i blame myself
for giving up on you so easily
for leaving once things
got a little bit too hard for me

i'm sorry
i have a habit of leaving people
when they no longer make me happy

and i know i promised
i'd always be there
whenever you need me

and i meant it
i didn't lie
but you pushed me away
and made me feel as if
my being with you was only a burden

i sometimes wish
we'd just stayed as friends
because then
i wouldn't have had any expectations
of you

i wouldn't have been bothered if you
didn't ask me how my day was
how i was feeling

i wouldn't have been bothered when you
refused to open up to me
like i opened up to you

i wouldn't have cried
every night i wanted to talk to you
just to hear your voice would've been enough
but you always made excuses
not to call me
and it hurt, it hurt so bad

knowing the one person i would do anything for
wasn't able to do a simple thing for me

i truly just wanted you to care

but still, i blame myself
for asking for too much
when i knew fully well
you weren't ready for me

you weren't ready for this kind of love
you weren't ready for a girl who would cherish you
listen to you
take care of you
and try her hardest to understand you

i'm sorry
i love you