Chapter 22.

KBR

SuA sat in the office to finish the outstanding work, it is currently 6pm and she still hasn't finished her work. The light coming in from the window changed from bright yellow to pink, and black was about to appear.

She texted Siyeon to inform Siyeon that she will be back a little late today, if Siyeon wants to eat dinner first, then eat, otherwise wait for her, she will buy something and then both eat.

But Siyeon doesn't reply to messages, maybe she's busy with something. Siyeon doesn't go to work today, she just hangs around at home. Lee Siyeon is like a kitten, just likes to lie down, lie on the bed, then lie on the sofa, then go to bed again, she lies very well, lying down without being tired or bored.

All of Siyeon's outdoor activities were forced by SuA to go. SuA fears that one day her wife will die from osteoarthritis, because Siyeon is too sedentary. Recently, Siyeon has been eating and drinking good again so she has returned to her old body, slim and attractive, in fact a little fat is more adorable, but SuA respects all of Siyeon's decisions, she has the right to adjust her body shape according to her preferences.

Then the fact that Siyeon is not replying to SuA's messages now makes SuA a bit worried, because she usually doesn't.

SuA tried to finish her work while glancing at her phone continuously waiting for Siyeon's message, she was not sure how her wife wanted to have dinner, eat alone or wait for her to come back to eat.

The clock struck 9 pm, SuA strained her eyes to read the last report, she was about to go home. The phone ting ting, SuA grabbed it immediately to see it, thought it was a message from Siyeon.....

But no, it was Yoohyeon who texted.

“Are you busy? Can I call you and talk to you?"

SuA thought, hesitated to answer Yoohyeon. She worried that what Yoohyeon was about to say might be a confession of love. Gahyeon revealed that Yoohyeon really likes SuA but because she's shy, she doesn't dare to say it. This invisibly makes SuA shy towards Yoohyeon, as she only sees Yoohyeon as a close little sister.

Thinking about it over and over, SuA had to pick up the phone and call Yoohyeon, she couldn't keep Yoohyeon waiting for long, that was impolite.

“SuA……”

- I’m listening.

“Did Siyeon talk to you today?”

- No, I've been working since morning and haven't come home yet, I haven't seen her.

“She called me and told me that you lied to her, she asked for advice if she should give up on you”

- What? – SuA straightened up.

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Bar Propose

SuA drove fast here after a call with Yoohyeon. Yoohyeon said that Siyeon knew her secret through Eunbi's words, Siyeon asked Yoohyeon to come here for a drink and didn't want to stop.

SuA met Yoohyeon at the entrance, it's very noisy at the bar right now.

- Where's Siyeon? – SuA asked fearfully, her heart pounding continuously since just now. She had planned to tell Siyeon everything one day, but lately she was busy with work so she didn't have time to do that. Siyeon ran into Eunbi again and Eunbi must have thought that Siyeon knew.

Eunbi will think that everything is over and okay, she didn't expect SuA wants to tease Siyeon and prolong this plan until now.

- She is sitting at the bar for single customer, Siyeon dragged me here to drink since 7pm, now I can't drink anymore, I want to go home, you should take her home - Yoohyeon's face is red like high blood pressure.

- Can you go home by yourself? – SuA grabbed Yoohyeon's elbow to keep her balance.

- JiU came to take me home.

- JiU? The director at Rabbitbank? What are the two of each other?

- No, me and her just texted back and forth, nothing more, JiU also knew that Siyeon invited me here for a drink, so she offered to bring me back.

- Well..um...then be careful when you come back.

Farewell to Yoohyeon, SuA took a deep breath and went inside to find Siyeon. In her now is fear, nothing more.

Before, when facing her wife, SuA never felt nervous or scared. She lived with a high level of confidence, when she met Siyeon, dated Siyeon, married Siyeon, she was confident that she had more than enough ability to make Siyeon happy, so she never scared.

But now she has hurt Siyeon many times due to her immature thinking. Just because she wants to see more of Siyeon’s love, she makes many tricks, causing Siyeon to fluctuate up and down. Right now she was really scared, her confidence had gone up in smoke, her shoulders drooping miserably. SuA slowly, slowly walked over to sit in the chair next to Siyeon, and facing her.

