I just want to start off by saying that it's 100% okay if no one reads this. I just needed to get it off my chest. I will also mention some things that may be triggering (I will be mentioning anxiety, depression, and OCD), and may go into some detail of my own experience with those.

If you do read this though, thank you.

As of late, there have been some instances of "fans" saying that Yoongi has a "bad personality" or is "rude". One of these fans invaded his privacy and assaulted him, while the others were rude and thoughtless. However, I'm not going to disparage the fans in these situations. That's been done enough already.

Instead, I want to discuss mental illness. Yoongi has been open about his struggle with social anxiety and depression. In his mixtape, he talks openly about seeing a therapist and his lowest lows. I cried when I first heard "The Last", cause I've been there, too. And part of the reason my username is FarFromSuga is that it comes from his mixtape, and his mixtape means a lot to me and many other ARMY.

Yoongi does not have a "bad personality", he has anxiety, so when his privacy is invaded or he's exhausted, he may (either accidentally or purposely) be rude or brush someone off. While I can't speak for him, my anxiety often makes me grumpy and causes me to ignore and be rude to  people (even the people I love).

I can't imagine doing fansigns. While I'm sure the majority of fans are thrilled to see him and he has a good interaction with all of them, most people don't realize how exhausting that is. While I'm sure it's physically exhausting for all the members, I can only imagine it's more exhausting for Yoongi.

I work a service job and after 8-9 hours of interacting with people (even if all those interactions have been good, which is rare in my job), I want to go into my bedroom and be alone for a while. Or, at the very least, I want to chill alone with people I'm comfortable with. And if I don't get that luxury? I become grumpy and angry and the people around me don't understand why.

It can take days to recover from a bad interaction, however. I tend to avoid confrontation all together so when it's forced on me and I have a negative experience with it, I'm liable to have mood swings for days. I may be angry, sobbing my eyes out, or I may be calm. But, even I can't predict which one.

While everyone who has anxiety, depression, etc. experiences it differently, there are some commonalities. Yoongi has—at least from what I understand to be—social anxiety. I have General Anxiety Disorder, but I do have some social triggers and am introverted on top of my anxiety. Thinking about the situations where Yoongi was said to be rude or have a bad personality, I can't help but think they would've said the same about me. Or, that I was disinterested or disengaged.

Yoongi also has depression, which he candidly describes in his mixtape as well. I have less experience with depression, but my anxiety often causes me to feel depressed (sometimes for months at a time) and mood swings which can cause me to feel depressed (normally for a couple days or less). I've struggled with some of the thoughts he talks about in his mixtape as well (I won't go into them, but if you've listened to his entire mixtape, you know).

I really wish fans would take this into consideration when interacting with him. I think most fans are fantastic—but it goes for all the members when I say—don't invade their privacy, understand if they don't want to take a picture or give you an autograph, and finally, please always appreciate who they are.

So, if you are ever lucky enough to meet Yoongi (or any of the members for that matter). Make sure to thank them for taking the time to talk to you and appreciate them for their time. They are people after all and deserve to have lives outside their fans. They are not entitled to acknowledge, speak, or otherwise interact with you. Even if it's at an event like a fansign where they are, it's important to understand how exhausting it is.

After reading this, I'm sure you can see why I (and many other ARMY) connect so deeply with Yoongi. All the members, however, have their struggles and every one of them deserves the right to be a normal person once in a while.

If someone you love struggles with mental illness, the best thing you can do is love them. Love them for who they are (even when they become difficult or are having a hard time). If you want to help them more specifically, ask them what you can do! While this certainly doesn't work for all people or situations, most of the time people with mental illness want people to help them but are too afraid to ask/ don't know who to ask.

If anyone has any questions about my experiences with mental illness, I am willing to answer questions and such. But, I will warn, that there may be some I will refuse/ not be comfortable answering. But, I if I can help one person who has been in my place before, I want to. And, if talking openly about my experience will help someone I'm all for it. If there's a lot of questions, I'll make a new part, if not, I'll just answer them in the comments.

Also, I'm probably going to delete this in like a week, because I hate going on angry rants, but often I find them therapeutic.