A/N: This is a VERY long chapter so buckle up. About 7.5k words.

Adora's POV

When I heard the first few knocks come at my door I was nervous and shakey. I quickly shut off the T.V and stood up from the couch I was lying on. Patting down the ruffles in my shirt and making my way to the door.

I couldn't bring myself to the door yet for some reason, I had prepared for this talk with him for a couple of days. No chickening out now. It's no use, he's at your door just open the door!

My hand wiggled the knob a few times and finally allowing the door to fly open. My eyes widening at the figure who stood at the other side of the door.

My hand instantly dropped from the doorknob and looked at the feline who I hadn't expected to see.

"Catra...What are you doing?" The way her name fell off the tip of my tongue felt venomous. But also so sweet. The feeling of her name being said made my heart clench deeply. I was lost in the moment, waiting for Catra to speak up.

"I-"

My head slightly tilted, patiently waiting for what she had to say.

"I'm sorry, Adora. I- I-"

My hands found comfort in the stiff pockets of my jeans as I watched her face contort into a painful discomfort. Though, she looked determined..what had Catra been wanting to say that had gotten her like this? Though, sweat trickled near my temples as I remembered the person who I was yet to meet was not supposed to be Catra. She was not supposed to be here. My mouth attempted to spit out words that weren't going to be pretty but if Catra found out I was meeting this person..she would flip.

Though the thoughts were cut off when she finally was able to collect herself, "Please listen, I understand you wanted to break up with me. But that doesn't mean...I won't ever stop fighting for you. I- I like you a lot Adora, you mean everything to me. You can't expect me to just sit back and do nothing"

My breath hitched as she spoke, nearly drowning in the slight confession. My heart pumped furiously as I stared at the sincere look that was burning straight into me. My teeth found it's way into my lip as I clamped down, chewing on the soft skin. The idea of just saying to Catra to go at this moment and watching her heart shatter all over again was something I don't want to do to her again.

She continued without a breath, "Please..give me another chance, I can make things right"

This time, instead of it being more serious. It was nothing more than a weak plead.

A pleading that can never go unnoticed.

Catra's hand wounded up to my cheek, my eyes darting to the soft skin that caressed my cheek. The touch was warm, and it felt like home. Her other hand softly uncurling my clenched fist that somehow made its way into one, then placing the flowers into my now opened palm.

Home...

I felt the tips of my mouth tug up slightly, noticing Catra beginning to lean into me. Realizing exactly what she was doing, it was on instinct. As if buried into my mind, I began to lean in myself awaiting the soft lips I have yet to feel against my lips again. Lost in the moment once again, my heart thumped into my chest. Adrenaline began to rush as faint sounds of something rung into my ears.

Knocked back into reality, my heart stopped. Not in that cliche romantic way, but in a rush of fear. The palms of my hand pushed at Catra's shoulders, causing her to fall back a little. The small gesture of her trying to chase after me didn't go unnoticed.

"I l-"

"Catra?" A deep and gruff voice spoke.

Suddenly the fear I held deeply washed away, confusion quickly replacing it. I looked between the two as Catra swiftly turned her head in the direction of the voice.

"Shaunt?"

My eyes darted even faster between the two, finding myself in a very inconvenient situation all of a sudden. Questions suddenly popped into my head, as Shaunt's mouth began to move.

"I told you not to call me that" He sighed, tipping his cap down a bit to hide his face.

Catra tilted her head, "You did?"

"From the last time we met" He reminded, stepping a bit closer. Secretly staring at me with piercing eyes. Though it seemed unintentional.

My breath caught into my throat, Catra had met this person before? Suddenly, the same anger I felt for a couple of days arose. I refuse to get into another full-blown fight with Catra, but another thing like this can't just fade like air.

I stepped forward and turned Catra in my direction, "You know this person?"

Catra seemed to hesitate as she played with the cuffs of her jacket, clearly finding it hard to keep her eyes on me.

"Yes"

I scoffed and threw my hands up, "Are you serious?"

Once again, the same look she gave me when I found the files. Her eyes..her face, held nothing but guilt. I looked over at Shaunt who looked awkward as ever then back at Catra.

I couldn't hold it in anymore.

"How many lies am I going to find! How many Catra?!" My voice boomed, my breaths were coming out even more shallow than ever. I was hyperventilating, my chest squeezing painfully. My vision seemed unfocused, "This..is exactly why I can't trust you anymore. Just how much do I not know?"

