pairing: alessia russo x reader

summary: in which you had fallen for a lie

warnings: smut, fingering (r giving), oral (r giving), fluff, angst, hurt without the comfort & swearing | minors dni

words: 7718 (jeez)

a/n: it's a bit rushed but i hope you enjoy!

You were known as being the reserved type. Much preferring to be introverted than extroverted.

When you joined Arsenal it came as a huge shock to you. Everyone on the team was outgoing and full of energy. Whereas you would much rather be by yourself doing some small drills or at home with a nice cup of tea sitting on your sofa and watching a movie.

Although, parts of that changed. You had wished to be with someone. A certain someone.

And that person was none other than Alessia Russo. The other newbie on the team.

From the moment you met her, you couldn't tear your eyes away. To entranced by her pure beauty and stunning smile. You had fallen hard.

You, of course, never said anything about these feelings and kept them to yourself. Too afraid that you'd ruin the friendship that you have with her. Constantly telling yourself that it was better to have her in your life as a friend rather than not at all.

You had gotten to know her after being paired with her for some drills during training and due to this, the two of you had grown close as well as your feelings.

International football was now here and it was your first time being called up to the England squad. After your outstanding season at your old club, all eyes were on your move to Arsenal, especially Sarina's.

She was immensely impressed with how you'd come into your own and grown as a player and she knew you were someone she wanted on the England squad.

Walking into St George's Park for the first time, you couldn't contain the anxious butterflies that flew around your stomach. Keeping to yourself, you made your way to the pitch, picking up a ball along the way.

Not knowing how long you had been by yourself, the sound of people chatting seemed to get closer and closer. The chatter, however, seemed to come to a stop when they saw you.

Pinging another ball into the top corner, you took a little break to get some water. Turning around, you were met with the whole team.

"Well, well, well. If it isn't a newbie." Ella Toone's voice cut through the silence.

"Go easy on them, Ella. They're only ickle." Mary teased, messing up the midfielder's hair.

"Hey, y/n." Alessia smiled, noticing your discomfort with all the attention.

"Uh, hi." You greeted, waving slightly.

"I see you've all greeted our newest member." Sarina called out, sending you a warm smile.

After introducing yourself to everyone properly, you were all split up into little groups for training. It was nothing heavy, just a few passing, dribbling and shooting drills to get you warmed up.

As training went on, you felt more and more a part of the group but you didn't let yourself be fully open, opting to hold back. You weren't sure why, perhaps it was the nerves.

Before you knew it, Sarina called you all in for a run down of how she thought training went and ushered you all to the showers. Although you were happy with your first session with the girls, you held back, waiting for everyone to go before you.

Each of the girls were busy doing their own thing when you made your way into the locker room, placing your bag on the side, away from the hustle and bustle of the room.

Quickly showering and getting into some clean clothes you were about to leave when you heard someone call out your name.

"Y/n?"

"Hmm?" You hummed, turning round to see everyones eyes on you.

"Are you doing anything later?" Alessia asked.

"Um, probably just watching a movie, why?" You wondered, rubbing the back of your neck, rocking backwards and forwards on your feet.

"Seeing as you aren't doing anything, come hang out with us?" Alessia said, gesturing to everyone in the room.

"Oh, uh, I don't- I dont really-"

"C'mon, It'll give you a chance to get to know us better." Katie spoke up.

"I- um- I-" you let out a nervous chuckle, "maybe you could just come to mine instead?"

Out of all the things you could've said, you said that. You well and truely wanted to kill yourself right there and then. The words slipped out of your mouth before you could stop them and now you wanted the ground to swallow you up whole.

"Can your house fit all of us?" Millie asked with astonishment.

You didn't trust yourself to speak again so you settled with a small nod.

"Okay, sugar daddy." Georgia teased.

"That's me." You mumbled as a small laugh died in your throat.

"Well, send us your address and we'll be there." Keira smiled.

"I- uh, don't have your numbers?" You said, cursing yourself for still being nervous.

"I can send it to you all." Alessia said, saving you from all the attention.

With a small confirmation nod from you, everyone seemed to filter out of the room one by one. Thinking everyone had left, you sat in your cubby, placing your head in your hands and letting out a long sigh.

After taking a few seconds to yourself, you finally looked up, surprised to see Alessia still standing there, playing with her fingers.

"Less?" You questioned gently. "I thought you'd left."

"I actually came to ask for a favour." She said sheepishly.

"Sure, what's up?"

"Could you possibly give me a ride to yours?"

"Yeah, of course." You smiled, your heart pounding just a little quicker than normal at the thought of more time with Alessia.

"You sure? It's just that I came with Ella but she's seemed to have left already."

