pairing: leah williamson x reader

summary: you tell the team you are transferring to barcelona meaning you have to tell a certain someone too.

warnings: angst

words: 1952

a/n: bit of a shorter fic, but i feel as if there could be a possible part three and i must say i am shocking at writing summaries

You sighed as the call with your manager finally ended. Trying to gather your thoughts you put your phone back in your pocket and walked back into your apartment where you were met with Leah pacing around the living room.

"Hey." You smiled, albeit it was a sad one.

"I'm so sorry." Leah rushed out. "I didn't know you'd be back and-"

"It's fine, I promise." You said as you walked over to Leah and gently placed your hands on the tops of her arms, trying to get her to calm down.

"I'm sorry." Leah whispered.

"You've got nothing to be sorry about."

"Hey, y/l/n." Jordan said as she walked into the living room.

"Jords." You nodded, letting go of Leah.

"About what just happened."

"It's fine." You said. "I'm sorry I interrupted you two."

"Y/n-" Leah started.

"So.. how long have the two of you been together?" You asked as you sat down on a chair whilst Leah and Jordan sat on the sofa.

"A couple of weeks." Jordan said.

"I was going to tell you but-" Leah said.

"Leah, calm down." You chuckled. "I'm not mad or anything like that."

"Promise."

"Yeah." You said, grimacing in your mind slightly, knowing you've just lied to her. "Well, how did this start?"

A few weeks went by and everyone could tell the difference in your attitude and how you carried yourself in general.

You had many calls with Ben and Jonas along with the owner of Barcelona. No one knew of your transfer and you wanted to keep it that way.

You had been at Arsenal for five years now and it was your home, you never thought you'd move anywhere else but life had other plans for you.

You just couldn't live with Leah knowing that you had missed your chance and that broke your heart more than you'd like to admit.

No one knew about Leah and Jordan, other than you, so your teammates would keep coming up to you asking if either of you had made a move yet.

Essentially you both have. Leah with Jordan and you with Barcelona, but then again no one knew.

It was only a couple of days till the transfer window reopened and the news would be out but hopefully you'd be gone before then. Not without saying goodbye first, just out of your apartment.

You had already bought a place in Barcelona, luckily you had Lucy and Kiera to help you out, and you had a moving company to help you with your things.

Day by day you were sending things off and over to your new place, you had no idea how Leah hadn't figured it all out by now but that may be because her sole focus was with Jordan and football and no longer with you.

You arrived at training, ready for the day when you noticed a couple of girls giving you sorrowful looks. Confused, you wandered into the gym as you were doing weights this morning.

"Hey, y/l/n." Katie said as she came up behind you and wrapped an arm around your shoulders.

"Morning." You greeted back.

"How you feeling?"

"Good, you?"

"You haven't heard?"

"Heard what?"

"About Leah and Jordan." Katie said as she gestured in front of you at the couple.

"I already knew." You shrugged.

"Since when?"

"Our phone call about you telling me to confess my feelings."

"Oh god, y/n I'm so sorry."

"It's fine, you didn't know. Hell I didn't even know and I live with Leah."

"You'll find someone else."

"Thanks McCabe." You smiled appreciatively.

"Y/n?" Jonas called out as he stood by the gym doors.

"Yeah?"

"Come with me." He said before walking off, gesturing for you to follow him.

"Oooh, y/l/n's in trouble." Beth teased.

"Shut up Meado." You chuckled before walking out yourself, unaware of the longing look from a certain blonde defender.

Leah had noticed you've been different around her. At first it was just at training then it slowly became more awkward at your apartment.

She didn't know why you were acting this way and whenever she would question it, you'd just blow her off for some silly excuse.

When you walked into Jonas' office, you saw your manager sitting opposite him. You smiled at the two and sat on the spare seat, next to Ben.

"What's up?" You asked.

Jonas let out a little sigh before straightening his posture.

"We think it's best if you tell the girls about your transfer." Jonas said.

"I don't leave till Sunday and it's only Friday."

"True, but we don't have a game this weekend so I've given you and the girls some time off."

"You can't push this back any further." Ben said softly.

"Okay." You sighed, pushing yourself up from your chair.

As you went to open the office door, you noticed both Jonas and Ben were standing behind you.

"We're in this together." Jonas smiled.

You smiled back at the man and the three of you made your way back to the gym where all the rest of your teammates were.

"Girls." Jonas called out.

The three of you stood by the doors to the gym, with you standing in front of the two men.

"What's going on?" Viv asked as everyone turned their attention to you.

"Go on." Ben said as he gave you an encouraging smile.

