Zeref and I haven't been on the best of terms lately, to be honest I don't know what todo anymore. All we do is fight, cry, fake happiness and then fight once more. I'm so mentally drained from it, I just want him back, I want us back.

Sitting on the couch, drinking away the fight I just had. I can't help but remember how things used to be, the love and laughter, the way he used to talk to me and his damn smile... "What happened..." Taking a big gulp of my wine, I recall the day Zeref and I went to the mall to look at teddies bears. He held my hand so tightly, he didn't care that I was pulling him around from store the store. We would step in and put on sunglasses, pretending to be movie stars and having photo shoots on out phones. Those were the days, the days of old. 

Taking another gulp, I look at my phone to see if I have any messages from him, not a single thing. Fine, see if I care. Drinking more and more I can't help but find myself reaching for the bottle more. I know it's not the right thing todo but, I'm at a point were I'm not sure what i should be doing. Bottle after bottle, gulp after gulp. I lost track of the time and the number of bottles I consumed.

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The front door opens and the keys clink in the bowl. "Mavis, I'm home." Heyyyy, I-I know that voice. I hear him come closer to the kitchen, I hold my breath so he can't hear where I am. Rounding the corner, his eyes widen. "Mavis, Wh-What did you do?!" I look around to what he could possibly be talking about, I shrug and take a drink from the bottle. "What are you talking about~, It's just a party. Partyyyy" Giggling as I take another gulp, he yanks the bottle from me. 

"What he hell!, I was drinking that~"

"Come on, we need to get you to sleep."

He pulls me up by my arms and helps me to balance on my feet but I stumble over my feet. "Be careful." He sounded anger in his words but I found it to be very cute. "Mmm, you're so sexy when you're upset." He 'tsk' with his mouth, but all I heard was a sucking noise, "Kisss, me."

"Mavis, come on."

"Kiss me, Zerwf~"

"Tomorrow, let's just get you to sleep."

I was getting a little upset when he didn't kiss me, before he would kiss me any chance he could get, every kiss was so sweet, even sweeter than the last. Now, I have to ask him to kiss me, it's like a chore to him now it seems. Letting my feet drag on the carpet, he has to work a little harder to get me the living room. "Will you stop being stubborn."  He pulls but I suddenly becomes dead weight, which is good cause now I slid out of his arms. 

"What is wrong with you?"

"Why, do you care~"

"Cause I'm worried about you."

Mocking him with the sentence he just said to me, I glare daggers into his eyes. "Well, you know What~ I do not care. Why...WHy do you get to worry about me. but I don't get to worry about you." 

"I've already told you, you don't have to."

"Who the hell died and made you the freaken king of that. Last I checked, being worried over someone meant you loved them."

"Mavis, lets talk about his later, you need rest." 

He tries to pick me up again but I push him away. "I can do it myself." Gripping the edge of the counter I hold myself sturdy till the room stops spinning. "Are you okay?" Are you okay, HA wh-what, no I'm not."

"No, I'm not okay. I'm so far from okay, I don't even know what I am."

"I'm sorry."

"Sorry, that's all you ever say now...What the hell happen to you. You used to fight so much for us but now- it's all me."

I can feel the tears welling up again, the anger that's been sitting on my chest is now boiling over. If i didn't get as drunk as I am now, I don't think I have the guts to speak my mind. Where, where has it gone wrong. I thought everything was perfect. Perfect, people loved us. I let the wall of tears break as I sobbed loudly, I fell to my knees, cradling my chest with my arms. Zeref can't help but look so hurt, so defeated by the scene before him. He would always say stuff to make me feel better. I remember the first time we had a big fight like this, I never thought I would find someone that would put up with me, put up with all my crap. 

"Maybe I should leave again, It seemed you were having more fun without me here...like always."

Looking up at him, I felt that shot in the heart again when he says those kind of things. "There you go again, I don't get it. Do you just say that kind of stuff for fun, does it make you happy seeing me all hurt and sad like this. Does it get you off or something."

"I-I'm sorry.''

"No, I don't think you are. Cause if you were really sorry; you would stop doing it when I beg you all the time to stop."

"Mavis, I-"

I sniff back my tears, "Don't, I know what you're gonna say and I can't keep hearing it anymore." When he looks up at me, all the tears has coved his whole face. I've truly never seen this pain before in his eyes.

"Remember how it used to be, you would never doubt me, you would never say those kind of sentences to me but now, I don't know how much I'll be able to take anymore."

He crumples to the floor, I cry even louder as I see everything we work for hanging by a thread. "I don't know what I did or said to you, to make you say such hurtful things to me like that, but I never say that stuff to you." He crawls over to me and gets into his bow. This bow, it makes me know he's truly sorry he feels. 

My tears now stream slowly as I look at him, this is the man I want my everything with, I know he's doing things that are just so hurtful but I know deep down he doesn't mean it. He just doesn't think before he talks and it gets him into a lot of trouble and we get into a lot of fights cause of it but I love the hell out of this man.

I crawl over to him and hug the upper half of his body till we come together in a tight embrace. He kissed the side of my face, getting tears on his lips, he hugs me tighter and tighter with each passing second. "Mavis, please, forgive me. I'm not good for you but I know I can be cause you make me better. Without you I'm nothing and I'll have no point in living if you ever leave me."

This makes me cry even more into his neck, I couldn't ever bring myself to leave him nor do I ever want to. "I forgive you, I always will silly. You may say things that hurt even more than a knife at times but I know you don't mean it. You make me better for me so I can be better for you, for us. If you're not with me then I don't want to be here anymore."

As we part we smile for the first time in a long time, a real happy smile. I see the sun in his eyes, the joy in color retuning in my heart for this man. Our kiss is sweet and long lasting. It's like I was kissing a stranger for a while but now, I know he's home and here to stay. He holds me ever so closely like if he left go I'll disappear. 

"Till my last breath, I'll love you forever Mavis. I swear on my heart and soul I'll get better and treat you the way I would want a man to treat my daughter."

"I'll love you no matter what path life brings us to, if we get uglier and worse off I'm not ever gonna leave nor stop loving you. You promised me you'd always come home Zeref."