"I promise, it's no trouble at all. Just let me quickly pack everything away."

In record time, you packed your bag and got everything ready. Although you were really good friends with Alessia, you couldn't help how your heart thundered in your chest.

Walking out of the training ground and into your car, you placed your bag on the back seat before finally getting into the front and starting up your car.

"Do you want the aux?" You questioned, handing her the little wire.

Alessia smiled and whispered a small 'thank you' before plugging her phone in and turning on a random song from her playlist.

Looking in your mirrors you made sure it was safe to reverse out of your spot. You placed your arm around the back of Alessia's chair and looked over your shoulder and out of the back window, using one hand on the steering wheel to reverse.

Alessia watched you carefully, the way your hand manoeuvred around the steering wheel effortlessly and how as you looked out the back window your side profile was on full display. 

After pulling out of your parking spot, you made your way back to your house. The journey back was in silence, a comfortable silence, that was occasionally broken by the two of you singing to different songs.

You could only hope to god you wouldn't crash your car. Her perfume was intoxicating, it was slowly driving you insane and every time you looked over at Alessia all you wanted to do was pull over and give her a kiss.

Gripping your steering wheel with both hands, your knuckles turned white at the sheer force you were using. Trying to swallow the lump in your throat you kept reminding yourself that Alessia could never like you back. How could she? You were you and Alessia was... Well she was Alessia. Your Lessi. The girl of your dreams.

Even being in close proximity to her sent your mind reeling. All these different scenarios popped in your head and you could only dream for them to be real.

"You okay?" Alessia questioned, placing her hand on your thigh.

"Huh? Oh, yeah." You said, clearing your throat as you internally panicked, eyes widening as you stared at the road ahead.

"You're usually talkative." Alessia shrugged, taking her hand off your thigh and you immediately missed the feeling.

"Just a little nervous." You mumbled as your fingers tapped absentmindedly on the steering wheel.

"There's no need to be nervous, is it about later?"

"Yeah, I don't usually have people over." You said, shuffling in your seat, trying to concentrate on the road.

"You can always cancel."

"I think it's a little late for that." You mumbled, pulling up to your driveway and seeing multiple cars parked on the front.

"And is it a little late to tell you that I also invited someone else over?" Alessia questioned sheepishly, cautiously looking over at you as you put your car into park.

"Oh? And who is this someone?" You teased, trying to ignore the pang of your heart when you pictured Alessia with someone.

"It's not like that," Alessia said, huffing out a laugh as she smacked your shoulder, "you actually know her."

"I do? What's their name?"

"You can figure it out." Alessia said as she got out of the car, enjoying teasing you.

"Okay... but would it kill you to tell me who this person is?"  You asked, scrambling out of the car yourself.

"Nope, but I'm still not telling you." Alessia said in a sing-song voice.

"Oh come on, just tell me." You begged, rounding your car to shake her shoulders.

"You'll find out soon." Alessia laughed, causing your face to light up at the sound.

"Or you could tell me now." You said, not letting go of her.

"Am I really that bad that you wouldn't tell them about me?" A voice said, making you turn around.

"Oh! Um, hi." You said, giving them a smile which turned out to be more of a grimace.

"I'm Leah, since Alessia decided to not tell you who I was." They said, a warm smile on their face.

"Y/n, uh my name is Y/n." You said, picking the skin on your fingers.

"I heard you're the new kid on the block." Leah said, trying to start a conversation.

"Uh-huh. That's me." You said, giving an awkward smile to the blonde.

"Sorry that I haven't seen you around, at Arsenal as well. I've been doing some rehab for my knee." Leah explained, pointing down at her leg.

"T-that's okay." You said, not really knowing what else to say.

"You're cute." Leah said, before going over to the rest of your teammates.

"Okay, what was that?" Alessia chuckled, walking up to your side and nudging you with her elbow.

"I uh I don't know. I think I malfunctioned." You said quietly, not taking your eyes off Leah.

"I saw."

"Was it bad?" You asked, turning to Alessia with a slight grimace.

"Not at all." Alessia smiled softly.

"I also think you forgot to mention that the person you invited over is Leah fucking Williamson." You mumbled out, looking back at the defender.

"That's on me." Alessia chuckled, patting you gently on the shoulder as she walked over to where everyone was.

Shaking your head, you tried to get rid of all your thoughts and taking one last deep breath you went to greet everyone.

A few hours went by since you said your 'hellos' and after many slices of pizza and drinks you had all gathered around in your living room. You were all engaged in a conversation with each other. Talking about anything and everything.

At first it was teasing Alessia for being so clumsy or how Ella was so loud. Even going on to talk about how Rachel and Millie were the troublesome duo and an honourable mention to Mary's tiktok.

