I built up courage looking at the guitar in my hands. Gee came up and put his hands on my shoulders. "You'll do fine. Relax."
"That's the thing. This is my life's dream. But i'm freaking out right now."
"Just relax. Get over the fear of the stage and the crowd is nothing."
"Right. Right. Thanks Gee."
"No problem girl. Now its your time to join the Black Parade. So let's go."
The guitar felt too big and awkward in my hands, but i overcame my fear and my feet carried me out on stage. Gerard was talking for a while until the cue to my favorite opener started.

When i was a young boy, my father took me into the city to see a marching band. He said "Son when you grow up will you be the savior of the broken, the beaten, and the damned?" He said "Will you defeat them,
Your demons, and all the non-believers,
The plans that they have made?"
"Because one day I'll leave you,
A phantom to lead you in the summer,
To join The Black Parade."

When I was a young boy,
My father took me into the city
To see a marching band.
He said, "Son when you grow up,
Would you be the saviour of the broken,
The beaten and the damned?"

Sometimes I get the feeling she's watching over me.
And other times I feel like I should go.
And through it all, the rise and fall, the bodies in the streets.
And when you're gone we want you all to know.

We'll carry on,
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And in my heart I can't contain it
The anthem won't explain it.

A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams
Your misery and hate will kill us all.
So paint it black and take it back
Let's shout it loud and clear
Defiant to the end we hear the call

To carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches

On and on we carry through the fears
Ooh oh ohhhh
Disappointed faces of your peers
Ooh oh ohhhh
Take a look at me cause I could not care at all

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part
I won't explain or say I'm sorry
I'm unashamed, I'm gonna show my scar
Give a cheer for all the broken
Listen here, because it's who we are
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
Just a boy, who had to sing this song
I'm just a man, I'm not a hero
I
Don't
Care!

We'll carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're dead and gone believe me
Your memory will carry on
We'll carry on
And though you're broken and defeated
Your weary widow marches on

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part

Do or die, you'll never make me
Because the world will never take my heart
Go and try, you'll never break me
We want it all, we wanna play this part

I felt the rush of the mass psychosis of being onstage. Next we did Na Na Na. That was a blast. After Helena and Sing Gerard stopped for a minute. "Hey i bet you all are wondering where did Ray go? We'll he is here but we're going to talk about our new friend for a while. This is Cyn. Come on take a bow." I slung my guitar onto my back and threw my hands in the air. The whole crowd cheered. Probably because if it wasn't for me MCR would have had to cancel their tour. But it still felt amazing. "Alright everyone. Ray is here though, you want him to come say hi?"
More screaming. Ray walked out and rambled on for a while. Then we played a few other songs and then it was over. We walked off and that was that.