if we didn't think of each other
would we have dragged it on like this?...

The Kim family drove in silence to the Airport. The air in the family SUV feels constricted. You're looking solemnly outside as the vehicle drove past beautiful mansions in their neighbourhood. I am wondering how this little holiday will turn out to be.

Jisoo is furiously typing on her latest Samsung phone talking to the Blackpink members who are spending time with their families.
Your parents are murmuring about random business stuff.

Within an hour, you arrived at Incheon Airport. You and Jisoo had both masks on. Your hair is into a bun hidden by a black beanie and hoody. You got your back rimmed glasses on, and Jisoo got sunglasses on. Nobody paid attention cause your flight is very early.

You checked in and got your tickets. First classed tickets are book for the family, and you had the privilege to use the first-class lounge. Jisoo and your mom and dad decided to have a light breakfast.

You still feel groggy and a little sick. Your mom didn't talk to you the whole trip to the airport, and you didn't care less. You so used to her moods that it became your new normal.

You open up your camera app and take a cute selca with your dad. You send it to Yerin, and she gushed over how cute you and your dad look. You told her what your dad told you about the reflexology.

Jisoo came to sit at the table where you decided to sit.

Jisoo was smiling." How are you feeling, sis?"

You grimace," I can manage. Don't worry about me."

Jisoo with a concerned look,"Ji-Ho the thing with you and mom goes deeper...what is going on between you two since we've turned 14. You're attitude changed. Why?"

You look at her with an unreadable expression," Nothing...It's complicated...I just feel like she doesn't care what I wanted since I've been a trainee with you...I'm tired of trying to win her favour...I'll never be you.." your eyes start to tear up, and you quickly stood up" ...I think I want something to nibble on now"

You quickly went to the buffet table and scan what you like to eat. You do not have an appetite but you decide on a fresh salad with lots of green olives.

Your dad came up to you where you fix yourself a cup of coffee.

You dad gave you a side hug when you look affectionately up at him, " How's my girl doing?"

You smile a little while taking a sip from your coffee," I promise to enjoy the short family vacation. Just keep mom busy and away from me dad...cause I can't promise to be the sweet and timid girl when she slurred insults at me...I don't like my Eomeonie right now.."

You dad chuckled a little when you went back to your separate tables. You saw a few businesspeople sitting around on the couches, some on their laptops, some reading newspapers, some making use of eating a full breakfast.

It was time to board the plane, and you took your carry on bag and followed your family. Jisoo went up first.

The flight attendant was very attentive. Your parents sat together. Very lovey-dovey with each other.

You sat with Jisoo although you wanted to have a single seat at first. You and Jisoo watch a preview of the new music video. This time YG video director used both of you. You did most of the dancing/acting scenes, and Jisoo did the vocals.

You both enjoyed your Korean dishes. Jisoo decided to take a long nap while you took out a romance book and keep yourself busy. After getting a little bored, the flight attendant offers you something on their dessert menu.

You've enjoyed the cheesecake while you decide to watch a movie. You wanted the comedy shows. When last did you heartedly laugh at that?. Since Blackpink debut and your studies.

Everything was so hectic your study schedule, your unresolved feelings for a particular boyband member, Blackpink performances, appearances, awards shows and endorsements., Don't get you started with your double life with your unfamous friends, your future, your strained relationship with your mom. Everything worked on you mentally.

You decided that you'll enjoy this vacation to the fullest. You'll forget about all the negativity in your life. You'll be civil and respectful to your mom, enjoy your time with your dad. His birthday is on Christmas Eve.

.......
You landed at Heathrow Airport.

Your flight was long, and you still feel tired. Your dad got you trollies, and you and Jisoo shared one. Jisoo pushed her travel bags in front of you. You just follow the rest of your family.

You plait your hair in two sections. You looked so cute that Jisoo took a selca with you to send to the Blackpink chat room. You took a family picture together. You and Jisoo in the middle of your parents. You next to your dad and Jisoo next to your mom. You prefer it that way.

The hotel shuttle was waiting for you. You dad already booked an SUV which he'll fetch the next day. You'll be staying at the LANGHAM HOTEL. Jisoo booked the accommodation for you. You and her will have interlinked bedrooms. London looked already festive with street fairy lights.

You smiled at Jisoo when you reached your destination. The hotel is beautiful. The architecture and decor make your spirits high. After your reservations are confirmed you and Jisoo ran to the elevators unable to wait to see your rooms. The bell boy just shook his head and followed you into the elevator.

