanks, baby," I say with a high-pitched voice.

"You'll thank me later," he says this with a smirk.

I know what he means by that. I turn against him and he lets me reposition myself so I'm still sitting on him, close to his chest, and now watching the city before me.

And I can't help but think how nice this is. How different. Fai started opening up more to me. He started talking to me more and sharing things. We have a connection, but we both know this can't be anything more than just a little fling. I leave in a few months, anyway, and he'll just be a really nice memory then.

Fai is a good kisser. Especially when we're about to get naked. He's possessive and dominating and he devours my whole mouth as soon as we come to his place. I help him get rid of his jacket and he throws it somewhere on the floor. He presses me against the kitchen wall, pushing my jacket off.

I'm pulling his shirt up and he has to detach his lips from mine to take it off. In a hurry, I take mine off as well and I hear him growl before his mouth takes mine again.

I take my hands down his bare chest, coming to his jeans and cup him over them. He's already hard and I feel him pulse against my hand. A smile forms on my lips, but I don't stop kissing him.

He suddenly turns me around, my front pressing against the wall. "Really?" I say hazily as I try not to panic for losing that little control he let me have.

He presses against me from behind, his mouth coming to my neck. "Yeah. Really," he says softly. "Undress," he orders me as I hear him do just that.

I take my pants off and I look over my shoulder to see him taking a condom out, completely naked. I want to turn around, but he stands back up, pressing against me again. "Nu-uh."

"But I want to see you," I say. It's not a lie. But I also want just a little bit of control, too.

"Nuh-uh," he says again. I feel his hand coming to my stomach and then downwards, his other hand coming to lightly wrap around my neck. I tilt my head back, almost meeting his shoulder when he touches me right between my legs. He splays his fingers, his pinky finger touching my lips and I bite down on it.

He pushes his index finger in me and curses. "Fuck, you're already wet, Kadie."

I smile and I take his finger into my mouth, sucking on it. He lets out a shaky breath and I love how much I affect him. "Fuck me," I breathe as a plea, not hiding how desperate I am. I push my hips backwards, closing my eyes. Make me forget. Replace the memories, Fai ...

He takes his finger out and when I think he'll replace it with his cock, he starts rubbing my clit instead. "I want to make you come," he says against my ear.

My eyes snap open. I shake my head. "No. Fai, please, just fuck me," I groan.

He doesn't say anything and I push my hips against him harder, rubbing against his cock. I pry his hand away with both of my hands and put it over my breast instead.

As if Fai wants to punish me, he suddenly pushes inside of me. Fast and without a warning and so hard, he pushes me even harder against the wall, making me let out a squeak and then we both moan at the sensation of him finally being inside me.

I press my cheek against the wall as Fai seems to hate-fuck me. I think he's angry because I didn't let him play with me. I'm not sorry about that. I like it rough, anyway. I like it any way he's going to give it to me.

He lets my hair out of a ponytail just so he can wrap it around his hand and tilt my head back. His mouth is on me in a rough kiss. He bites my bottom lip and I bite his tongue. He fucks me even harder for that and I just groan into his mouth.

His hand comes to my throat again, the other playing with my breast until he puts it over my stomach and then to my hip, squeezing it. He detaches his lips from mine, kissing me down my neck until he comes to my shoulder where he bites into my skin and I arch my back against him.

Holy fuck, is he intense or what!

"Can't believe how fucking good you feel," he mutters.

"So do you, Fai. Fuck," I say, probably wishing for the first time that I could come just to experience the relief that I never can.

But I don't. And when Fai comes, I enjoy it just the same because there's something satisfying hearing a man come while inside you, feeling his cock pulse and hearing him groan next to my ear. It's sexy as hell.

He takes a moment to calm his breath down before he steps back, pulling himself out of me. I suddenly feel lazy and tired and just well-fucked, even though I can never feel fully relaxed after sex because I'm still worked-up and I can't get off.

Fai takes care of a condom and I go pour myself a glass of water since I'm in the kitchen. We didn't even get to the bedroom.

I take our clothes and bring them to the bedroom, sitting on the chair by the window and grabbing a pack of cigarettes, taking one out and lighting it up. I put my feet on the window ledge, still completely naked and that's how Fai finds me.

I hear him go to the kitchen but he comes back right away and gets on the bed, still completely naked.

He checks his phone and then puts it down, turning his eyes on me. We don't say anything to each other. He's just watching me smoke the cigarette and I enjoy him watching me smoking it.

"Why don't you come here?" he asks me when I finish it.

I raise an eyebrow at him. "I'm not really a fan of cuddling after sex."

He takes his already hard cock in his hand, slowly dragging it up and down while watching me with a dirty gleam in his eyes. "Who said anything about cuddling?"

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