The only thing you gave me was hope
Hope is for fantasies
Fairy tales and stories
Hope is when you know it will happen
It wasn't enough for something called "us"
But it was enough for me to hurt
Whose fault is it then ?
Yours because you made me hang on
Or mine because I didn't let go ?

It hurts my soul and ego
My thoughts are racing
The consequences I'm facing
Are as brutal as they could be
This humiliates me
I'm ashamed of who you made me
Of who I became next to you or far away
When I don't know what I want
When I'm searching for the unknown
Maybe I haven't grown
At all
The fall
Is brutal

I'm a wreck
But I'm afraid
I can't cry
When my heart is burst open
They toy with it
Put it back in place
But not in the good order
They scream at it
After them I chase
And loose pieces forever

June, 2nd 2023