TW!! SLICEY DICEY AND MENTIONS OF SUPER-SLIDE!!!

(also this be a story based on personally on what happened to me when i did s/h!! Pls if anyone is struggling, I hope you get better !! Don't be afraid to seek help and reach out! stay safe <3 )
A/n: I will sometimes consist of writing the y/n's pov as "I nodded" and "You make your way toward the room" ykwim lol.

[ Y/N'S POV : ]

You were at home, it was awfully silent for a family that's really loud. That's right, your family was out for a beach picnic. This was at least the fifth time you got left alone like this. No parents, no older adults. You knew it was a perfect day to chill, maybe clean the house a little, and possibly sleep. You walk into the bathroom where the tiles were slightly cold beneath your feet, and you knew you could use a nice wash on the face. "Ah, shoot!" You remember that Leo and the gang were visiting your house today, home alone and all that. You notice the previous scars on your arms from not more than 3 hours ago, some still spotting with blood, you scramble for bandages inside of the bathroom cabinet, carefully covering each cut. After finishing you look up at your face in the mirror, you face full of dread and doubt. You sigh as you make your way towards your room.

"(Y/N)!" A voice called from the window of your room. You jump, but then recognise the voice. It was Leo, you look through the window seeing 4 of the turtles, Leo smiling and the others behind him, they enter through your window. "Oh, hey, Leo! U-uh how's everything?" You ask with an awkward smile, tucking away your arms behind your back. "Nothing, just thinking of a certain beauty, you?" He smirked. You blush profusely and frown slightly, "I'm... okay?" You reply with a sort of fake laugh. "Uhh, why don't we go down to the living room! It's a bit squishy in here" I suggested, they followed us downstairs. They all seat themselves to the couch, surrounding the coffee table. "Any drinks, guys?" I asked, opening the fridge. "Do you have (f/d)?" Mikey asked. "Haha, yes, Mikey, I'll get that for you" "What about you, Donnie, Raph?" I continued. "I'm good, thanks! But Donnie wants water" Raph answered. I nodded, smiling that I was no longer alone.

I placed their drinks on the table, also leaving a box of donuts on the coffee table. Everyone thanked you. You found this was a perfect excuse to leave to your bedroom. "Uhhh, I gotta go to my room for a moment!" You blankly stated. Leo looked your way, concerned, sitting on the kitchen benches' stool. Leo tapped the countertop impatiently, worried. "I'm gonna follow (y/n) you guys stay there" Leo said. "Okay~ have fun!" Mikey and Donnie smirked playfully, Raph nodding. "Quit it, guys" Leo rolled his eyes blushing, "I'm just checking up on her, that's all" He finished. You look at your arms, sighing, you felt so numb, so dull... "What the fuck is wrong with me? I- I can't do anything right! Why do I even bother doing this stupid shit?" You asked yourself, in a mid-whisper voice. You remember how everyone reacted the first time you did self harm. Everyone was broken to see you like that, devastated. But now, they were just mad at you for even trying, not even trying to help you get through it. It wasn't like 5 therapy sessions did anything. Shit You thought.

"Hey, (y/n), are you ok?" Leo asked, approaching the room. "Shit, shit, shit!!" You scramble, trying to hide somewhere. "I was wondering if you were ok, Uh, I hope I'm not--" Leo froze. "Oh my god, (y/n)! Are you okay??" He practically freaked out. "Oh! Leo! I-I--!" You started to hyperventilate. Leo rushed to where you were standing, there still shocked. "Who--" He said under his breath. "Breathe, (y/n), okay... Who did this to you??" He said worryingly, you could see the shear despair, and hear the extreme concern in his voice. "Leo, I-" You took a deep breath. "Wait, I know what's going on" Leo frowned. "This isn't the thing you've talked about... you haven't been doing it again... have you?"