"I don't know what a love like Juliet's feels like, a love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for." - Letters to Juliet

"Get in the car," he mumbles the words softly and I do as I'm told. No need to start more unnecessary drama. This stupid fucking project was going to be the death of me, that's for sure.

"Are you sure you're okay?" He asks after a few moments of silence and I nod my head, pushing my hair out my face and sighing deeply.

"You know, we always used to fight before. That's what we did best, right? But it wasn't like this."

Now it's his fingers pushing back his own hair, a sad smile clinging to his face as I let out another sigh.

"I told you, I'm not the same. I've changed. I'm sorry for then, I'm sorry for now, I'm sorry for everything. I just wish you guys would stop trying to push something on me that's not even me anymore."

He starts the car, letting my words hang in the air while he begins driving. His green eyes only look at the road in front of us so I start paying attention to it too.

The sky was that beautiful lilac color, letting me know a storm was probably going to head this way in a minute. Grey clouds were starting to hang above our heads when we pulled into another place I used to love so much.

It was one of the highest points of the city, hanging just above everything. You could see all the businesses, all the homes, just everything. It was once our little hangout.

Stepping out of the car after him, I feel the hard rocks underneath my feet while we look at the one tree that still resides here.

"Remember when we came up here in the summer after eighth grade? It was you, Haden, Autumn and I. Just eating our snacks and watching the stars back when times were simpler?"

I nod my head, continuing to watch the sky that was in front of us.

"Remember how Haden, the jerk, dared you to climb that tree? You could never turn down a dare. Autumn and I watched and complained from here because we were always like the parents of the group while you climbed that tree."

I smiled, seeing the memory so plainly in front of me. Autumn and I had on those hideous matching outfits that our parents loved to dress us in and Haden had that huge, adorable afro.

"I remember hearing the branch snap. I remember Autumn calling out at the last second that you were reaching for a lose branch but you didn't hear us. I remembering hearing the popping in your bones and all of us racing, trying to catch you before you hit the ground but it was too late. I remember my little scrawny ass carried you all the way back home while Haden and Autumn freaked out the whole way back. Reception sucked up here, and that was back when those ugly new iPhones sucked."

His smile only widens at the memory and so does mine. It was still an imprint in the dirt from where I fell so hard. I broke my leg that day.

"You remember what you told us before you climbed that old tree? Haden was complaining about the mountain eroding and getting smaller, seemingly changing shape. You said, even if it'll look different and seem different in a few years, it's still the same mountain we fell in love with."

Sighing shakily, I turn to look at him only to find he's already looking at me. The sad smile still on his face and his eyes twinkling under this stormy sky.

"It's not the same thing, Derek," I mumble softly, scratching slightly at my arm and biting my lip.

"It is. I know it is, and you know it is. You're still the same girl, even if you look a little different and try to act a little different. You're still you. The you Autumn used to bake ugly cakes with and make ugly friendship bracelets with. The you who used to roast the teachers with Haden and get sent to the office. The you I fe- never mind. Point is, there's still some of that you in your heart. You aren't two different people. I don't know what happened to make you act this way, but being a complete bitch to all of us all of the time isn't going to fix anything."

I felt a droplet of liquid so faint, I had to look at my wrist to make sure it was really sprinkling. Derek let out an airy laugh before moving to get us into the car.

"We don't want you to turn into a smurf again" he laughs, and I can't help but laugh with him.
                            **
Do you ever have those moments where you feel like you could just drive forever? You could turn on some good music and just drive, watching the sky, singing, with a smile on your face. One of those few moments you could be content with the world?

This, right here, was one of those moments. We could drive that seventeen hour drive to fucking Louisiana and I'd be happy. I'd be so happy.

When we pulled up to my house, I almost didn't want to get out of the car. The trees were swaying with force and the wind whistled angrily. The thunder was roaring loudly and shaking the earth in its madness. This storm was in full rage but I had always liked storms, which Autumn always found quite weird.

"Aren't you glad I told you to wear a jacket?" he laughs, pulling my hood up for me while I just roll my eyes.

Crazy how someone could do a complete personality change but if he was trying not to be a dick, I was going to try to not be a bitch.

We make a run for it when we get out of the car. You know that run you do when all the lights are off and everyone's sleep, and you're trying to run up from the downstairs to your room? That's the kind of run we did, laughing and giggling all the way when I pushed my door open.

My mom was weirdly standing by the window, trying to act as if she wasn't just watching us but I could tell she was from that ugly grin she had on her face.

"Honey, Dad will be back from his business trip in about three days. He told me to ask if you wanted him to bring you back anything." She still smiled at us while Derek looked at the floor awkwardly.

"Just what he always does. A weird snack or candy from the place he's visiting," I say and she nods her head while we walk back to my room.

"What's next?" I ask, throwing off my jacket and shoots and jumping on my bed.

"We're supposed to watch one of our favorite movies, so we can watch yours first," he replies, throwing off his things too.

"I don't have a favorite movie."

He looks at me quizzically and I look back at him mockingly.

"What? I don't. Either I've watched too many bad movies or too many great ones, either way I don't have a favorite movie," I shrug while he lays next to me.

"I just don't get how you can't have a favorite movie. What do you spend your life doing? You don't hang out with us anyone," he says while I narrow my eyes.

"I do plenty with my life, thank you very much," I glare and he glares back in disbelief.

"Like what? Fantasize about Harry Styles?" he snickers while I gape at him and hit him with a pillow.

"Oh, shut up! Everyone fantasizes about Harry Styles! You had a crush on Whoopi Goldberg!"

"She was fucking hot in sister act for your information. At least I didn't spend hours reading those weird fan fictions on her. You and Autumn were such weirdos," he laughs, taking one of my stuffed animals and playing with it.

"Don't make me bring up what Autumn and I found in you and Haden's little tree house. Alien po-,"

"Shut up! Shut up. Just pick a fucking movie. Pick The Fault in Our Stars or some girly shit like that," he glares, agitated that I brought up he and Haden's weird moment in puberty.

"What's your favorite movie? Martian Alien gets naile-"

"Stop!" he screams, a furious blush setting over his face while I nearly piss myself laughing.

"Seriously, what's your favorite movie?" I say, still clutching my stomach.

"The Breakfast Club was alright I guess. Let's watch that," he grumbles, embarrassment still clear in his voice and I laugh and nod.

Oh man, what an adventure this was going to be.

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