Catra sniffled silently.

"You can't cry...You don't have the right too" My voice broke as my fists softly pounded against her chest. The soft pounds held nothing but grief and 'how can you keep doing this'.

Catra softly took my hands and held them softly, "You're right. I won't cry, but I won't run from my mistakes. I came here to make up for them, I came here to come clean"

"You're lying" My voice softly spoke, trying to tear my hands away from Catra's grip. But she refused to let go.

The grip that held my weak hands let go lifting up my chin, "Look at me"

I shook my head, my eyes only looking at the ground that had tiny droplets painted on it from no other than me.

But my silence and refusal to meet her gaze didn't stop her from speaking what she had to, "I know I fucked up. I know I didn't give you the support you needed when you needed to know about your parents. I know I lied to you about everything for the past few weeks. But, I know there is something in here".

Her fingers moved my hair out of the way and poked my chest slightly, the area of my heart, "There is something in there that still loves me and I will fight for it. I know that you are keeping that locked away and that is my fault. I won't run away from something that I can fix"

I laughed slightly, "You're so full of yourself. How do you know you can fix something like this. You lied to me, you lied to me about the things that matter most to me"

"I lied because I thought that it was for the better. You matter most to me, you cannot tell me that I was able to drop all of..that information on you when we were going through so much"

"I would have" I scoffed.

Catra clenched her fists and looked away, "Can't you see I'm trying here?"

My head whipped up and I huffed, "Well maybe trying can't fix this! Nothing can fix this!"

My chest hurt as the words that fell out of my mouth came so easily, as if I was ready for this. Deep down this is not how I wanted things to go. Something in me wants to just run back into her arms and forget about everything.

Forget the world. Forget problems.

"Everything can be fixed" She spoke, her voice beginning to sound frantic. She knew she was losing me.

Unfortunately, that's impossible.

"We're done here, Catra" I growled.

Catra went to grab my hand but already knowing her move I dodged it, glaring at her. My back silently turned away and my head bobbed in the direction of my house to Shaunt. Surprisingly he was still here, probably enjoying the shit showdown that just occurred.

Shaunt awkwardly shuffled his way closer to the door but Catra's voice echoed through the neighborhood.

"So that's it?! You're going to forget everything we went through! Years of friendship..have you already forgotten that you were the one who left me first! You left me then, you're gonna leave me now! I forgave you, Adora, I forgave you for something that broke me. So many voices in my head screamed at me to never give you another chance but I ignored them. You can't even at least try?"

Small laughs came out sarcastically, they were nothing but dark and sour chuckles.

"So you're trying to play the victim now huh? Don't push this all on me, I have the complete right to not forgive you. You had so many chances to tell me the truth when I simply asked if you were okay. I was there for you when you were losing yourself for these past weeks, and you can't even tell me the truth of where you are. You expect me to forgive you when I find out another lie that you just somehow know the guy that killed my parents!? You're a lier, a fucking lier" I shot back at her, my arms crossing.

Tears formed at the edge of Catra's eyes, and I couldn't bring myself to feel bad. She earned it herself but my walls of satisfaction broke down. I can't watch Catra cry, it hurts so much.

"W-What did I say about crying. Y-You don't- You can't cry" I voice cracking in small mutters.

Catra coughed in between her cries, "You're telling me that you're done with me. How could I not cry?"

"Fair point" Shaunt suddenly spoke, causing us to both jump out of our skin. Even with the tension thick in the air, we both stared at him annoyed.

"Why are you even still here" I murmured, playing with a loose thread that was dangling off of my shirt.

"Uh, because you called me. Now, where's my money, payment first. Then you get your answers" He reminded, making weird grabby hands in my direction.

Catra stared at me with a raised eyebrow.

I rolled my eyes and softly scratched at my temple, contemplating the idea of sending him home and having the conversation another day.

"You guys are impossible" A squeaky voice sighed.

Again our eyes found destination on a familiar figure.

"DT? What the fuck-" Catra shrieked, quickly staring at me with guilt then replaced with anger when she looked back at DT.

"Now now kitten, sometimes you have to take matters into your own hands. Except for these matters clearly can't get resolved by yourself. Adora, sweetie. I understand you're upset, and by all means. I don't mean to gang up on you by making this a two versus one but you really have a stick up your ass"

My mouth hung open slightly as I was about to defend my actions.

