I've been in weatherfield for three days and things are still so hard. I really miss Mum and Ally but today I'm having a sister day with both of my sisters, Rosie and me going for breakfast and then we're having a spa morning and then this afternoon/evening me and Sophie are going to the cinema and going out for pizza. It was going to be a long day I could tell but I love spending time with my sisters. I woke up extra earlier today since Rosie was picking me up at 8.

"Come on Amber you need to get freshened up and get dressed" I tell myself as I stretched for the fourth time this morning still under my covers; it was ten past 6 meaning I had a hour and fifty minutes untill Rosie arrived, we were going to a restaurant in town for breakfast, I believe it's called 'bills' or something along the lines of that. I climbed out from under my covers and the cold air immediately hits me sending shivers down my spine as I walked across my room to my wardrobe.

"So what shall I wear today?" I questioned myself as I stood on my lilac fluffy mat which sat in front my my wardrobe.  I pulled out a pair of dark denim jeans and my pink 'Barbie' cropped hoodie before placing them on my bed and quickly changing from my pyjamas into my outfit for the day, I sat in front of my mirror and decided to do something different with my hair so I ended up doing a braided ponytail with a pure black bow added around the ponytail. I added my silver sparrow necklace around my neck and a stack of three elephant charm bracelet to my wrist.

"Dad is Amber ready?" I heard Rosie ask our father downstairs, I didn't even realise it was 8am; did I really take this long to get dressed and do my own hair; I finally clipped my white 'The Future Is Female' case.

"She's upstairs, don't know if she's ready" I heard dad tell Rosie as I added a pair of boots onto feet and grabbed my white jacket with its grey fur collar and my white handbag before looking into my full length mirror.

"I'll go up and see if she's ready" Rosie's voice spoke and footsteps came up the stairs. Their was a gentle knock at the door as I opened it as her hand came into contact with the door.

"Your Ready then" Rosie smiled and I nodded, shutting my bedroom door as I step out of it.

"Your outfit is so pretty" Rosie grinned in her happiest tone of voice. I smiled, I didn't think it was a hundred percent pretty it was just a simple outfit.

"It's just something I threw together, yours is much nicer than mine" I smiled to my older sister who wrapped her arm around my shoulder as we walked toward the bus stop so we could get the bus to town

"Rosie why do you like me, I mean I get that I'm your half sister and all but I'm a mistake child, even dad thinks so. I'm the one who made dad and Sally break up, it was all because Mum slept with Dad" I sighed, it had been playing on my mind the last few days and I wanted to ask Sophie the same question too.

"Please tell me your joking Amber, your my little sister. You love a lot of the same things as me, it's like your a mini me at times, you know how to make anyone smile and your amazing at keeping secrets" Rosie smiled kissing the top of my head, she tried to make me feel better but it didn't work, I still didn't get it.

"But Sally hates me so you should to, I was the child that broke your parents up" I shrugged unsure what else I would say.

"Don't be stupid, your my sister and I love you" Rosie smiled as the bus pulled up in front of us, Rosie paid for the bus tickets and we took a seat. I snapchatted my friends and the 'RoadtripBearSquad🐻' group chat before being indulged in a full on conversation with my older sister. She was asking me questions about Ally.

"So how did you and Ally get together?" Rosie asked me curiously. I hadn't told many people this story, the only ones who knew about it was me, my mum and Ally as well as her mum.

"Only a few people know the story,
I've only told Mum and only Allys mum knows too" I paused biting my lip. I was frightened to tell the story to my sister

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, if it's too personal" Rosie reassured me, simply I shook my head; it was probably the right time to tell people what happened.

"No no I need to start to tell people the truth"I paused biting my lip, hard but not hard enough to draw blood like I've done before.

"Well it was the tenth of February 2016, I was in my lowest point, lower than i had been in along time. I was skipping school day after day because I only had one friend Ally. Ally knew evreything about me and would do anything to me anyway two days later I put myself into hospital, I tried to take my life, I nicked mums alcohol, took some pills Mum had on to help her sleep along with some painkillers and locked myself into the bathroom, I overdosed and had to spend a week in hospital. I told Mum not to tell anyone about it but Ally said her Mum wouldn't judge" I paused looking down.