Then it was how you were inexperienced in pretty much everything.

"But how?!" Lucy exclaimed, raising her hands in the air to slap them back down onto the sofa.

"I don't know." You mumbled with a shug, looking down at your fingers.

"But everyone has had sex."

"Apparently not y/n." Lauren piped up with a laugh.

"Lauren." Alessia said, sending the girl a warning look.

"What have you done then?" Alex questioned, leaning her elbows on her knees.

"Uh, I've kissed someone?"

"Was that a statement or a question?" Jordan chuckled good heartedly.

Alessia looked over at you and noticed your leg bouncing up and down at an increased rate. The striker desperately wanting to say something, but not knowing what.

"I uh-" You struggled, not liking how everyone's eyes were on you. You could hear your heartbeat in your ears and it felt that everything around you was spinning.

"Okay I think that's enough." Esme said from beside you, placing a comforting hand on your shoulder.

You looked over at her and gave a grateful smile but the questions didn't falter. Your heart pounded even quicker and you suddenly felt as if you were trapped.

"I have to use the bathroom." You said quickly, coming up with an excuse.

You placed your drink on the coffee table as you stood up and slipped off down the hallway.

Shutting the bathroom door behind you quietly, you let out a sigh, tension melting from your body as you leaned against the door.

"C'mon y/n, pull yourself together." You muttered to yourself, moving over to the sink.

You placed both hands on the side, letting your head hang low as you listened to the faint laughs from your friends coming from the other room.

"Stop being a loser and have some fun."

You tried to give yourself a pep talk but nothing seemed to work. You were snapped out of your haze once you heard a knock on the door.

"Just a minute." You panicked, pretending to flush the toilet and wash your hands.

Opening the door, you stepped back out into the hallway and came face to face with Leah.

"Oh! Hi!" You stuttered out, hands stuffing themselves in your pockets.

"Hey!" Leah chuckled, "I was going to head out with the others but I wanted to say thank you for a great time."

"Oh, how long was I in there?" You mumbled to yourself, looking back at the bathroom behind you.

"Not long, don't worry." Leah smiled, placing her hand on your arm.

"That's uh that's good then." You said, stumbling over your words at her touch, feeling your body freeze.

"I'll see you around?"

"Y-yeah, for sure, yeah, definitely."

"Okay, cool. See you later y/n."

Walking back into your living room, you spotted Alessia cleaning up all the mess that was thrown around the place. The blonde noticed your presence and looked up at you with a smile before going back to cleaning.

Wordlessly walking up to her, you gently took the rubbish from her hands before putting them in the bin in the kitchen. The two of you continued to clean so your place was practically spotless.

Once you were both done, you flopped onto the sofa, sitting shoulder to shoulder but still not saying a word. Fiddling with the hem of your shirt, you looked around at everything in the room but Alessia.

"Is it alright if I stay the night?" Alessia wondered, causing you to finally look at her.

"Y-yeah, of course." You nodded, getting up from the sofa and holding your hand out for the blonde to grab.

Alessia took your hand without question and let you guide her into your bedroom. She sat on the edge of your bed whilst you rummaged around to find something for her to wear. Picking out some old joggers and a top, you handed the items of clothing to her.

She gracefully took them, getting up from the bed to place a soft kiss to your cheek before walking into the en suite to get changed. You stood rooted to your spot, face beet red and eyes wide.

It seemed like all the air had been taken out of your lungs, Alessia had never done that and now you didn't know what to do. It seemed foolish to be hung up on such a small thing but it sent your mind reeling.

Not realising how long you had been standing for, you turned around with haste as you heard the bathroom door open up.

"You okay?" Alessia questioned, looking at you quizzically.

"Y-yeah, thought I saw a spider." You said, looking like a deer caught in headlights.

"You're scared of spiders?" Alessia teased, placing her clothes on top of the desk of drawers.

"Definitely not," you mumbled, shaking your head, "nope."

"Okay." Alessia chuckled, shaking her head before going to lay on your bed.

"That's, erm, that's my bed." You said, pointing weakly to the piece of furniture.

"Yes?"

"You're laying on my bed."

"Is that okay?" Alessia wondered.

"Mhm, I'll just sleep somewhere else."

"You're not sleeping in here?" Alessia questioned, looking up at you with curiosity and you could feel your palms become sweaty.

"I didn't want to make you uncomfortable." You shrugged, suddenly feeling small.

"You could never." Alessia smiled, patting the spot beside her. "Now come here."

"You sure?" You asked, feeling very nervous at the thought of sharing a bed with Alessia.