"Ah ah ah, you know it's rude to interrupt someone. I would like to just explain some things that Catra didn't bring up for some odd reason. Dumb kitten. I hope you aware that Shadow Weaver did threaten Catra several times to not tell you the truth of your identity"

My eyebrows raised in Catra's direction but all she was doing was picking at a piece of wood that was sticking up on the rail of my porch. It was obvious she didn't want to talk about a topic like this.

DT continued, "Because she is so humble, she didn't bring this up with you. She just wanted to be so heroic. And as for your parents, I spread my condolences to you. But, have you ever stopped to consider the fact that you are shoving your grief in Catra's direction a bit too much? I have known Catra for so many years and I know for a fact that she would never lie to someone without a good enough reason. Especially to the one person, that means the most to her"

I felt myself ponder at DT was saying. No..my anger at her can't be the grief of my parents, she lied to me about everything!

"And before you bring up the idea of her lying. You can trust me, I am not happy with her actions either. Her lying about something that you were concerned about is nothing a significant other should ever do. And even as a best friend should never be done. But, with all this adding up. Shadow Weaver's threats, this fucked up fight club, both of your lives are fucked up. I can see exactly why this would be hard on Catra's end. Just imagine what would happen to Catra if Shadow Weaver found out that Catra told you the truth. You're Shadow Weaver's little prize and judging off what she did to your parents. It'll be game over for Catra"

My heart sunk at DT's final words as I slowly sunk down onto my behind, unable to process all this new information threw at me. Why is this making sense? Why is...Why is this making me regret everything I've done.

"DT, stop it. You don't need to do this. Adora already said that it was over. I can't do anything else but accept her wishes. I won't force this anymore, but..just know Adora. I'll always be waiting for you. I'll never let you go, I will always..always wait for you" She promised, stealing one last glance at me before tugging DT's shoulder into the direction of the sidewalk.

My eyes weakly stared off at the distance, watching the two figures get smaller and smaller. Hot and fresh tears streamed down my cheeks, as I shoved my head into my crossed arms. Choked sobs were the only thing that came out. At that moment I wanted to shut out the world, and really forget about all the problems in the world.

A small grunt came from the side of me and the soft sound of shuffling of something sitting next to me.

"You know, I lost someone that was really close to me one time. I loved them actually. The only thing I have left of them is this letter. Would you like to read it?" Shaunt softly said, pulling out a note that had several stains and looked like it had been through hell and back.

I stared at it with hesitation.

"Oh come on, I know it's dirty. But hey, I get to read it whenever I want and..It..gives me hope everyday" He smiled, coaxing me to read it.

I smiled and carefully took it, "I'm not judging. I think it's sweet"

My hands nimbly unfolded the paper, the handwriting was slightly faded. But not enough to be unable to see it.

"Hey, Aaron,

I'm writing this to you because if I texted you this I know that you will lose it. Even though there is a slight chance that you will lose this paper, please don't. I have a feeling that you will need it. I'm dying. Today. I know..that sounds completely out of the blue. But you obviously know about this cancer thing, and it's just. It's stupid I should have told you. You kept telling me that if If I only had a small amount of time left on this earth I am required to tell you. But, I couldn't bring myself to truly telling you. Don't see me as a liar, but see me as someone who kept a secret for your own good. When I first met you, my life changed. You meant the world to me and seeing you lose that amazing smile because I'm going to die in a few months will hurt me to the day I die. So do me a favor and please keep smiling. Keeping being that go-happy guy I fell in love with. That's my last wish.

I love you.

- Sammy"

A small tear fell onto the paper, the moist droplet sinking into the paper. I inspected the stains in the paper.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to make you cry" Shaunt coughed embarrassed, carefully taking the paper and folding it back to how it was originally.

I smiled softly and rubbed the tears out of my eyes, "No no, It's beautiful Shaunt. But why does it say, Aaron?"

He then froze up a bit and scratched the back of his head, "I changed it..because of you know. The situation"

"Oh"

"Yeah..listen. I came here because I wanted to grab some money and just answer whatever you needed. But, seeing after what happened today. I couldn't just leave you like that. Do you think that..letter made you realize something?" He explained, running his hands over the paper.

I leaned back and supported myself by planting my hands behind myself, staring up at the sky, "You trying to lecture me?"

"Ugh, are you going to tease me about this? I'm not trying to be your father or anything" He gruffed then instantly regretted it. "Sorry, bad joke"

I frowned and looked down, "It's alright don't sweat it"

"You're awfully calm for someone who is sitting next to a past killer" He murmured honestly.