SuA glanced at two almost empty bottles of Gin on the table, her eyes widening in panic. Siyeon is an average drinker, half a bottle of Gin will make her want to faint, but now she has finished 2 bottles

- Where have you been for so long? – Siyeon crows next to her, when she turns to see SuA, not Yoohyeon, she stops.

SuA pursed her lips, didn't know what to say first, Siyeon's glare fell on her, making her speechless.

- What did you come here for? - Siyeon growled.

- Babe, you’re drunk, let's go home - SuA touched Siyeon's elbow.

- LEAVE ME ALONE - Siyeon yelled, startling SuA. Although the place is very noisy, her screams are enough for 3 or 4 people around to hear.

- Hi, would you like something to drink? – Jaehyun approached to ease the atmosphere, politely asked SuA.

- No, leave us alone - SuA looked at the other guy with a devil face, she still remembered that it was the one who kissed Siyeon in front of her. She didn't care who he was, but she didn't want contact.

Jaehyun saw that the other's face was so scary, he turned away.

SuA took a deep breath and turned back to Siyeon.

- Honey, can we talk at home?

- Go away - Siyeon took a sip of wine, not looking at SuA.

SuA tried to control her negative emotions, her tongue kicked the inside of her cheek, she clenched her fist and released it, calmly continued.

- I'm sorry I didn't tell you everything first, I know that you accidentally met Eunbi again.

- …………………….

- Even if I deceived you, or did something wrong, it's only because I love you so much that I do this, can you forgive me?

- ……………………

- Can you hear me, Sing?

- …………………… - Siyeon continued to drink alcohol. It's very noisy around, every word that you want to hear must be said loudly

- How long do you plan to drink like this, your liver won't take it, you will go to the hospital.

- Are you showing care for me now, is it too fake? After your fake accident, I was half dead while your  was living peacefully in that mountain place, you pretended not to remember anything and didn't pay any attention to me. Do you think I should forgive you? – Siyeon looked straight at SuA and said, her voice hoarse from using too much force to speak.

SuA saw Siyeon's tears, her heart tightened. Siyeon's tears are something that is very rare, if it has appeared, it means that she is in so much pain that she can't stand it anymore. SuA raised her hand to wipe Siyeon’s tears and was then brushed away by Siyeon.

- Sing, I know that no matter how sorry I am, it won't calm you down. You know, from the moment we met, dated and got married, I was always happy. But my happiness is not complete because of your indifferent attitude, the people around me don't like you, you probably know that. I want you to be recognized and trusted by everyone.

- I don’t need the love of the people around me, what I need is your love, your trust, and you don't believe in me, so you made up that damn plan to test me, right?

- It's not that I don't believe you, but...

- Shut up, if I came to you for money, if I didn't love you, I would have divorced you since I had my own savings account at Rabbitbank. If I didn't love you, I would have sold the villa and ran away with money after your accident. But I went to KBR to work, I started to have to learn about numbers, to learn about management, do you know how hard it is? I can't sleep in our room because I feel miserable sleeping there alone, I have to go to another room to sleep, it's very hard you know...?

- I know, I know those things, I believe in your love...

- What the hell do you believe? you said you believe but you deceive me from time to time. Okay, in the past I admitted that I had bad attitudes to let you come up with that damn plan, but then I changed it. I learned to express more, I had to read books to learn more about how to express my emotions better, I had to talk to a psychologist more to know how to express my feelings. And then you act like you’re hurt and leaves me over and over again. Is my love a toy you want to throw away or pick up depending on your preference?

- Babe, don't say it anymore, I know I'm wrong, I'm sorry for making you suffer, from now on I'll never do that again - miserable SuA put her hands on Siyeon's thighs as if to plead. .

- You want to apologize to me? Okay, apologize differently, more sincerely.

- What do you want me to do?

- Kneel down here and apologize to me.

SuA was shocked, her eyes swept around, there were a lot of people here. Siyeon's slender fingers pointed straight down to the ground, her expression determined, as if she would definitely punish SuA.

Siyeon knows how to punish SuA severely, which is to touch her high self-esteem.

