phases

moonlight drops into my hands
so you could take it

hades' blood is on my hands
i never faked it

don't you know?

love could be so vile
and you were cruel

taking me down when i

was already at the bottom

bottom of the ocean
you dug even deeper
violently shaking
the thoughts inside
my head, unbreaking

as long as you're there
i'm never gonna find it
pull my head above the water
you will never know
how hard it was to get here

and it isn't even
the last phase
day by day, i still
find myself near relapse
and it's so frightening to know
that you're never gonna hold me
like you did back then

ever

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