"Well, that's very blunt. But uh, I guess when you put it that way it's a lot harsher. But, you don't seem like a killer. You seem..laid back. Easy to talk to you. If you don't mind asking, how did you get in that situation with Shadow Weaver"

He ran a hand over his shirt and nervously chewed on his lower lip.

"You don't have to say-"

"No no, you deserve to know" He cut off.

I urged him to continue with a quick gesture of my hand.

"Well..to explain it long story short, I was in a small gang, newbie. She came along as asked one of us to go and kill your parents because your dad was um, he was important. He was a good man and actually helped me one time. Though, I was so blinded by my innocence from Shadow Weaver. She forced me into it because no one else would. And..then you know what happens next. I managed to convince her not to take out you and your brother" He expressed sadly, refusing to look in my direction.

Crying wasn't an option anymore, all left was numbness. I gulped and remembered the earlier conversation over the phone with him about my brother.

"Well that sure wasn't long story short" I mumbled,

Shaunt looked surprised, "How aren't you phased by any of this. I killed your parents, I'm stunned that you haven't choked me to the ground and cut me into little sausages by now!"

I couldn't help but chuckle for some weird reason, "Because I don't know you. Don't get me wrong I'd love to do that to you right now..taking out the part of little sausages but I can't ever forgive you for what you did. But..you're different now. Shadow Weaver...I could never forgive. She fostered me all her life, and little did I know I was living with the person who was a killer under my roof"

"You know..you're being really um, how do you put it. Stupid right now" Shaunt laughed.

"What? About not knowing that Shadow Weaver was a killer? How was I supposed-" I began, confused by his random statement.

Shaunt focused his gaze on the direction of Catra and DT left, "You're willing to sit down and somehow see that I'm a different person but not even forgive the one you love"

I instantly blushed and looked down, "I don't love her"

"Keep telling yourself that. But the main point is, you're acting dumb right now. I showed you that letter to prove that you could lose the one that you love at any moment. Sammy died thinking that I was going to hate her because she lied about something to keep me happy and safe. Catra loves you, there's no denying that. Sit down like you are now with her and try to see that she is a different person. If you can do that with me, you can do that with her" Shaunt smiled.

Something finally made sense as I stood up with an odd amount of force, "You're right, I can't run away from Catra. I couldn't if I tried. Thank..you, Shaunt. You know, you're gonna be a great dad one day"

He instantly blushed and looked down, "Stop it. No need to make this mushy or anything. And uh..here"

I stared down at a small note with a number written on it with a word written next to it.

'Adam'

"What's this?" I questioned, taking it from him and stuffing it into my pocket. Making sure not to crumple it.

"Your brother's number"

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Catra's POV

"Forget her, she's a lost cause anyway" DT sighed, walking down the dark ally of a nearby restaurant we decided to visit.

I shook my head and carefully kicked at DT's shin, "Don't say that, I'm right here. She's not, she needs time"

"You're too nice, I would've dropped her by now" DT muttered, sipping from a Slurpee. Making a lot of noise with the straw.

I smiled and kicked at the small patch of dirt and rocks that were nearby my foot, "Maybe I am, but Adora's worth it. Maybe she will come around"

"And if she doesn't?"

"Then she doesn't, it's my fault. I deserved it DT if I lied that many times to you then I'm sure you would have definitely dropped me" I argued.

"Okay, you're maybe right but still! If you did it without a good enough reason then yes definitely, but your reason is well.. reasonable!" They defended, crossing their arms.

"Listen, I've made up my mind on the situation. I've got it handled, you don't have to worry. I promise you don't have to worry about me anymore"

"I will always worry about you"

I smiled and carefully wrapped my around them in a hug. It was often DT accepted hugs or affection but this time they gave an awkward pat to the back.