"Anyway I was in hospital on the 14th Valentine's Day and Ally brought me a box of chocolates, two teddies, a candle and a card. She asked me to be her girlfriend; she said she didn't ever want to lose me and I didn't ever want to lose her and since that day she's tried to protect me; she's tried to make me happy and she does to some extent, sometimes I get so low and none can snap me from it not even Mum" I finished explaining to my older sister, Rosie wrapped her arms around me well sort of around me bearing in mind we were sat on a bus side by side.

"Amber why didn't you tell me, or Sophie we would have supported you through it all" Rosie said calmly as the bus pulled up to our stop. We got off and headed into the spa. When we got inside Rosie got us signed in and we were lead upstairs for our first part of the day, facials,

"I would have told you but I didn't want to worry anyone. I felt stupid" I sighed admitting something which I'd bottled up for so long.

"So Amber when we have our Manicures what colour are you going to have your nails painted?" Rosie asked me, like she didn't know I thought to myself.

"Do you really need to ask me that question? It should have an obvious answer" I grinned knowing she knows I  love the colour purple.

"Yes I know purple but what shade of purple" Rosie gave me the duh look which made me laugh slightly.

"Lilac probably" I shrugged unsure of which colour at this exact moment in time, I change my mind a lot.

"I'm probably going to go with a dark red be festive since Christmas is around the corner" Rosie told me and I nodded. The pair of us had fun being pampered and just having some sister bonding. After having a spa morning with Rosie we got back to the street at half twelve giving me only half an hour to myself before I had to meet Sophie at the garage before we head to the cinema, I really wanted to watch 'the Greatest Showman' it just looked like an amazing film but I knew we would have to talk about it.

"Sophie why do you like me, I mean I get that I'm your half sister and all but I'm a mistake child, even dad thinks so. I'm the one who made dad and Sally break up, it was all because Mum slept with Dad" I sighed once again as myself and Sophie waited for the taxi we decided to order, it was exactly the same question that I asked Rosie.

"AJ are you seriously asking me why I like you. Why I like my little sister? Why I don't hate you"  Sophie asked me as she wrapped her arms around me, we were still waiting for the taxi to arrive.

"Sophie I asked Rosie the same question. If it weren't for my mum sleeping with dad then your Mum would still be with dad, Sally hates me; she blames me for it all. Why do you love me why don't you hate me like Sally?" I questioned my older sister as our taxi driven by Steve pulls up. Sophie tells Steve where we were going and we sit in the back together.

"Amber your my little sister, the little ball of energy I've known and loved since you were a baby, you light up a room with your smile, you made me laugh and smile again after Maddie died, the way toe dedicated to evreything you do" Sophie smiled. Even after they both answered the question I still didn't feel like they meant it, it felt like they were just saying it because they wanted me to feel better.

"Okay" i simply mumbled as Steve drove to the cinema and we paid him and went inside. Sophie got two tickets to see 'the Amazing Showman'  since we both wanted to watch it, I've wanted to watch it since I heard about also because it's a musical and I literally love musicals.

"Would you like some popcorn or pick-a-mix?" Sophie asked me after she ordered me a slush drink since what's going to a cinema without having a slush.

"Could I have some popcorn pleaseee Soph?" I responded who ordered the popcorn before we made our way. We sat down and waited for the film to start and relaxed before the film began. It was was amazing and we both enjoyed it. Once the film was was finished we went to Pizza Hut and had a pizza, with I chose a ham and pepperoni pizza with extra cheese also known as my go to pizza.

"What are your plans for when your back down in Devon?" Sophie asked me and I had to think for moment.

"Me and Ally are planning to have a sleepover before Christmas and then I'm obviously spending the day with Mum and popping round to see Ally and her parents too on Christmas day then on the 28th is Allys 16th party and then also her parents are throwing a New Year's Eve party so also spending that with them too" I smiled explaining my plans for back in Devon. I was probably most excited for mine and Allys sleepover of the party's.

"Sounds like your going to be really busy" Sophie laughed and I nodded, we continued to eat out food until we had to go home. I had an amazing day with my sisters and honestly didn't want it to end.