💫Words seep through my ears
Depth escaping my mind
Worse phase in all these years
Forgot what it is to be in right mind

Hating myself for my own deeds
Scaring my skin for my own need
Hating my existence for my own scars
Letting them win all the wars

Numbness in my body scares the shit out of me
Numbness in my mind worsens every moment of this life

Finding way to escape is all I need I say
When all I want to hurt myself and stay

Tell me when I am wrong that you are wrong
Tell me when I am right that you are wrong
That's what you seem to do but not admitting it
Oh why would you ?

At the end of the it's all my fault that leads you to do as you do

When I am falling no one ever notice
When I am smiling world seems to blame me for nothing
When I am crying my tears seems invisible for you
When I am laughing my laugh seems irking you

Something's wrong with this girl is not what I hear
You are wrong all the time and that you are worse is what I hear
It's okay darling everything will be alright is not what I hear
If you can't do this you are of no use is what I hear

No matter what you say
No matter what you do
It's always my fault
It's always my pain

I hate to say this but you made me numb

This numbness makes me feel like dying
Want to feel what's like taking it and crying again
Wanna feel alive
Wanna feel normal again

Disrespectful , hateful , selfish , idiot , good for nothing
What else you wanna say?
Oh the main ones are coming your way

Ugly you don't deserve this life
Irritating just leave everyone
Fat , cow is thinner than you
Stupid 5 years old is better than you

You think this words help?
You think you are giving me life?
You think it is easy for me?
You think everything I do is for me?

Let me go
This numbness is killing me
I donno who is Villan
Your words or it's just me 💫

~Rohini

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Lol I was not going to update this still I felt I should

So is it good?