"Alright whatever you say"

~~~~~~

About 1 week later

TW // VIOLENCE 

My decision to finally letting go of Adora until she made up her mind helped me a tiny bit. It obviously didn't relieve all the stress I was feeling but it put off a lot. When I was fighting with Adora and DT brought up all that stuff...I didn't want Adora to pity me. Adora had a look that held so much guilt, I couldn't let her feel that way when she should be angry at me.

I groaned out into the night sky, "Fuck! I hate relationships"

I pulled off my baseball cap and allowed the soft breeze of the wind to run through my hair as I let out an exasperated sigh.

I was about to make my way back into my apartment when I felt a harsh tug at my arm.

"There you are" A familiar voice breathed into my ear, a chill going down my spine. I whipped around knocking the hand off my arm.

"What the f-" I started then instantly froze. My pupils dilated at the figure who stood in front of me.

Shadow Weaver.

"I need to talk to you now!" They boomed harshly tugging my shoulders into my apartment and shutting the door roughly.

I growled and stumbled back, "Fucking touch me one more time I'll kick your head off"

The first thing I saw was the shine of a blade then Shadow Weaver taking a huge step forward, the point of the blade right at my neck, "Say that again"

I gulped and squeezed my eyes shut, "Okay, Okay! What do you want!"

The sound of the switchblade being pulled back into its sheath, "Sit down"

I nodded suspiciously and sat down at the messy table that held homework, leftover Chinese food, and a few dishes.

Shadow Weaver followed in suit, she looked like a mess. She wasn't looking like her normal self, in fact, she looked like she just came out of a washing machine.

"They found out" She spoke suddenly, slamming her hands on the table.

I crossed my arms, "What are you talking about?"

"You-You two! They found out that you two work for me" She explained with an exasperated voice.

"Okay..and what does that have to do with me" I mumbled, casually pushing some stacks of papers out of the way to get a better view of Shadow Weaver.

Shadow Weaver inhaled softly, "You need to lose next round. They won't allow you two to fight each other because that's cheating. They know no matter who wins I will still get the prize. So you have to loose"

"And get my ass beat? No fucking away, what if I die?" I argued.

Shadow Weaver suddenly reached over the table with a loud pounce and her face went close to mine, my heart picking up the speed.

"You have a chance to live if your opponent isn't bad. All you have to do is make it look like you lost. But if I kill you right now. That'll make things easier, you won't have to go through the painful process of getting punched to a pulp. Either way, I win and Adora gets to advance" She explained, her icy voice breathing over my face.

I gulped, "You wouldn't dare, Adora would never forgive you"

"I've gotten away with murder, I can do it again. Besides, I'll just tell Adora that the last wish you had for her was for her to win for me" She grinned triumphantly and confident.

My jaw clenched and my teeth gritted, "You're fucking cruel, Adora knows about you!"

"Oh please, she will be too depressed and broken over your death for her to even care about that" She smiled. "It's just simple manipulation"

My hands made their way into fists as I stared at the emptiness near my foot. Melon was somehow fast asleep in their bed.

"So what's it going to be Catra"

I gulped and sighed which sounded more like a grunt.

"I'll do it"

"Great. Remember, if you tell Adora about any of this. I'll take you out myself"

With that, she left without anything but a slam of my front door.

~~~~~~~

"I can't believe this is happening" I sniffled into my pillow, curling into a small ball. After the conversation..well threatening conversation with Shadow Weaver left me feeling empty. My decision wasn't far off from each other. They both involved chances of me dying, except one of them was 100% confirmed death rate.

I pounded at my pillow with my fists and let out a muffled cry from accidentally hitting the backboard of my bed, "Fuck! I hate this"

Adora, I wish was here now.

Fuck, I want to just hug you right now. Tell you that I miss you. Please stop everything you're thinking about and let me tell you my feelings.

I continued to let out cries for gosh knows how long.

Finally getting up, I made my way into my kitchen and opened my fridge to find some water. I quickly guzzled it down, slumping into my couch. I flicked on the T.V to help my mind stop running over a million things per second. Wanting to blur anything that I was feeling.

At first, I didn't hear it but a faint noise of knocking came at my door.

"Don't fucking tell me you're back" I grumbled, continuing to ignore the pounds at the door. Assuming it was Shadow Weaver, I had no intention to want to talk to her about me dying again but the knocks didn't stop.

I cursed under my breath and hobbled over to the entryway of my door and opened the door.

"Stop knocking, Jesus" I sighed rubbing the sleep out of my eyes. Readying to lash out all my annoying feelings at Shadow Weaver.

"O-Oh, I'm sorry. I can come back later" A soft voice spoke.

Regret instantly filled me as I stared at Adora who sincerely looked sorry after my comment. "Oh my god, I'm sorry Adora. I didn't know that was you"

Adora nodded but still not convinced, "Why were you expecting someone?"

I was about to answer but she cut me off.

"Don't lie about it either"

I looked down at my shuffling feet, "Shadow Weaver came by"

Adora's eyes widened and searched my face and body silently, "She didn't do anything right? You're not hurt?"

