pairing: leah williamson x reader

summary: you get told about a career changing offer and theres only one person keeping you from taking it, what happens when those feelings change following a hidden secret?

warnings: fluff, teeny tiny bit of angst and the occasional swear word

words: 2227

a/n: how about a little angst on my birthday? although its not as angsty as i thought when i re-read it but oh well.

You sat on the coach next to Leah as you were driven back down to London. You had just played a gruelling game against Everton, luckily winning 2-1.

You had come out of the match with a couple of bruises and one hell of a headache. Leaning your head against the coach window, you watched as the scenery went by.

Just as you were beginning to drift off, you felt Leah rest her head against your shoulder as her hands went to play with your fingers.

"You still wear it?" Leah mumbled as she played with the ring on your finger.

"Yeah, of course," you replied softly, tilting your head away from the window, "I haven't taken it off."

"Really?"

"Yeah, I don't plan too either."

"How are you feeling?" Leah asked. "I know you were targeted quite a lot during the game."

"A little sore, but nothing I can't handle." You said.

"I'm surprised you kept your head."

"Hey! I am the epitome of the three c's"

"The three c's?"

"Yeah, cool, calm and collected."

"Absolutely not." Leah chuckled. "In case you forgot, you got a yellow and were on the verge of getting a red."

"I think you've got the wrong person." You mumbled, pretending to look around the coach.

"Oh yeah? My bad."

"I'm surprised McCabe didn't get a red." You said just a little louder, knowing the woman sat in front of the two of you would hear you.

"Shut up, y/l/n!" Katie said as she turned to look back at the two of you.

You didn't say anything, just sending the Irish woman a cheeky wink along with a smile.

"Stop winding her up." Leah chuckled as she gently slapped your thigh.

"Alright, mum."

The journey back to London continued the same way, you winding up Katie in front of you along with teasing Beth and Viv. Leah kept her head resting against you in some way, drifting in and out of sleep.

Once you finally made it back, the team piled off the coach collecting their things before saying goodbye and heading home.

"I've got it." You said as you took a hold of yours and Leah's bags.

"It's fine."

"Nope, you're tired so just get in the car. I've got the bags."

"Thanks, y/n."

You sent the defender a smile as you handed her your car keys before you went to get your things.

"You ever going to tell her?" Lotte questioned as she bumped her shoulder into yours.

"Tell who what?"

"That you're madly in love with Leah."

"Woah! What?"

"Come on, y/n. Surely you would've made a move by now."

"No way! She's my friend."

"You live together, how have you not tried anything?"

"Because I don't like her like that?"

"Whatever you say." Lotte chuckled as she walked away and to her car, leaving you standing by yourself completely confused.

Were you in love with Leah? Surely not. Right?

Shaking your head, you stopped yourself from those type of thoughts and collected all yours and Leah's things before walking to your car.

Quickly placing the bags in the backseat, you sat in the driver's side before starting the car.

"Sorry, I-" You apologised, turning your head to Leah noticing she was already asleep.

You chuckled softly before driving your way back to your shared apartment. The drive wasn't long and since it was late at night, there was hardly any traffic.

Parking the car in your spot you turned off the engine and stayed seated, contemplating how you were going to get Leah and some bags back to your apartment.

"Leah," you whispered as you gently shook her awake, "hey, we're back."

The defender rubbed her eyes and let out a long yawn making you laugh a little.

"Want a piggyback ride up?" You asked and Leah nodded so you got out of the car, took a hold of both your bags before opening Leah's door. "Hop on."

Leah slowly got out of the car and you knelt down in front of her so she could climb onto your back.

Once Leah was fully on and in a comfortable position you stood back up and closed your car, locking it, before walking up to your apartment.

Opening the front door was a struggle but you managed to do it. You placed both your things by the front door, deciding to get them once Leah was in her bed and asleep.

The defender was asleep on your back and you didn't want to invade her privacy so you decided to put her in your bed.

"How the fuck am I meant to do this?" You questioned yourself as you stood by your door, looking at your bed.

After a lot of trial and error, you had managed to get Leah onto your bed without waking her up. You draped your duvet over her and she snuggled into your pillows, finally getting the sleep she needed.

You let out a smile before collecting your pyjamas and gently closing your door, going back to the living room to sleep on the sofa.

It wasn't long after and you were asleep yourself. Although you were in a very uncomfortable position you managed to drift off and before you knew it you were being awoken by someone calling your phone.

"Hello?" You answered, rubbing the sleep from your eyes.

"Good morning to you too." Your manager's voice was heard through the other side.

"Ben, why are you calling me at.." You pulled your phone away from your ear to check the time before putting it back. "Five in the morning?"

"We got a transfer in for you."

"Hold up? I was on the transfer list?"

"No, not necessarily."

"Huh?"

"You aren't on the transfer list, but a team wants you and are willing to pay more due to you having a few more years on your contract."

"Ben, it's too early just to get to the point."

"Barcelona wants to sign you."

"Come again?" You said, completely shocked. Standing up you started walking around the living room. "Why?"

"You're a world class player."

"Oh Ben, you're too kind. Now tell me the actual reason."

"I'm serious. If you accept this offer you'll be the most expensive player in women's football."

"How long do I have to decide?"

"A week, maximum, but I'd prefer an answer before then."

"Yeah." You trailed off, looking back towards your bedroom. "I'll think about it."

