(adj.) someone who has an overwhelming and unreasonable fear of falling in love.

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i'm so insecure
what you want me for?
i don't even know
who i am
how can you say you love me?

i'm so done with boys
and all the torture
you all want to own me
but none of you want to know me

the touch of your fingers
turn my pride into cinders

when you show up at my door
i know what you're after
i feel the disaster
so don't come any closer

i hate you so much
for making me feel so anxious
what do you want from me?
you know i can't give you me

don't look at me with those eyes
don't try to say those three words
i know they're all just lies
my body is yours
but your heart is never mine

you don't know what it's like
to live inside your head
when all your pretty little thoughts
are your only best friend
'cause intimacy scares me to death

i shiver under your touch
and you mistake it for pleasure
i run when you talk feelings
i don't believe you love me
i get paranoid when you make me feel a way
that shit's way too scary
for me and my philophobic tendencies