I quickly shook my head, "No..No, she did nothing. It's fine, I just. She was being her usual cranky self"

Adora brought her hand to her arm, "Are you doing okay?"

I looked at the hand on my arm then at Adora, "No...if I were being honest. I'm doing pretty shitty right now"

"I can..say the same. But..listen, I know it's been only a couple of days since the last time we talked. And..I, I talked to Shaunt the day you met me on my porch. And..I, I think I'm ready to talk and try to see your way" She explained.

Words couldn't express how I was feeling at that moment, relief..? Happiness? Anguish? Too many emotions at once but explaining such would be impossible.

"After a week..are you sure you're ready?" I whispered, needing affirmation.

She gave a nod and making a small gesture as if to ask if she was able to be let inside. After everything with Shadow Weaver, I'm glad that I'm able to see Adora once more. After all, it may be the last few moments I will share with her.

I moved my way out of the door frame to allow her inside, quickly closing and locking it tight. The air around us felt stuffy and tight but we still managed to find ourselves comfortable in the living room.

"Water?" I asked awkwardly.

Adora couldn't help a small laugh, "You don't have to be so awkward about asking me for water".

She then patted herself down and went into my kitchen, helping herself to the kitchen. Knowing exactly where everything was. My chest swelled with a bit of happiness knowing she was still comfortable with roaming my house and not acting like someone I've never known before.

She settled herself down, handing me a cup of water. I gratefully took it, setting down on the coffee table with a bunch of mangas splaying everywhere.

I leaned back into the couch and stared at Adora with a smile, awaiting what she had to say. I was giddy to be around her without having so much tension. Though..it was still pretty heavy around us.

"I realized..what I was doing wrong. I was too indulged in my own grief that I didn't realize what I was doing wrong. Everyone around me was telling me that but I still stuck by the fact that since you lied, you were the only one in the wrong. However, I don't think I can ever forgive you for what you did. But that doesn't mean I still shouldn't try to" Adora reasoned, suddenly taking a huge breath and staring into my eyes.

"I love you, Catra"

The breath I'd been holding in sunk straight back into my chest as I heaved for a breath, the words zinging straight into my chest. I had cried a lot these past few weeks, but the tears that poured down my cheeks weren't tears of pain.

They were happy tears.

Adora shifted closer to me and wiped away the tears that probably had the ability to make puddles around us, "Don't cry"

"D-Don't worry these are happy tears" I snorted softly, allowing Adora's thumbs to wipe away the few tears that still dripped.

Once the blurriness that clouded my vision disappeared I was able to look into Adora's eyes clearly.

I smiled finally.

"I love you too. Let me show you how much I love you"

Adora gulped thickly, probably not sure what I was referencing too.

"W-What do you mean"

I surged forward, it wasn't rough. It was sensual as my free hand moved the hair that was splayed over her neck and pressing the skin of my lips to her neck. Wet kisses led a trail from the base of her neck to the soft skin behind her ear.

"This is what I mean"

Adora sucked in a sharp breath and her hand clutched the back of my shirt, and suddenly I felt guilty again.

I pulled away and looked down into Adora's lap, "I'm sorry that was way out of line. You just forgave me, I shouldn't be jumping to things like that right away"

All guilt washed away when I felt Adora's lips on mine. It was rough, the impact sending me onto my back as my eyes widened at the sudden force.

"A-Adora" I gasped against her lips, my hands hovering above her hips. Not knowing if it was okay to kiss her.

Some of Adora's hair was draped over her eyes, finding it hard to see what face she was making. But that didn't matter when the heat of her breath hit my ear.

"Show me. Show me how much you can love me"

Ragged breaths wet my ear, I attempted to hold the whimper that was begging to escape my mouth when I heard those words. But something felt wrong about this. My hands made their way to Adora's cheeks.

This felt too..unreal.

"Consent. Remember. Are you ready? You're not doing this and going to regret this right? This is your chance to back out if you don't want too" I reminded, placing my forehead against hers.

