We pretend to care for each other

we can't continue

You and your dad took Ramona and Corey with him to the rental office. The lady was amiable and brought you to check out few buildings apartment blocks. Your father wanted at least two- three-bedroom apartments. Ramona's block only had one-bedroom apartments left which weren't ideal as you would like your family or friends from home to come to stay over.

Your first stop was at the REEVES. But the furnishings weren't up to your taste costly but vintage. You don't want to be surrounded by antiques. You feel more depressed than ever. You wanted something very modern on the top floors with great scenic views from your living room and bedroom-lots of natural light.

La Grange was very modern but too far from your university. Lots of celebrities are usually spotted in this vicinity. Ramona told you that most of the uni students lived there also.

You don't want that either. Neighbors that will disturb you very early to ask for a cup of sugar or had overnight parties. No thanks.

The third stop was Winsor at Hancock Park. You loved this place. Your dad got you the top floor with at least three bedrooms. Two ensuites. One bedroom will be your study with all your school supplies like files and textbooks.

Ramona was beside herself with excitement. You will be living only 5min from her place. At least in approximately two weeks, your dad said your car would be delivered. You can even send the BP girls a photo and the address to Jisoo so that she can send you Yoongi's necklace. Thinking about him makes your heartache. But you suppress it. You can't go there...restricted areas.

Luckily you googled the news on BTS performances in the USA. It will be in Newark, Anaheim, and Chicago. You were so relieved because they will not be near your vicinity. Some miracles do happen.

Back at the rental office, your Dad signed the lease for six months. If you love your stay in the USA, it could be extended. You felt like a queen and very mature when your dad placed the keys in your hand.

You hug your Dad with elation.

" Thank you...Thank you, Appa... I'm going to enjoy every moment here in Los Angeles." you look so cute with your eyes sparkling.

"As long as you are happy, my baby," your dad embraced you back.

You thank the lady, and you, dad, and friends walked up with a happy heart. Your dad dropped Ramona and Corey in from her apartment block, and you promised to meet each other at the uni entrance.

Tomorrow is the orientation day. You feel a little apprehensive and very much joyful as long as you don't think about forbidden frontiers.

You and your dad head back to your hotel to relax and refresh before you could go and have a light dinner in the hotel restaurant.

Early this morning, before you left for Uni, you checked out the amenities. Took photos of the foyer, outside pool, bar area, etc. Some you've posted on Twitter, Instagram, etc. You will post again this afternoon if you feel like it.

You told your dad that you're going to check out the hotel pool somewhere on the upper floor. There's also a small indoor heated pool near the spa. Maybe you can book a hot stone massage and a revitalizing chocolate facial.

After you changed in your swimsuit with a light dress over your suit and a grass sunhat you bought in London, you head to the stairs. Your dad was busy working on his proposal.

You found the outdoor pool. It's empty with a barman mending the pool bar, and a
waitress who was busy clearing some tables of glasses darts around the pool tables. The weather is nice, not too hot at this hour.

The waitress took your drinks order. You order a virgin pina colada.

You put your bag down, take out your phone and place it on the side table next to you. You took out an English novel that you got from a duty-free store at the airport.

You took a photo of yourself and sent it to the Blackpink chat room.

You send a text message to your sister Jisoo.

Hi, Chichoo how you're doing?

Hi baby twin...I good. I got a new treatment plan, and it helped me a lot. Hows Cali?

Hot! I met two wonderful new friends, Ramono from Brazil and Corey from Nevada. They are pretty lovely. We go along just fine.

Did you get into the sorority you chose?

No, I wanted to..but the girls look fierce here... Ramona doesn't have good things to say about sororities. I wanted to bond with girls here...but few firsties: BLINKS" recognize me here. Even as Kim Ji-ho. They are kpop and drama lovers.

What oh, gosh, Sister! will you be safe there. Must YG send a bodyguard for you?

Oh no! I'm fine. Dad leases an Apartment for me in one of LA's most luxurious estates. I'll be ok. My car will arrive in approx. Two weeks, but Dad got me a red mustang to keep me on the go. I can't wait for you to come to visit me.