"Yes, now come on. I don't bite."

"O-okay."

Squeezing your eyes shut for a brief second and releasing a shaky breath, you made your way onto your bed. You laid next to her, as stiff as a board, not exactly knowing what to do with yourself.

Mentally cursing yourself for being so awkward, you moved a little closer to the blonde, the latter trying not to laugh at your actions.

"Y'know Leah was right earlier." Alessia spoke up, looking over at you.

"Huh?" You questioned, confused as to what she was getting at.

"You are cute." Alessia said, taking matters into her own hands and moving so you were laying shoulder to shoulder.

"I-" You let out a chuckle but it died in your throat causing you to let out a small cough.

"Get some sleep." Alessia said, trying to contain her smile and shifting to get more comfortable which led to her head resting on your chest.

Nodding, you realised she couldn't see you causing you to fight the urge to slap yourself in the face. Leaning over ever so slightly, you managed to turn the lights off and get into a comfortable position yourself.

Letting yourself drift off into a deep sleep, you prayed to the gods above that Alessia couldn't hear or feel how fast your heart was pumping.

Many hours passed and the morning sun came around all too quickly. Some time during the night, the two of you had shifted, the blonde now somewhat fully laying on top of you.

Her leg was draped over yours, tangled together and her hand had made its way up your top, resting on your stomach, just above the band of your joggers. Her head had moved into the crook of your neck and you could feel each breath she let out, the action causing goosebumps to rise on your skin.

You were completely trapped by her, not that you had anything against it, in fact you couldn't think of anything better than the moment you were in right now. Assuming Alessia was still asleep, your fingers began to mindlessly trace shapes on her arm that was slung around your waist.

"That feels nice." Alessia mumbled, hiding her head further into your neck.

She felt you freeze underneath her, your ministrations coming to a halt and all of a sudden the situation became too much to bear. Your position seemed very domestic, and if the two of you were caught like that everybody would immediately assume you were a couple.

A couple. You could feel your heart crack at the thought. Staring up at the ceiling, you placed a hand behind your head, the other trapped underneath Alessia's body.

You don't know how long you were looking at the ceiling for until you felt Alessia's body shift beside you. The blonde moved so she was now leaning on her arm, her body hovering over yours. She looked at you questioningly, but you didn't say anything.

"Are you doing anything today?" Alessia asked quietly.

"No, why?" You responded softly, still looking up at the ceiling.

"Do you want to do something? Like go see a movie?" Alessia questioned.

"Of course," you smiled, finally turning to look at her, "but may I ask why?"

"Can't friends go see a movie with each other?"

"They can." You said, nervously looking around the room.

"Okay, what movie do you want to go see?"

"Not sure, you?"

"What's new out?"

"Um, let me see." You mumbled, reaching over to your bedside table and grabbing your phone.

Alessia laid herself down again, her head resting on your shoulder as she watched you scroll through your phone.

"What about the nun 2?"

"Absolutely not, I hate horrors." Alessia said firmly, shaking her head.

"C'mon, I'll hold your hand." You teased.

"Tempting," Alessia said, trailing off before ultimately nodding her head, "okay fine, but only if you hold my hand."

"I promise to not let go." You smiled, quickly booking the tickets.

You both decided to stay in bed for a little while longer, scrolling through your social media until it was time to get ready. You let Alessia choose some clothes from your wardrobe to get changed into and before you knew it, you were putting on your shoes and making your way into your car.

Alessia had the aux once again and you were both singing to your heart's content. On the way there you kept sneaking glances at the blonde next to you, unknown to you that she saw exactly what you were doing.

The drive to the cinema was short, not getting caught in any traffic leading you to arrive in record time. Putting the car into park, you found a space quite close to the entrance.

The two of you got out of your car, making your way to get some popcorn and drinks. You bought the food, much to Alessia's dismay, giving a cheeky smile to the blonde in response.

It didn't take long for you to find your seats and now all you had to do was wait. You placed the popcorn in between you both and the drinks in the cup holders.

Reaching your hand out, you picked up a couple pieces of popcorn but dropped them instantly once you felt a hand on top of yours. Looking to your right, you saw Alessia's cheeks flush.

"Sorry." Alessia mumbled, pulling her hand back.

"Don't be." You smiled, your hand going back into your lap.

The screen in front of you turned on and the adverts began to play. You sat patiently waiting for the movie to start, occasionally glancing over to the blonde beside you.

As the movie began, you had your whole focus on the screen ahead. Popping the odd pieces of popcorn in your mouth you almost forgot about who was next to you.

That was until a jumpscare came up on the screen and a hand flew onto yours. Your eyes widened, looking down at the hand that was clutching your own. Turning your head to Alessia, she looked between you and the screen.