Adora opened her eyes that were closed from the heat of the moment a couple of seconds ago, "Shaunt made me realize that you were doing this to make me feel safe. You only had good intentions even if it was lies. I never considered how you felt. Even after I pushed you away, you came back to me. I've regretted a lot of the decisions I've made lately and I want to make it up to you"

"You have nothing to apologize for f-"

"Catra, shut up. Use your mouth for something else"

Instantly zipping my mouth at her request I nodded with a smirk.

~~~~~~~~~~

A/N: Yes there is SMUT. So if you don't wish to read then skip to the two lines of "~"

It started off with a simple makeout session, nothing more than that. I was nervous, Adora was nervous. My tongue dragging over the walls of Adora's mouth, enjoying the soft groans that escaped her mouth.

Our hands were roaming everywhere on each other's body, relishing in the feeling of our bodies flushed together. Though, it would feel better if I could feel her skin.

Feeling like the making out was dragging on too long I played with the hem of her shirt, "Can I?"

A simple nod was the only answer as I slipped off her shirt, my eyes bulging at the sight of stiff abs. I couldn't help the hand that went to touch them, smirking at the way they clenched at such simple touch.

"Come on, don't tease" Adora whined.

"Patience, I want to take my time" I teased, running my hands all up along her sides and stomach. Finally making a stop at the clip of her bra.

"This has to go" I commented, though Adora ignored it. Simply raising her chest to help me take it off.

My mouth watered at the idea of being only one article of clothing away that separated me and Adora from her skin. I watched as the soft material slid off her chest and landed somewhere, my eyes widening slightly at the sight.

Suddenly the nice view was covered from Adora's hands, her face a deep red. "D-Don't stare, I know they're ugly"

I rolled my eyes and attempted to take them off but she refused to move. "Adora, come on. Are you sure you want to do this? We can always hold off until your comfortable"

Adora quickly shook her head, "No no, we can do this. I'm sorry, I'm just not used to being this bare with you"

"It's okay, it's a first for everyone. You're beautiful, remember that. And god, you're body is..so amazing and soft" I cooed, softly coaxing the arms away from her chest. Retrieving back the beautiful sight of Adora's breasts.

I quickly leaned down giving the soft nub an experimental lick, then looking back up at Adora who had an expression that was unreadable. I did it again and her face finally formed into a face of pleasure.

Pride swelled in my chest as I enveloped the now hardened nub into my mouth, sucking and licking without hesitation. I alternated between the two nubs, my mouth working harder the more I heard Adora moan.

"F-Feels good" Adora whispered, trying to make it sound inaudible but it was loud and clear in my ears.

I found it hard to remove myself from Adora's breasts but a small pat on my head signaled me to look up at Adora, who held a heartwarming smile. Her hand then pushed me down a bit lower, causing me to smile.

"Got it" I giggled, taking the button of her jeans and popping it open with a flick of my index and thumb. Wanting to make Adora feel safe, I scooted up a bit and a put a closed mouth kiss to Adora's lips while carefully slipping off her underwear to her heels. Adora seemed to into the kiss to realize that I brought them down. I smiled and broke away from the kiss, my fingers trailing back down. Then splaying on her inner thigh. Just inches away from the area between her thighs.

"Be gentle, I-I'm a little scared" She confessed, squirming a bit from the small squeeze I gave on her thigh.

"Of course, if anything hurts. We can stop" I confirmed, no longer wanting to tease Adora anymore. A single finger dragging across the heat. That single drag had Adora's hips bucking up for attention. I grinned and swiped over again, resisting the urge to take a small lick.

Her satisfaction matters more, not yours!' I mentally reminded myself.

"Catra.." She sighed, her hips still begging. I carefully rested my forehead against her temple, running the finger that was between her thighs through her slick folds.

"Fuck, you're drenched" I groaned, eventually being rewarded with a soft whine. I continued to play with the wet folds until a hand stopped my wrist. I looked at her without removing my forehead from my comfortable spot at her temple.

"I said don't tease" She growled softly, attempting to make it sound like a threat but I just simply smirked and continued to go with the pace I wanted.

Adora whimpered then, my heart-stopping at the sound. God that sound, sent shivers and a feeling down between my own legs.

I smiled, feeling a little guilty now, "Alright, I'm sorry"

My finger finally rewarded Adora by being slowly inserted, making sure to not go too fast nor too slow. I wanted to make Adora's first time the best I could, "That good?"

"So good" She answered instantly.

Once my finger was finally enveloped in the bundle of heat, I felt Adora clench slightly around my finger.

"I'm going to move okay? Tell me if it hurts"

Adora nodded and my finger moved delicately out, which Adora clearly missed since she was chasing after my finger once she was left empty, but tenderly I inserted it back in.

