There is sun
but it's hidden by the clouds
To admit I can't forget
I am too proud

Where's the happiness
I was promised?
Its below the lies
That I can't confess

I'm ashamed because I said
I would forget and I failed
So nerve racking
Discouraging

When we laugh
In peace I feel
It's a disillusion
Cause it's not real

You never say her name
But I hear it always
I became the pain
In so many ways

I want to be free
From this curse
In my head you slip
And my soul you rip

I'm beginning to wish
I'd never met you
For me to think this
Means I can't take it anymore
Oh ! it was so great before
But now it's like falling
Endlessly
Blindly
In this dark and cold hole
That I like to call denial

I won't be the one holding your hand
No, for you I'm too old
It's like an adventure on a free road
And I'm a dead end

March, 23rd 2023