You know when you're stuck between a rock and a hard place? Where you're not sure if you should go this way or that way? That's what I've been feeling these past few days, scared to move, otherwise I'll get hurt or end up loosing something important to me.

Zeref, has well, he's been feeling some things lately. He's a bit angrier, been thinking about things that to me aren't that big of a deal. Mostly he's been putting a lot of that anger at me, which I don't mind cause I love him and sometimes you have to find that one person you're willing to go through hell for just to see them happy on the other side.

I'll just read a book till he's ready to sleep. Grabbing whatever seems interesting, I sit at the table and skim through the pages. Nothing really seems all the fun to read and really I find it kinda boring but, I'm not really sure what to say right now, I can even feel the anger in his eyes just on me right now. "Are you having fun reading that?"

Looking up, I see Zeref chewing the inside of his mouth, he doesn't want to be angry but me just doing this sees to have set something off. "Not really, I just did it to pass some time before we sleep is all. Are you ready to sleep now?" I see him mumble to himself than come over to me. "I'll just sleep, it seems I'm to boring for you so I'll just leave, do whatever you want." With that he storms out of the kitchen. Oh love, you're so hurt but, I'll make you happy again. I follow him into the bedroom, he sits on the edge of the bed, still talking to himself.

"Zeref, do you need to talk?"

"No, just go do your own thing, I'll just be here so I won't get in your way anymore."

"All I was doing was just reading some things to pass time is all. It wasn't interesting so, I can sleep with you."

He makes a 'tsk' noise while he turns away from me. I can't help but sigh, knowing what is happening and what may accrue from this but, its what I'm willing todo for him.Should I just say whatI want to and get this over with or let it fester and make it into an even bigger fight later on. The rock and hard spot.

"Are you jealous?"

"Don't be ridiculous."

"You didn't answer me, I asked a simple question is all. So are you?"

The words linger in the air, if it was a knife it would cut this thick anger feeling in half. "Clearly you think I'm boring so, I'll just get out of your way and let you do anything you want. You're free, go be happy with the book or Lucy or who ever. I'll just be here."

I couldn't help but want to just give up and leave the room or the house even but, what good would that do. Giving up on someone you love cause they say few words you know they don't mean is a dumb reason to leave. "But, I don't want to, I don't like that kind of freedom. All I want is to just sleep with you."

He gets to his feet so now I can see him better, his while chest looks red, while his eyes look even darker than before and as for his hands, their as white as snow. "Just go be happy, cause clearly I don't make you happy anymore."

"You know that's not true, all I want is just to sleep and see you be happy."

"I've almost forgotten how busy you are, a busy person that has no time but to just sit with me."

"I'm not a busy person...I don't do anything..."

I have one of two options here, either give in and let him be angry at me, or yell at him and let us both get angry and might say things we regret. I can't bare to see him so hurt anymore but I also don't want to loose him cause I said something that made him upset.

"You're letting this little book bother you, don't you think that, well, silly?"

I knew I was going to start something but, it had to be done, I had to show him with yelling and screaming that I'm here to help and no matter what he does or how scary he gets when he's angry I'll still be here for him like I promised.

"What did you say?"

"I said, a book is not taking me away from you. All I was doing was just doing some reading till you were ready for bed thats it. You know for a damn fact that I'm not bored of you but, here you are saying anything just to make me feel like I did something wrong. That what I'm saying about me wanting to just sleep with and not wanting this freedom that you just gave me is a lie to you."

He doesn't respond, just looks to to the floor. "Zeref, I know you're not sure what you're feeling anymore after finding out some stuff but I told you before that I'm not leaving you and letting you be alone anymore. You've been alone for so long that you're no longer used to having someone be there for you, but I'm here, right here giving you my all."

I go out to reach him but he pushed my hand away from him, he doesn't want me touching him nor want me to help him anyway I feel. "You're just saying that."

"Is that what you think or feel?"

"It's what I know."

I'm left stunned by his words, How can he say that to me? After what I just said to him...No I need to be strong not for my sake but for him to. "Is that what you really think? That I'm just saying lies to you?" I still go out to touch him, this time he doesn't react and push me away. I run my fingers through his hair and bring my hand down to his cheek. "Zeref, what have I always told you, the moment I met you."

"That you'll never leave me..."

"And that I'll always come to you whenever I need you."

He nods into my hand, it starts to get wet from his tears, but I simply wipe them away. I bring my other hand to his face and raise his head up to my eye level. It's there I truly see just how hurt my love really is. That scared boy that lives in his eyes is just looking for someone to love him, to hold him and tell him that everything is going to be okay.

"When you left me those two months, I still wrote you, I even ran to you still when I needed someone. I choose you and I'd still choose you over everyone. You're the one that I'll defend no matter what, even from yourself I'll still be on your side. What happened in the past is something no child should ever have to see nor go through alone."

He cries even harder now and pulls me closer to him. He wraps his arms around my waist and cries into my chest. I rest my head on top of his and play with the ends of hi hair.

"I know at times, all you want todo is be alone, to have the world forget you cause you think it will make it better that way, but what about me? How do you think it makes me feel knowing you want to leave me alone when you told me that was your biggest fear. No one ever wants to be alone when their hurting."

"I'm so sorry, please forgive me Mavis."

He cries, he cries so much I just know I'll need to change later but it doesn't matter, what matters is he needs to feel the warmth of someone holding him.

"I'll always forgive you and I'll always be yours too. No matter who I talk to, what I read or whatever makes you feel the ugly jealousy in the end its you that I want more than life itself. You're my future and my one and only Zeref, thats a promise."

"I don't understand. Your mind is perfect, not clouded by any bad thought. You don't get jealous when I talk to someone else or anything. How can I be like you, please tell me so I can stop this thinking."

"You don't thing I get jealous either, Sweetie, I really hate it when you have guys night. All I want is for you to just be home and watch a movie with me but, then I thing that maybe that will get to boring and you might want to see other people, enjoy a night with guy friend cause one night a week is actually really good for your health."

He smiles a little and cup my face into his hands. "I would love todo that, everyday for the rest of our lives, but I'm scared. What if everyday I get like that and say those things to you. I can't do that and you don't deserve it."

Hm, see there's the man I love, always being so thoughtful and caring. I sit on his lap and take his face into my hands. "What I deserve is for you to be with me forever. You and I are a team, and I'm going to stay with you and fight this with you. Even if I get to my limit and walk away, I turn right back around and hug you. You're not alone anymore Zeref. You'll never be alone anymore."

"I love you Mavis."

"I love you too Zeref."