Wow, that's awesome, sissie. You so mature, more than I am. I heard that YG wants you to come May to the Uni Festival. I'll be doing three festivals after each other before Yonsei. It's good to appear as Jisoo/ Ji-Ho at your Uni to keep them guessing.

It will be weird singing and dancing in front of my old student body. Some might recognize me after the reveal. I'm more nervous now.

Big newsflash, BTS and Blackpink will appear in a variety show together in June, maybe you can-

Hell no!!! I won't stand in and interact with savage Suga... You know he hates us. You can handle his coldness, not me...so you do it.

Ok, but Jennie was so excited. She is planning a massive thing with Mr. Min Yoongi. I remain to be seen.

W..What !!

Yes...we have to see. That little savage is a cat that needs to be handle with iron hand gloves...Sissie, I'll see you soon...back to rehearsal now..bye lovey.

You closed your phone abruptly.

What is she up to, now? You feel a coldness creep up to your spine. Jennie is adamant to date your Soulmate...your soulmate!!! You feel the tears starting to form at the corners of your eyes when you thought back to what Yoongi said, that he rather date Jennie, who is more honest with her feelings, than you that was so deceptive.

Your heart started to ache painfully. You don't know how you will handle it if you truly have to lose him. He will love you but -

You couldn't think about it. The tears were streaming treacherously out of your eyes. You wiped it furiously with the white towel.

You were deciding to dive into the heated pool quickly. After few laps, you went to relax. You read a few pages of your novel. You got notifications on your phone. The pic of the pool you've posted this morning had unexpected results. Your head spins at the fantastic response. The retweets were insane.

You were stunned. The guys of Epik High each liked it, and their tweets were retweet numerous times. Blinks were following you. It was a fantastic feeling to be appreciated as yourself. At least something that makes you happy.

One of the waitresses came to you and asked you if you need anything else. She brought you some American Magazines. You were shocked when you saw that the world's biggest Boy band made the covers of an American Music Magazine. Where they won one of the most significant accolades in Korea, a Daseang. (Grand award)

Your heart started to thump painfully in your chest. He looks so happy and smiley. You miss him more and more each moment. You realize how good he looked on the cover at the back on Seokjin-Oppa. His gummy smile thought.

You look at the cover and see that they omitted Jhope and Jungkook. Shoo, ARMY will roast this magazine. The BTS Army would never sit back when the media or anyone else harmed their boys.

You remember the bitter wars between your Blinks and ARMY.

If your soulmate's rejection had to come to light, you fear a war between the two agencies. You'll keep it quiet. No one must know about your most embarrassing moment. You will have to crawl into the nearest hole.

Celebrity soulmate rejections always made the best news coverages. And a so-called Blackpink sub-member and a Bangtan will break the internet.

You are so glad you left Korea to find yourself.
This magazine article ruined your relaxation time, so you decided to go back to your room to prepare for your and dad's dinner date.
You took a quick shower in your room and dressed in a plain black and white printed shirt dress that is mid-thigh. Your designer handbag is on your bed.

Your dad was on the phone with his business associate and discussed the meeting for tomorrow night. You decided to move in on Saturday because your new apartment is near Rodeo Drive. You were elated. There were also cute shops and coffee shops in the street of your apartment.

You send a tweet on Twitter as well as updating your Instagram account. It is such a hassle, but YG requests it for you to be current for your new fans.

Next week you want to invite your new friends to an Authentic Korean Meal. You'll have to plan it. Your Agent called and discussed the Daze magazine spread. He also sends you a copy of the article you and Jisoo did for Allure before publication. You got the cover, but the inside spreads are about you and Jisoo. You already had the shoot done at home. Your career is busy soaring. Your acting agent is hard at work. YG doesn't want to lose you.

Jisoo and the girls had a performance at two of the music shows. Jisoo felt very healthy and full of vitality, but they missed you. They are so amazed that you already made friends, and for an introvert, it was admirable.

You and your dad went to one of the hotel's restaurants that serves light midday lunches.

You order a light burger and lemon ice tea. Your dad orders steak and roast veggies with an American brand beer.

You and your dad had an enjoyable father-daughter bonding. He is so proud of his little girl, who is so courageous to take full responsibility for her life. You are now Ji-Ho, not Jisoo.