From childhood to adulthood, Kim SuA never had to give in to anyone, even her family. She is the only daughter of parents Kim, pampered since childhood, until she became rich, standing above a thousand people, her ego continued to grow, she never wanted to listen to anyone.

In her relationship with Siyeon, too, she is usually the one who dictates more, the one who decides everything about this relationship. Siyeon just needs to listen to her, don't argue, in return she pampers Siyeon very much, she gives everything Siyeon wants.

Everything Siyeon wanted so far has been related to material things, and this is the first time she wants something else, which is to lower SuA's big ego.

SuA was silent for a few minutes, she was still stunned and couldn't do anything.

- You don't like that kind of apology, do you? Then even if we can't continue, I'll give you the ring back - Siyeon continued provocatively.

- What the hell are you saying? – SuA is annoyed.

- You still don't understand why, I want a divorce, I can't live with someone who deceive me all day like that.

Hearing the two words divorce, SuA continues to shake inside

- Hey Kim Siyeon, be careful with your words - SuA's eyes were red as if she had just drank 2 bottles of Gin, she called out her wife's full name for the first time.

- …………………….

- You can curse me whatever you want, but absolutely mustn’t say divorce, I forbid you to open your mouth to say those two words.

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- You want me to kneel and apologize to you in front of so many people here, right? Okay - SuA showed a brazen expression, got down from the chair and slowly knelt down in front of Siyeon.

- …………………… - Siyeon was a bit surprised that SuA did it, she was just trying to scare SuA a bit.

The music in the bar began to soften.

- I used to kneel to propose to you in a bar, in front of my friends, now this is no big deal to me - SuA looked up at Siyeon, calmly said, not a bit shy, not afraid at all.

There were a few people around, paying attention to the two of them, whispering back and forth.

Siyeon was confused as to what to do, she suddenly felt a little uncomfortable when SuA was being looked at like that by others.

- All right, you stand up.

- Babe, I'm sorry for the past.

- Okay, stand up - Siyeon gestured for SuA to stop kneeling.

- No matter what I do, it's only because I love you so much, you understand that, right?

- I understand, I understand, stand up.

- I long to see your love directly, that's why I played a little trick, is that wrong? no matter how strong I am, I'm still a girl, I still want to be loved, to be protected by someone, to be cared for by someone, to be hugged by someone.

- Yes, I know, I will do it for you - Siyeon started to see the situation going a bit far, people around her started to look at her with unfriendly eyes, they were thinking she was bullying SuA is it right?

- Did you want to forgive me?

- Yes, I forgive you, I'm not angry, let's go home - Siyeon reached for her bag ready to go home.

SuA pursed her lips and stood up, looking at Siyeon's bewildered reaction which she found amusing. Plus Siyeon’s pre-existing drunkenness, she looked so adorable.

Siyeon must have thought that SuA would always put her self-esteem first, right. Actually, her arrogant ego is very big, but if it was Siyeon, she would choose to give in, because she loves her wife so much.

Siyeon suffered from loneliness and grief during the times when SuA wasn't around, and the times when SuA wanted to trick her. SuA will use the next time to make up for everything for Siyeon, because part of the fault is hers.

Siyeon obediently climbed into SuA's car and was driven home by SuA. On the way she still felt uncomfortable, could this huge problem be solved with an apology from Kim SuA?

No, she was not satisfied with that. She recalled the time when her heart was empty for 2 years, she recalled the time when she struggled for 2 months because SuA chose to leave her. SuA slept a good night with her and left the next morning without her knowing, and said heartless things when the two were at Handong's wedding.

Thinking back to those times, Siyeon couldn't forgive SuA that easily.

SuA's green car rolled back to the villa, Siyeon got out and entered the house first, SuA put the car in the garage. After SuA entered the house, when she reached the bedroom door, she couldn't open it.

So Siyeon locked the door from the inside.

- Sing, open the door for me - SuA knocked on the door.

- No, you sleep on the sofa today - Siyeon's voice came out.

Sua was surprised.

- Babe, are you still mad at me?

- …………………….

- Kim Siyeon!!

- Don't knock on the door, it's annoying.

- ………………..

End chapter 22.