i scream in fear  before ricky takes off his mask and carlos comes out from behind a bush 

" oh my god- i hate you both " a smack ricky's arm  around ten times 

"oh my gosh you should've seen your face " ricky hunches over trying to catch his breath

"that wasn't funny, i had a tear roll down my face ... in genuine fear " i fold m y arms

"okay, okay, we're sorry .... you have to admit it was a little funny" carlos laughs

i walk away from the two boys rolling my eyes

 after a few minutes of hiking... getting lost and finding my way back to kourtney telling her that i didn't die   i went into e.js tent sitting on the floor quietly while he worked 

ricky burst into the tent abruptly

"boo! " ricky screams e.j turns his head in disamussment

"dude. this legend? i found like a shrine in the woods . lets go ." ricky directs to the both of us 

"he cant- ricky he's gotta finish this thing before-"i start , before getting cut off by gina walking into the tent as well 

"wait! what thing in the woods? " gina asks

"its literally the spookiest thing i've ever seen. and i've seen hereditary." ricky explains 

"ya, then you had to sleep in my room for a week " i say just as ashlynn walks in as well the space filling up quickly

" don't mind me . just having a teeny identity crisis . " ash chuckles nervously "EJ, do you remember when i was born? i just need to know if it was 11:37 a.m. or 11:37p.m." ash continues 

"everyone STOP! " e.j slams his hands on the table turning around facing us all 

"it was 11:37 a.m. i know that because4 my mom always tells m how forever ruined the eggs benedict. remember? eggs benedict is a strictly morning dish ." he directs his attention to ashlynn"no, i cant see the shine tonight, i have to finish marking up the  script before corbin comes tomorrow. i have a lot on my plate . so please everyone just leave me alone!" e.j blows up

everyone walks out of the tent , besides me

"im sorry , if i was distracting you . i didn't know..." i say as tears begin to well up in my eyes  " i know you're sorry , but can you just go!?" he shouts 

i run out of the tent, trying to hold myself together

i make my way back to the honey comb , i turn on the lights and lay down in my bunk 

chills fill my body as my emotions begin to bubble over , i cry into my pillow non stop 

it felt like hours had past since i came in here, and maybe they had 

i wiped my face as i heard footsteps at the door 

i try and collect myself knowing i shouldn't of even came in here in the first place

the door creaks open  as ricky walks in 

"hey, what are you doing up here- "he starts before actually seeing my face "what happened? " he asks  , shutting the door and rushing over to my bed sitting next to me 

"nothing its nothing " i sniffle wiping my eyes on my sleeve again

"its obviously not nothing if you have mascara running down your face . now tell me what happened , its me , you can talk to me "he slings his arm around my neck

"he yelled at me , and i've never been yelled at by him like that before , he was just so angry and i didnt know what to do " i start to cry again 

ricky hugs me "did he just yell at you or did he hit you, you gotta tell me so i can help you"he says in a calm voice 

i try to stop crying so i can tell him but i just shook my head

"okay, cause if he ever put his hands on you i would kill him" he says in a more serious tone

"he wouldn't do that ever,i know that he wouldn't, i jut wanted to be there for him but its like he doesn't want me there i just feel bad about everything i'm doing "i lift my head from his shoulder 

"whats everything ?"

"i don't know, like i feel bad for having this lead role, i feel like even though i know i deserve it  i don't deserve it " i admit

"you do deserve it though , you shouldn't have to feel bad about being good at what you do "he re-assures me 

i nod 

"now, go get cleaned up, we gotta head back before we get in trouble with gadget"he says 

i wash my face off  and fix my hair before we head back down to the camp site 

"thank god you guys are back , maddox is about to do a head count before bed" kourtney pulls me towards her 

i go to sleep , trying not to think of the things that happened tonight , trying not to hear the faint whistles of the wind  or the hoot' of owls , i think of the role i was meant to play , i hear the songs i'm gonna sing 

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short chapter for the rest of episode three

i really tried making this angsty as possible 

e.j better make a comeback ... 

anyways ill try and get out ep 4 very soon  , hopefully i finish this before season four  comes out 

love-kat