"This is so delicious?" Your dad cut some of his meat and make an elated facial expression, " Did you call your Eomma?"

You nodded, "I send her an early text this morning. She and Jisoo went to visit halmeoni in Deagu for a day. Jisoo got an off day. They are going to perform at some of the music festivals."

"I'm glad you and your mom are working on your relationship. I'm so sorry for all the pain and hurt you were dealing with. Know that I love you." He looks at you with sad eyes knowing what you told him caused you a lot of pain for years.

You nod with teary eyes, but you know the healing process will take longer. Talking about your mom enhanced the unwanted feelings with the rejection from your soulmate.

" I forgave her, but I'm still healing from wounded emotions. She still prefers Jisoo. I'm tired of being second-best: a copy or a replica of someone else. I want to be Kim Ji-ho, the successful actress. I want to experience real happiness and joy for once. I want to laugh and sing not for an audience but in the shower or bath. I want to love passionately and be passionately love. I want to live.."

You express your deepest yearnings. You want Min Yoongi. You want to love him so much, care for him, be his anchor, his queen...if he can forgive you.

You feel bad that you lied to him for months...but it was out of your hands. You were under contract.

You constantly dream about him, wonder how he is doing, does his shoulder give him problems, How are his sleeping patterns right now? or is he working too hard? Is he happy?

You love him unconditionally. You've always loved him since the day you locked eyes on him when you were a mere 18-year-old teenager with stars in your eyes but deep pain behind each gaze.

After your relaxed dinner date with your dad, you both retrieve to your rooms. Your dad will go later to the gym, but you'll join him tomorrow very early for a workout session. You wish you and your dad were the only two in your family. But you dismissed such evil thought, but you can't help it.

That evening, you were again dreaming about your soulmate, but you woke up with more longing for him this time. Your mind wandering off you wonder how he must be doing, his tour, does he even miss you.

You just shook your head. The soul mark might be full craving activation from him, and you don't think he would want to see you. He was too mad at you right now. The more you think about him, the more your love is growing for him.

Will you ever reconcile? Will you ever forgive each other? Your emotions are still wounded, and you need to heal right now.

Last night YG sent you the dance rehearsal schedule with the dance agency here in LA. Before you went to bed, you were practicing some of the steps. It is not so difficult. YG wants you to come to South Korea in May to help out with two University performances. You told them you'd see your acting schedule and maybe do the Yonsei Festival and one more that follow Yonsei directly. Jisoo can them recoup from the other.

This will also be an opportunity for you to help Yerin and get ready for your bridesmaid duties for the Tzuyu wedding.

Tzuyu and Minho booked a Blackpink performance for their Wedding rehearsal. You are going to sing her favorite love song during the ceremony. You and Yerin are so excited. Yerin is the maid of honor. Her wedding will be in early June. So you'll plan around the festival dates.

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The next day you and your Dad went for an early workout session and then for breakfast. It was such a lovely time. You were energized and full of renewed vitality.

Your dad drove you to the uni. You don't feel as nervous as yesterday. You found Ramona and Corey shoving each other at the parking before the entrance. Your dad will have a business meeting today. He will be flying on Sunday to New York to seal the deal. You are so sad that he'll be leaving you, but at least he'll be there helping you to move in.

He will be staying over at your new apartment. Today is Friday, and you can't wait for the weekend to move in.

You kissed your dad on his cheek and jumped out of the vehicle. You made sure your Sunglasses are on-no need to start a frenzy with the new first years.

Ramona spotted you, and a big beaming smile graced her lips. Corey looks smug with his hands folded.

Ramona, with an excited voice, " Hey, good morning girly, you look so pretty today. Are you ready for the orientation? Ooh, I like the colored hairpieces in your hair. You look hip." She hugged your elbow in and quickly waved at your dad, who reverse out of the parking.

You chuckled," Thanks, I'm ready. I can't get over those hair twirls."

Corey smile and wiped some of his wild curls out of his eyes,"Morning, girl. Ready to start your orientation, come we have a full day today. Let's go and find your orientation mentor."he took your other elbow and hugged you in.

The three of you were laughing and just having a great time with each other.

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