"Okay, make sure you really do think about it."

"Will do. Bye."

"Bye."

Ending the call, you sighed to yourself before sitting back on the sofa, placing your head in your hands.

"Hey, what's up?" Leah asked as she came out from your room and saw you on the sofa.

"Oh, hey." You smiled, turning around to look at the defender.

"You alright?"

"Yeah, just tired." You said, thinking it would be best to keep the transfer news to yourself.

"How come I was in your room?"

"Oh, I didn't want to invade your privacy so I thought-"

You were cut off by Leah letting out a small chuckle as she sat beside you.

"We've lived together for three years, you don't need to ask to go into my room."

"But-"

"It's cute."

"Huh?" You questioned, tilting your head to the side a little.

"As for next time, you don't need to ask."

"Okay."

"You also didn't need to sleep on the sofa."

"I thought-"

"I know." Leah smiled. "I'm going to make breakfast, you want anything?"

"What are you making?" You asked as you got up and followed Leah into the kitchen.

"Not sure, just going to have a look at what we have."

"We need to go shopping." You mumbled as you looked at the very empty cupboards.

"So cereal it is." Leah chuckled as she pulled the cheerios box from the shelf

"I'll go out later and get some shopping."

"I'd come with you but I've got to go speak to Jonas."

"That's fine, do you want me to drop you off?"

"I'm okay, thanks though. Actually I better go and get ready."

Leah quickly finished off her breakfast before she placed her bowl in the sink and went into her bedroom to get changed.

You were scrolling through instagram when Leah came back out and you were still standing in the kitchen, this time drinking a cup of tea.

"Have you not moved at all?" Leah laughed as she saw you leaning against the counter top.

"Yeah, to make some tea." You smiled as you took another sip before placing your cup on the side and passing Leah a thermos flask.

"What's this?" Leah asked as she took the flask.

"Some tea." You said. "I hope I did it right."

"Thanks, I'll see you later." Leah said before grabbing her bag and keys, leaving you in your apartment alone.

Letting out a sigh, you finished your tea before you did some washing up. Once everything was done you decided to get ready for the day and to go get some shopping.

Due to the autumn weather you dressed up as warm as you could, throwing on a pair of joggers and a jumper as well as making sure you wore your trusty air forces.

Making sure you closed everything up in the apartment you grabbed your keys and made your way to your car.

Driving to a tesco that was close by, you parked in some random spot and made sure to get a trolly.

You walked through all the aisles multiple times you were sure you looked like a madman. Double checking you had gotten everything you needed you walked around one last time before going to pay.

Noticing you probably brought a little more than intended you cursed yourself for knowing it's going to be a pain to make one trip from your car to your apartment.

As you were placing your bags in the back of your car, you felt your phone ring in your pocket.

"Y/l/n!" The voice shouted on the other end.

"McCabe!" You replied.

"You made a move yet?"

"A move on what?"

"Leah!"

"I'm guessing Lotte has something to do with this?" You sighed, placing the last bag in the car before closing the door and putting the trolly back.

"Yup, but never mind about her. When are you asking Leah out?"

"I'm not going to ask her out." You said, turning on your car, waiting for your phone to connect so you could start to drive.

"Why not? The whole team is rooting for the two of you."

"She doesn't like me like that."

"But you like her."

"Katie-"

"You should say something, before it's too late."

"What do you mean?"

"She's waiting for you, she always has been. I just don't know how much longer she can do it for."

"What do I do?"

"Tell her how you feel."

"I swear to god if you're lying-"

"Just tell her!"

"Okay, okay. I can't believe you've roped me into this McCabe."

"You'll thank me later."

"I hope so."

"See ya tomorrow."

"Bye."

You ended the call, focusing on the road in front of you and less on the multiple thoughts circling your mind.

Stopping at the traffic lights you managed to gain some train of thought back but the rest was all a jumbled mess.

When you finally got back to your apartment and parked your car you had gained a little confidence about what you were going to do.

Taking all the bags up in one go, you closed your car with your hip and locked it with the keys in your mouth.

You placed the bags outside your apartment so you were able to open the door and once the door was opened the lights were on signalling Leah was back.

You put the bags on the kitchen counter before running back to close the front door. You checked around the apartment trying to find a certain blonde defender until you stood in front of her bedroom door.

Psyching yourself up, you knocked on Leah's door, opening it up slightly.

"Leah- Oh shit- sorry!" You shouted as you quickly covered your eyes.

"Y/n!" Leah said aloud.

You stood at her door, one hand over your eyes as you tried to get the image of Leah and Jordan making out on her bed out of your mind.

"Sorry!" You rushed out as you closed her door and made your way back to the living room and onto the little balcony.

You grasped the cold glass railing, feeling a shiver go down your spine. Closing your eyes and taking a deep breath you tried to ignore the thoughts running through your head. After a deep breath out you reopened your eyes and took in your surroundings.

"So much for waiting for me." You said, lip quivering as you desperately tried to get rid of the tears streaming down your face. "Cheers McCabe."

Pulling your phone from your pocket you found your manager's contact and clicked on it. Placing the phone next to your ear you waited for Ben to pick up and after a couple of rings he did.

"I'll do it." You said, somewhat emotionally as you wiped away a stray tear that fell from your eye.

"I'm sorry?"

"Accept Barca's offer."