I repeated this a few times until I felt her legs began to shake a bit, noticing her breathing coming out more erratic than normal, I cooed into her ear.

"Calm down, you're okay" I mumbled, kissing the side of her head.

Adora's choked sobs and moans filled the room as I coaxed more and more out of her, "Catra, I feel, ah.."

My nose dug its way into Adora's hair and smiled, "That means you need to let go. Let go, Adora"

Finally, at those words, I stared at Adora's heels which dug into the couch, and her hips spasming up as she finally climaxed.

I smiled, feeling my finger begin to get coated in the juices of her climax, slowly dragging it out of her which in the process came with a small groan from Adora. Then bringing the finger to my mouth and tasting it.

"Fuck, you taste good" I sighed happily.

Adora groaned loudly, "Don't ever say that to me again"

I laughed out and carefully nuzzled the side of her head, "Yes, ma'am"

"My question is how are you even still in your clothes?"

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"So how was that for a first time," I asked.

We were now both tucked into my bed together, Adora was worn out after what happened between us. I don't blame her, It was a pretty heated session.

"It was okay" Adora replied tiredly.

I scoffed sarcastically and sat up, "Only okay?! Come on, I did pretty well for your first time! Admit it!"

Adora snorted despite her tiredness, she wrapped her arms around my shoulders and pulled me into her chest.

"Okay, it was good. But the whole time I had to look at you in your clothes while you did that! Didn't even give me anything to look at!" She whined, softly poking at my shirt. "And you're still clothed!"

"In my defense, you have something on right now" I fought back playfully, tugging at the hem of her shirt now. "But I'd rather much take it off again"

"Ugh, don't even begin to start another thing of that" She groaned, carefully pushing my hands off her shirt.

I patted her stomach, "You can just call it 'sex', y'know"

"It feels weird to say" She mumbled, intertwining our fingers with the hand that was patting her stomach. The small gesture made my heart skip a bit.

Lost in the moment, my lips kissed up along the column of her neck, and couldn't help sucking at the pale skin.

"Don't you dare give me a hickey" She hissed, shuffling away from my mouth.

I pouted but that quickly washed away when I gave a smirk, "Too late for that one"

"Catra!"

"Kidding kidding, anyways. Where does this leave us?" I asked, hoping for a genuine answer.

But that was never possible when it came to Adora, "Friends with benefits?"

I smacked her with a pillow and grumbled.

"Just kidding! Best friends with benefits" She said happily, causing her to fall into a pit of chuckles.

I turned a bit red and whined, "Adoraaa, seriously!"

"Okay, fineeee. This leaves us..wherever. I think this really..helped us see clearly. Now we just need to fix things together. I wouldn't have done this if I didn't want to be with you anymore" She answered honestly.

Tears welled at the rim of my eyes, "Okay, promise?"

"You're in no place to be making me promise something, liar" She joked, smothering my face with kisses. I answered with a groan and tried to push her away but she decided to seek comfort by resting her forehead against mine.

"Promise?" I tried again.

A simple kiss that was filled with nothing but love made my heart jump.

"I promise"

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A/N: Okay wow, that was a long one. I spent a lot of time reading fanfiction lately and I was in the mood to write and I did not expect to come on at like 7 pm and write this much. Not having writers' block plus being in the mood to write can really do wonders. But, There are a few things I'd like to discuss in this chapter

1) I am aware Catra and Adora are minors, they are in high school obviously. I feel the need to address this because it is underage sex. I have no issue with underage sex as long as it is consensual. I don't however support the idea of underage sex when it is between a minor and an adult. It is common for teenagers to have sex in high school WITH consent, and I am aware that my story might get hate for making teenagers have sex. But this is the way I've chosen my story to go and if you aren't comfortable or like my story anymore because of this, I respect whatever decision you make. I made the smut part optional and you won't be missing anything important besides the fact that it was Adora's first time.

2) It may seem like the story is going by at an extremely fast pace since it was only just 4 chapters ago everything went down and somehow they're already making up 3 chapters later? But I'd like to point out that there are some time skips during the story so technically speaking, the amount of time it's been in the story is way longer than it has been in real-time since the fight. (Hence: 1 week later)

3) I am very sorry if there are errors and grammar mistakes, when I write a lot my writing gets a bit sloppy hehe

4) I decided to make this chapter a bit longer so I would be able to fit a lot of the angst into one chapter instead of continuously leaving you guys on a cliff hanger every 2 chapters. The story is definitely coming to a close soon, I predict about 4-5 more chapters though that all depends on how much I write in those 4-5 chapters. Only time will tell

Thank you guys so much for reading this far! :) <3