She tried to take her hand back but you intertwined your fingers together, resting them on her lap. Carefully, Alessia rested her head on your shoulder, looking up slightly, silently asking if what she was doing was okay.

That question, however, went out the window when another jumpscare came up on the screen. You bit back a smile as you felt Alessia shift in her seat beside you and hide her face in your neck.

As the movie went on, your mind seemed to drift off to somewhere else. Noticing the direction of your gaze, Alessia did a double-take to find you staring at her. At this point, you were no longer watching the film but instead, you were watching her.

"You okay?" You questioned quietly, lowering your head to make sure that you didn't disturb the people around you.

"Mhm." Alessia hummed, burying her head into you further.

"You sure?" You asked, double checking just to make sure.

"Yeah, you're holding my hand." Alessia smiled and you could feel her smile into your neck.

You felt a blush creep up the back off your neck to the tips of your ears, a beaming smile making its way onto your face.

The movie went on and Alessia hadn't moved, her hand still in yours and her head still on your shoulder. As the credits played, you couldn't help the frown forming on your face. You really didn't want this time with Alessia to end.

Watching as everyone got up and left, you tried to stall the time you had with Alessia. She moved her head from your shoulder but didn't move either. Sending a small smile her way, you finally stood up, pulling Alessia up with you, not letting go of your hand.

Smiling to yourself, you left the cinema, gently swinging your hands back and forth between the two of you. You opened your car door for her, as well as closing it once she was fully in.

Running round to the drivers side, you sat down with a little huff, trying to think of something to prolong the time you had together. You tapped your fingers on the steering wheel, you mind coming up short on ideas.

"Want to get some food?" Alessia asked, fingers fidgeting in her lap.

"Yeah, sure. What do you want to get?" You questioned, turning the car on and pulling out of the space.

"Drive thru maybe?" Alessia said, looking out the window. "I don't mind where."

"Well, McDonalds is the closest?"

"McDonalds it is." Alessia nodded.

Looking over at Alessia you noticed that she was still playing with her fingers, so putting on some big boy pants you reached a hand over and intertwined your fingers once again.

You drove in a comfortable silence until you pulled up to the McDonald's. You ordered what you both wanted before paying, collecting your food and driving to find a parking space.

After finding somewhere to park, you turned the car off and dug into your food. Still, the two of you didn't say anything to each other, occasionally looking up from your food and when your eyes met you would exchange small smiles.

Once you finished your food, you waited for Alessia to finish hers. Not wanting to sit in an awkward atmosphere, you turned on the radio. 'Rock your body' by Justin Timberlake came on and you turned the volume up.

Dancing in your seat, Alessia laughed at your actions as she finished up the last of her food. Her eyes widened in confusion as you got out of the car, rounding to her side and opening her door.

"What are you doing?" Alessia wondered, looking up at you.

"Care for a dance?" You questioned, holding your hand out for her to take.

"What if someone sees us?" Alessia asked, hesitant but still taking your hand.

"So what?" You said, a blinding smile on your face as you danced with Alessia in the car park. "Besides, it's late, no one will care."

"You're an idiot." Alessia chuckled, but dancing nonetheless.

"True." You shrugged, spinning her around.

"I can't believe I'm dancing in a McDonalds car park with you." Alessia smiled, shaking her head.

"I'm full of fun ideas." You said, coming down as the song came to an end.

"Mhm, you sure are." Alessia agreed, stopping only inches away from you, her bright blue eyes staring into yours.

"Let's get you home." You rushed out, afraid that you'd do something to embarrass yourself.

"Okay." Alessia said softly, sitting back down in your car.

"I'm just going to put the rubbish in the bin." You mumbled, pointing to the take out bag.

"Don't die." Alessia teased.

"Better keep your fingers crossed." You replied with a chuckle that died in your throat.

As you walked over to the bin you slapped yourself on the forehead, muttering a small 'idiot' and squeezing your eyes shut.

You told yourself that you weren't going to fall for her and now look at you. She was turning you into a pile of mush.

Shaking your head, you tried to clear your mind before getting back in the car with her.

The radio was still playing but at a lower volume as you drove Alessia back to her place, your hand intertwined with hers as it rested on her lap. Pulling up to her place, you found somewhere to park.

Not really knowing what to do, you stayed in your seat, looking out the window, your eyes scanning whatever they could see.

"Thank you for today." Alessia said, opening her door.

"Yeah, of course, it's no problem." You smiled, turning to look at her.

"Goodnight, y/n." Alessia said, placing a kiss on your cheek before getting out of your car and walking off.