"Um, so, there's something I have to tell you all." You said, wringing your hands nervously.

"What is it?" Jen questioned.

"I'm going to be leaving-"

"What!" The girls broke out into protests.

"I- uh, I've signed with Barcelona."

"Y/n." Katie said, her voice cracking a little.

"I'm sorry." You said, looking down at your feet.

You were soon to feel multiple arms wrap around your body, each one squeezing you as hard as they could.

The hug lasted a little while until they each broke off one by one when only one person was left hugging you, who happened to be the yellow card queen herself.

"You can't go." Katie whispered. "I won't let you."

"I have too, I'm sorry. I really am, but I have too."

"When do you leave?" Lotte asked.

"Sunday."

"Why didn't you tell us sooner?"

"Because I didn't want it to be real." You said sadly. "I don't want to leave but I know I have to and that it's the right thing for me."

"You better come back and see us." Katie said, nudging your side.

"Of course, once a Gooner always a Gooner." You smiled.

"We'll miss you, y/l/n." Mana said.

"You're like family to me, all of you."

"Group hug!" Lia shouted.

"Not another one." You groaned playfully, letting your teammates wrap their arms around you.

When they all pulled away again you scanned the room for a certain someone but noticed they weren't there.

"Hey, where's Leah?" You asked.

"She went off with Jordan after Jonas pulled you into his office." Jen replied.

"Oh, right." You mumbled. "Could you not tell her? I want to do it myself."

"Of course." The girls murmured in agreement.

Before you knew it, it was already Sunday. The dreaded day had finally come.

You had already said your goodbyes to the girls, just not the one person you wanted to speak to the most.

You hadn't seen Leah in a couple of days, assuming she was staying with Jordan and in that short space of time you had managed to move all your things from the apartment the two of you shared, or used to share.

You sighed as you looked at what was once your bedroom, the room now completely empty, only a few things left in it.

Smiling sadly, you placed a letter you had written on your dresser. As cliche and old fashioned as it sounds, due to not being able to tell Leah face to face you decided a good ol' letter would be better than a text message.

You took one more look at your room before you slid off the ring on your finger, the one that Leah had bought you god knows how long ago. Placing the small band on the dresser beside the note you decided it was finally time to leave.

Making sure everything was locked up for the last time, you exited the apartment, the place you used to call home.

You got into your car and drove off to your parents where they would keep your car till you could get it sent over to you.

It wasn't a long journey but it felt like with each corner you took and every traffic light you passed your heart was slowly becoming more heavy.

It was a fleeting visit to your parents before you quickly called an uber and set off for the airport.

You passed customs like a breeze and you were finally at the final step of the journey, just waiting to board the plane.

Your flight was called and you made your way onto the aeroplane. You sat in your seat, buckled yourself in and waited for take off.

Placing your headphones on, you blocked out the real world as you looked out the window and watched as the plane drove along the runway and up and through the clouds.

All whilst you were in the air you had no idea that Leah had just missed you. You had just got in your car whilst she got out of hers.

You drove off down the road as she opened the door to the apartment, noticing how bleak it seemed, how dead it was without you.

She called out your name multiple times, hoping and praying for you to reply back, however, there was no answer, just the dead silence and reality of what was to come.

Leah looked all over the apartment for you but you along with your things were nowhere to be found.

"Y/n?" Leah asked as she opened the door to what was once your bedroom.

Taking in what was around her or more likely what was not around her she noticed your letter and ring on your old dresser.

Confused, the defender walked over to it and opened it up. She read it over and over and over again. Trying to get your words in her mind.

"What?" Leah's voice trembled as she read your letter again.

"No, no, no."

Leah dropped the letter and her hands fumbled for her phone. Quickly opening it up she pulled up your contact and clicked on call.

Placing her phone against her ear she paced your room, her breath increasing after every beat that passed.

"The person you are calling is unable to take the call right now, please leave a message after the tone."

"Y/n? Please tell me you're joking. You didn't really leave without saying goodbye did you? Please call me back, please... Please just call me.. Please."

By this point, Leah had finally reached her breaking point. She felt her knees buckle from underneath her and she fell to the floor. Silently sobbing, Leah let the tears flow.

After a while of trying to collect and compose herself, Leah stood back up and walked over to your dresser.

Leah took a hold of your ring and played with it in her fingers before slipping it on. She picked up your letter one more time before putting it back in the envelope.

"I'm sorry." Leah whispered as she left your bedroom, closing the door behind her.

"I'm sorry." You whispered as you looked out of the plane's window, watching as you flew away from your old home and to a new one.