Your rooms are on the same level. Jisoo slipped the key cards into your hotel room door and gasped at the elegance of the room. You entered, thank the bell boy and give him a tip.

You let Jisoo choose first and then started to unpack your clothes. You mom called and informed you about the dinner plans later. You and Jisoo dressed warmly cause you and your dad will go and fetch the car at the rental office.

Jisoo and your mom decide on a spa treatment, facials, mani and pedis. Their girly rituals when they are usually together. You and your dad was taken by the cute shuttle services the hotel provided. At least the two of you can spend some quality time together, maybe explore some of London.

While you were waiting in the waiting lounge, one of the consultants looked intensively at you. You become a little anxious, cause you didn't expect anyone to know you in the UK. Never underestimate the power of social media because You could punch yourself by not disguising yourself better. She smiled tentatively smile at you. You just give her a small wave.

"Excuse me miss, are you perhaps a member of a kpop band, Blackpink, I love your debut mv..", she asked politely in her beautiful British accent. You can speak in English correctly only Jisoo can't speak English well, but she can understand it.

Thankfully all the counters are practically empty, and they're only an old couple and your dad.

"Erm... yeah..but please don't disclose my location...my family and I need our privacy" you pleaded.

"Can I have a selfie with you if you don't mind?"

You look a little unsure, but she looked so pleadingly at you, but you sighed and obliged. You were deciding to smile and quickly took a selfie with the cute blond girl. She looks giddy and thanked you.

"I wouldn't post it on social media now. How long are you in London?" she asked with interest.

"Er...till new year...pls post it after we're gone. Can I trust you.."

She beamed thankfully. Until her boss came in from the office, she quickly became a professional.

After your dad got the car, you decided to just drive around the city. After your dad got the car, you decided to just move around the city. You bought a drive though lunch and went to eat ice cream.

You dad knows how much you love Baskin Robbin's ice cream desserts, so he put on the GPS to find the nearest parlour. When you found it, you couldn't contain your excitement. You are even first out if the vehicle.

You ordered your favourite vanilla and praline with chocolate sauce and cherries in a sweet flower cone.

Your dad opts for his favourite nutty ice cream with fresh bananas In a cup. You both took a seat at the back booths and enjoyed a much-anticipated father and daughter moment.

This is the first time in months the debut that you and your dad could sit and talk like that. There's a lot of things that you didn't tell him, too afraid he'll disclose it to your mother. That is the last thing you need now...not Mother Witch on your back. She already thinks you're life is worthless.

"So baby, what are you're planning after graduation, I know you're Yerins' business partner...but your personal plans" he eat a bit from his dessert.

You furrow your brows," Well, I wanted to go further my studies in the USA. There's an acting course that'll like to explore. Maybe for the year.Getting a part-time job at a television studio and going for auditions if I'm lucky enough in the US. Helping Yerin with the spa business. I would want to move out of the house dad..."

Your dad nod in understanding. " Yes, you and Jisoo will be 23 years next month. But so far from home darling... why not stay in Seoul? You'll get a Yonsei Degree, and television studios will fall over you. You love Kdrama, why not auditioning there. I don't want you in that dangerous place all by yourself..."

You took your Dads hand. "Appa, I'll be 23 years. I need to stand on my own. I need to start loving me...right now I'm living Jisoos life...that is what Eomeoni doesn't understand. I want to be known as Y/n, not Jisoo."

Your dad looked sad," I'm so sorry darling, that I never knew about what conspire with your mother. She was very depressed when you girls were born. She wasn't even 22years. We got married right after we bonded. Those days if you had the red-gold string, you were required to get married no later than six months after that. Things had significantly changed due to careers and technology."

You nod, but you need to move out of that toxic environment. When you were 15 years, you wished you died drowning instead of your friend Woobin.

"Appa, I'll always love you...I want to love my Eomma, but I need to accept the fact that I'll always be the less loved sister, in the shadows, the genius one without a life...I lied to my friends for four years. I'm terrified that I'll lose them when they find out...I want to come clean before I leave."

You dad smiled," I'm still worried..but it's your choice...I'll support you...I'm sorry for the double life, and it must be strenuous."

" You won't even imagine how... the paparazzi have mobbed me, I almost flunk drama theory cause I've been an hour late for the exam due to performance while Jisoo went away with mom unexpectedly to Hawaii. She forgot they had a performance at one of the Universities festivals. It fell on the same day as my main module exam...a manager of YG had to explain. Now my lecturer is the only one with the Dean that knows my secret.."