You groaned, smacking your forehead on the steering wheel, feeling your cheeks heat up. Contemplating for a split second, you made the quick decision to get out of your car and catch up to Alessia.

"Y/n?" Alessia questioned, as you jogged up to her side.

"Thought I could walk you to your door." You said, stuffing your hands in your pockets.

"How chivalrous." Alessia teased, bumping her side into yours.

"I have some perks." You replied, with a smile.

The two of you continued to walk to Alessia's place, neither of you said anything but it was perfect the way you were. Just being in each other's presence was enough.

So lost in your mind, you hadn't noticed you were now standing outside Alessia's front door.

"This is me." Alessia said, opening her door before turning around to look at you.

"Yeah." You trailed off, rocking backwards and forwards on your feet.

"Thank you again, for tonight." Alessia smiled.

"Of course, I'll see you at training?"

"Yeah," Alessia nodded, "goodnight, y/n."

"Night." You smiled before walking away.

Just as Alessia was about to close her door you turned back round and spoke up again.

"Hey, wait, uh-"

"Everything okay?" Alessia wondered, opening her door again.

"I don't want to get the wrong impression, but, erm, I kinda felt like this was a date? Was this a date? If not I'll-" You said, your finger pointing back and forth between you and Alessia.

"Do you want to come in?" Alessia said, ignoring your question with a smile.

"T-that doesn't answer my question." You replied dumbly.

Not saying anything, Alessia reached out and took a hold of the collar of your top, pulling you into her and placing her lips on yours.

Once you pulled away, you stared at her in shock, eyes blown wide and mouth slightly parted.

"Does that answer your question?" Alessia teased, smiling at your reaction.

This time you didn't reply, pulling the blonde back into a kiss. The two of you stumbled into her apartment, kicking the door closed behind you. The sudden impact had stunned Alessia, her breath catching in her throat.

Her eyes were blown wide and she didn't know what to do with herself. Her brain started to register what was going on and she finally kissed you back, wrapping her hands around your shoulders.

You both sighed contently into the kiss. Easily getting lost in each other's presence.

The kiss, however, what was once full of tenderness and caution soon turned into hunger and passion. The two of you unable to keep your hands to yourselves.

"We're friends?" You questioned breathlessly between kisses, unknowingly moving your way to her bedroom.

"Uh huh." Alessia replied, pulling you closer.

"Friends don't do this."

"Definitely not."

"But we're still going to do this?"

"One hundred percent."

Alessia felt her back hit a wall, the blonde gasping in response. You trailed kisses down her neck, gently nipping in different places but not enough to create marks. Stumbling your way into Alessia's bedroom, clothes were strewn around the room.

Pushing Alessia onto her bed, you hovered over her. She placed a hand at the back of your neck, pulling you down and bringing your lips back together. You slid your tongue against her bottom lip, the blonde immediately granting your access.

Alessia moaned into your mouth, her mind fogged with nothing but thoughts of you. Your roaming hands squeezed at her thighs, trailing up to her waist. You pulled away breathlessly, looking into her eyes.

"Why'd you stop?" Alessia questioned, trying to bring you back in for another kiss.

"I just wanted to make sure you were okay with this?" You replied, "I don't want to do anything too soon."

"As sweet as you are. If you don't fuck me now, we are seriously going to fall out." Alessia said, rocking her hips against your thigh.

"Oh! O-okay." You rushed out as your cheeks heated up.

Moving your hand to rest beside Alessia's head the other trailed its way down to where she desperately needed you the most. With one final look of confirmation, you slid two fingers inside her.

You nearly moaned at the sounds Alessia was making beneath you and assuming you were doing a good job, you curled your fingers.

"Fuck y/n." Alessia whispered through heavy breaths, moving her hips with the rhythm of your fingers.

Gulping back your pleasure, you focused solely on Aessia. You watched her every move, seeing the way her body reacted to your touch. She bit her lip, suppressing her from letting out any moans.

"Hey, let me hear you." You said, pulling her lip from her teeth.

Alessia's skin was tingling, goosebumps spreading like a wildfire as her orgasm approached with fierceness. Her hand moved down to your forearm, nails digging into your skin as her hips instinctively bucked at your touch.

You pressed your thumb down onto her clit, relishing in the way her eyes almost rolled into the back of her head at the action before coming back to focus on you.

"Shit, I'm gonna come!"

"Yeah?" You whispered, moving down close to her ear, "come for me."

Her hips began to rock almost of their own accord along with the lazy circling of your thumb over her clit. Her head was thrown back and her hair was stuck to her forehead. Sweat dripped down her neck as she tried to chase after her high.

