I invite people to my home
'Cause I get attached pretty fast
And asking them to come
Is a way of saying « I hope this lasts »

I never get invited to their home
They must be too busy
For other people they aren't tough
They must not care for me

The way I do
For all the people I've welcomed
For all the times I've phoned
And they weren't home
They might have juste said «you
We don't actually like you
We just need someone to fill the gaps »
By doing so they are tearing me apart

So I stay awake at night
Asking myself why
What I could've or  might
have done to feel so lonely

I'm sorry for all the wishes I had
I'm sorry for wanting to give up
At the time too late I realized
That my mouth isn't made to be shut

I DESERVE TO BE LOVED
I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY
I NEVER WANT TO GET LONELY AGAIN
I NEVER WANT TO GET ANXIETY AGAIN
BECAUSE OF THOSE WHO NEVER CARED
BECAUSE OF YOU LONELINESS I HAD TO BARE
AND I NEVER THOUGHT I'D BE HAPPY AGAIN
YES I REALLY THOUGHT IT WAS THE END
I REALLY THOUGHT IT WAS OKAY
TO FEEL SCARED FOR YOU TO GO AWAY

Now you follow my crush on insta
You take pictures
And post those
You go to parties and drink
While I make music and think
With my own mind and create things
Remember when you said I was strange
And then on snap asked me as a friend
Remember when you made fun of me
Who are you today tell me

I KNOW WHO I AM
I KNOW WHAT I WANT
I KNOW MY WORTH
AND I KNOW MY NAME
I KNOW MY PLACE ON EARTH

In the future you will all know me
Thinking « wasn't she the girl with a bad personality and bad taste in clothing »
You will all be hoping
THAT YOU WERE JUST LIKE ME

March, 16th 2023