Your dad just shook his head:" and that just to be there for your selfish sister. She needs to get her act together...You can't do all the work, and she gets the fame and recognition."

You lick your spoon and wince, " that is also the reason for Eomeoni fights with me...she thinks I'm selfish and wanted to sabotage Jisoo career."

Your dad doesn't look thrilled," This is ridiculous...when you get a chance to escape, do it...I love my wife, but she's a handful and can act stupidly."

You just laughed. Your mom is voted one of South Korea's most beautiful CEOs. You and Jisoo look like her, but your eyes, ears and legs are from your dad. Jisoo is a bit clumsy like mom.

Dad looks at you with am unreadable expression," You haven't met your soulmate yet...You won't keep that from your dad, won't you."

You almost choked on your remaining ice cream," Erm....no I didn't meet him...I'm too busy at school and performances...kpop artists can't date...that is also one of the things mom thinks I'm useless at...finding my soulmate."

Your dad chuckled," I doubt it, I don't think Jisoo feel so lucky by finding out she'll never have the red gold string, the magical bonding experience, the feeling of Euphoria when you Soulbound with your destined soulmate. A blue or yellow string bonding can never compare to the red gold. Your mom was very depressed. Mostly when Jisoo soulmate was already practically engaged."

You chuckled when you think about how furious Jisoo was she found out her soulmate was practically ten years her senior. But he still loves her like a sibling, and he and his wife support her all the time. Their baby daughters' name is Jisoo.

Your eyes lost its sparkle when you though about soulmates if you'll ever meet yours. Especially when you sit with unrequited love, only the red gold string can destroy any romantic love you might have for someone else. You're praying every day to get someone to love you unconditionally.

Your dad frown when he notices the change in your demeanour.

"Darling, are you ok?... You're not keeping something important from me, do you?.. I'm not your mom, but you can talk to me, dear" he looked at you with love. It made you tear up,

" oh, Appa...I ...I'm sorry... it's complicated" you stammer a little over your words. You hate keeping secrets from your dad.

"Did you meet your soulmate already.?..that is why you're so depressed. ..did he reject you or-" you quickly interrupts

" - no Appa...I didn't meet him yet...but I...er...met someone almost four years ago at a training camp ...and we fell in love at first sight if you can call it that..and-" you finally confess cautiously.

"Wait...wait a minute...You fell in love, and nobody knew about that milestone in your life?" your dad asked in disbelief with a little disappointment in his tone.

"I'm sorry Appa...but I couldn't tell anyone...dating wasn't allowed... not even my friends, Jisoo or mom knew...I was so scared people would find out and when we debut it will be disclosed, ruining our careers...actually his career"you quickly explain.

"Is he a debut artist... who stole your heart ...a member of Bigbang, Seventeen or EXO-" you laugh a little as if you going to disclose such info?

"No, Appa but they'd debut...there are a lot of other not so well- known or popular bands...but he liked me...as Jisoo... I lied to him Appa...he thinks I'm Jisoo and when Blackpink debut...he saw Jisoo thought it was me...but Jisoo personality ... drove him away...let just say he doesn't like her now.-I lost him before he could know the real me now, h ...he'll never forgive me now..we confused him" you look sadder than before.

"At least when you meet your soulmate you won't have to worry about it anymore" he smiled.

You wipe your mouth and just shook your head sadly, " ... then why do I still have intense feelings of love for the same guy after almost four years. It's unnatural. I...I love him, dad."

"Do you feel like that every time you see or meet him" he frowns.

"Appa my heartbeat becomes erratic, my breath hitches and my chest burns" you tried to explain.

Your dad looks at you, his eyes wide," That type of emotions and reactions feels like the 1st step in soul-bonding...Ji-Ho this boy could be your soulmate.
Your deep affection before your soul marks appear...the awareness of each other...did you tried touching him?"

You shook your head. You'll never have the courage to go near him...he'll hate you for what you made him go through. He must come to you, if he gets the chance cause you'll be far away from his wrath...

Before you could answer your Dads phone was ringing non-stop. It's your mom. She wanted to know why you are almost gone for two hours. You decide to buy them their favourite flavoured dessert and then drove back to the hotel.

A/n A little bit of father and daughter dynamics.

Thank you so much for all your support.