You could feel her beginning to clamp around your fingers, a noticeable tremble to her body, it was obvious she was close and with one final curl of your fingers and a firm press of your thumb against her clit, she arched her back off the bed. Her eyes screwed shut, body shuddering as her orgasm washed over her.

You pulled your fingers out of her, Alessia let out a small whine at the loss. Kissing her softly, you began to trail down from her lips to her jaw, neck, collarbone and then to the valley of her breasts.

"You okay?" You asked, pressing feather-like kisses across her chest.

"Yeah." Alessia nodded, trying to catch her breath.

"Good." You replied, trailing your kisses down further, stopping just above her pubic bone.

You nipped and sucked along her thighs, leaving small marks here and there. As much as you were enjoying creating hickies, only for you to see, Alessia was getting impatient.

She bucked her hips, hoping to hurry you up. Trying to hide a smirk, you pressed a few teasing pecks to her clit. A sudden ripple of pleasure soared through Alessia's body. She squeezed your head between her legs, one of her hands tangled itself in your hair whilst the other went to play with her breasts.

Alessia's eyes fluttered shut as she succumbed to the pleasure she was feeling. She moved one of her legs over your shoulder, hips moving in time with your tongue to chase her building orgasm.

When you began to feel her clenching around your tongue, you picked up your pace, only stopping to whisper breathy praises into her, using your thumb to stimulate her clit and it wasn't long before Alessia's body was convulsing around your head, her legs shaking as you rode her through her orgasm.

Kissing your way back up to Alessia's face, you propped yourself up with one arm, the other, brushing strands of hair out of Alessia's face. Taking in her appearance, her eyes were dilated, her cheeks coated pink and her lips were swollen.

"You okay?" You questioned, looking down at Alessia's blissed out state.

"Yeah, just calming down."

"Take as long as you need." You smiled, placing a kiss on her hairline.

"Are you sure you haven't done that before?" Alessia teased, trying to regulate her breathing, mentioning to the other night.

"Uh- yeah, I kinda went with the flow." You blushed, hiding your face in your hand.

"It was perfect." Alessia said, leaning up to kiss you softly.

"I'm glad, um, let me get you some water-"

"It's fine, just lay with me." Alessia said, holding you from going anywhere.

"Let me, at least, clean you up-"

"Y/n, just lay with me."

"Okay." You smiled, getting into a comfortable position and feeling Alessia cuddle up into your side.

The two of you didn't say anything, enjoying the tranquillity of the moment which led to the two of you drifting off to sleep.

The next couple of weeks flew past in a blur. After waking back up the following morning, you and Alessia were inseparable. You went out on every date imaginable, the two of you growing closer and closer.

You were falling when you met her but now you had landed and she had caught you. On the sixth date you asked her to be your girlfriend and to your surprise, she said yes. You hadn't told your teammates nor any family members as you were new to all of this.

You wanted to take it slow and Alessia was quick to agree. But that went flying out the window when you let it slip that you loved her. Although the two of you hadn't been together for long, among the pleasure one night, soft 'I love yous' were sighed out into the air.

Since you had been friends before, you didn't want to do anything to ruin what you had. The two of you were inseparable and you felt as if nothing could break you.

The two of you didn't care about what anyone else thought, you were in love and nothing else mattered.

But now the time had come for international football again. After proving yourself in training, Sarina had put you in the starting eleven. You couldn't be more nervous, but luckily Alessia was there to help.

"Feeling okay?" Alessia questioned, her hand intertwined with yours.

The two of you were sitting on the coach, somewhere near the back, away from the hustle and bustle at the front.

"Yeah, just in my head that's all." You replied with a small smile.

"Don't be, you'll do great today." Alessia said comfortingly.

"Fingers crossed." You mumbled, resting your head against the window, watching as the world went by.

It had seemed as if you were on auto pilot, getting off the coach and changing into your kit before going out to warm up. Even the warm up went by in a flash and before you knew it, you were standing in the tunnel waiting to go out and face the Netherlands.

Although it was only a friendly, this was your first time in the starting eleven and it felt as if even more pressure was on you. The back of your mind kept telling you how everyone wanted you to fail, how you were no good, even going as far as saying that you were no right for Alessia.

You only snapped out of your thoughts when the ref blew her whistle. The game was gruelling from the start, each team putting in their all from the get go. England had a few chances and the Netherlands even less. Tackles were being made left, right and centre, each of them becoming harder than the last.

Losing yourself momentarily, your mind drifted off meaning you couldn't prepare for an incoming slide tackle. You passed the ball on, milliseconds before two feet came flying at your ankles.

Tumbling to the ground with a harsh thud, you felt all the wind being knocked out of you. Rolling onto your back with a groan, you stared up at the sky, trying to collect your breath.

