I've been conflicted lately. I love BTS and would defend their right to privacy and their private lives. However, part of me feels I have invaded it.

By writing my fics, especially ones including smut, I feel I may have crossed a moral line. Now, the boys have never acknowledged that fan fiction makes them uncomfortable, if they did, I would definitely stop and take my fics down. I don't want to make them feel uncomfortable from my fics or fan fiction in general.

As a writer, I don't have their consent to use their names or likenesses in fics. While, I acknowledge in my bio and in some of my fics, that my portrayal of them does not reflect their real characters, that doesn't mean it couldn't cause harm.

If they wanted to put a stop to fanfic, they could, but I wanted to acknowledge that I don't intend to hurt the boys. I write fic simply for fun and because I love BTS. I also write it to practice writing, using things I already love and am passionate about.

I don't think anyone is a bad person for writing fan fic, reading it, etc. I don't think anyone means any harm when participating in it, we all just want to love BTS and express ourselves at the same time.

But, I want to acknowledge (and I think it's important to acknowledge) this moral ambiguity and this cognitive dissonance that fan fiction exists in within all realms. Knowing that our work has the potential to make its subjects uncomfortable is important and we must keep that in mind. We may end up hurting the ones we love most.

I think it's no question that BTS know about fan fiction, so, I think if they found too much of an issue with it, they would say so. However, if it ever comes out that they find it uncomfortable or that BigHit wants to put a stop to fanfic, we should respect their wishes.

I know this may seem random, but it's been weighing on my mind lately and I needed to get my thoughts out somewhere. I think it's unlikely that the boys care much about the fic written about them, but I want to acknowledge that my intent is never to hurt them or make them feel uncomfortable and if asked or prompted by them or BigHit, I have no qualms about removing it.

I'm sorry for the random and kind of depressing post. I promise I'll post something soon.

-Alyce