Your teammates gathered around you but you waved them off, promising that you were fine. The referee had called a foul, a free kick for England in the perfect spot.

The ball was placed in your hands, the pressure of scoring almost weighing you down but you tuned everything out, finding a certain pair or blue eyes amongst the chaos on the pitch.

With a soft nod from Alessia, you knew you would be alright. Taking in a deep breath, you prepared for the free kick. After the refs whistle, you took your chance. Your foot connected with the ball, soaring its way towards the back of the net.

The stadium erupted into cheers, you had scored. The game started up again and it was as if England had found a new fire from within.

The match continued, chances at both ends but eventually England came out on top.

Everyone was in high spirits, singing and dancing around the locker room. You were all washed and changed, sitting to yourself once again as you waited for Alessia to get ready.

"Hey, we're all going out later, do you want to join us?" Ella asked, coming to sit beside you.

"Big crowds aren't exactly my thing." You mumbled, picking at the skin of your fingers.

"Alessia said she's going." Ella said, wiggling her eyebrows in your direction.

"Um, where is it you're going?" You questioned, looking down at your feet but you could still sense the smirk on Ella's face.

"I'll text you the address." Ella said, patting you on the shoulder before walking back off to her cubby.

One by one, everyone piled out of the locker room. Leaving you and Alessia alone once again. The blonde was finishing off getting ready whilst you were scrolling through your phone.

A message from Ella popped up at the top of your screen, the notification telling you where everyone would be meeting later.

"Hey." Alessia said, stepping in front of you.

"Hi." You smiled, turning your phone off and opening your legs so she could stand in between them.

"I told you, you were going to play well."

"Mhm." You hummed, leaning forward to rest your head on her stomach.

"Are you coming out later?" Alessia questioned, running a hand up and down your back.

"Probably not, I fancy watching a movie with a nice cup of tea." You replied, sighing contently.

"Can I come over after?"

"Of course." You said, looking up and resting your chin on her stomach.

"I love you."

"I love you." You said, standing up to place a peck on her lips.

Time flew by once again and you had suddenly found yourself standing outside a random bar in the middle of god knows where. You tugged on what you were wearing, seeing what everybody else had on made you feel ridiculously out of place.

Taking in a deep breath, you made your way into the bar. Cheap perfume, sweat and a potent smell of alcohol flooded your senses. You scanned around the place trying to find someone you knew and to your surprise you did.

Making your way over to everybody, you stopped in your tracks once you saw Alessia. It was as if an angel had fallen from the sky and you were so lucky to be able to call her your girlfriend.

Finding a new found confidence, you walked over to her, wanting nothing more than to be in her arms.

"Did you do it then?" Lauren asked, looking up from her drink.

"Do what?" Alessia replied, looking behind her and trying to find you but you were nowhere to be seen.

"Get y/n to believe that you fell in love with her." Lucy said as if it was obvious.

"I did but-"

"Who would've thought Alessia had it in her?" Rachel teased.

"No it's not like that-"

"Well, how are you going to break it off?" Ella questioned.

"I'm not, I-"

"That's rough." Mary muttered, sipping from her drink. "Making her believe that you fell in love for a dare and not breaking it off, sheesh."

"It was a dare?"

The question that made everybody freeze.

Alessia turned around and all of a sudden everyone's eyes were on you. Stunned in silence, you could feel your heart shattering with each second passing by.

"Y/n-" Alessia started, walking towards you cautiously.

"Answer the question." You said firmly, holding your hand out, stopping her from getting any closer.

"Baby, I-"

"Answer the question, Alessia. Did you pretend to fall in love with me for a dare?"

"Yes but-"

"Oh."

Oh. You felt it there and then, your heart falling out of your chest and onto the floor, the blonde in front of you stepping on it a thousand times over.

"It was a dare at first but I really do love you." Alessia said, begging for you to believe her.

"Uh huh." You replied, nodding numbly, not being able to feel a single thing apart from pure heart break.

"You have to believe me, I love you so much, I really do."

"Hey, no, it's okay. I, erm, kind of figured." You mumbled, eyes brimming with tears as you ignored Alessia's pleas. "I mean, why would Alessia Russo fall for someone like me?"

"Y/n-"

"I'm- uh- I'm just gonna go." You said, sniffling slightly as you pointed to the door.

Nodding to yourself, you looked down to the ground before leaving. Your teammates behind you desperately tried to get your attention but it was no use.

You had left, leaving everyone behind. Leaving Alessia behind. Leaving your heart behind. As, after all, you had fallen for a lie.

i know alessia would never do something like this, its just for story purposes:)