Leanne's POV

I've finished taking a shower and getting ready for a client that has booked me for this afternoon. The guy requested I have no others until him today and in a way I'm glad about that, but in other ways it makes me feel worst. When the men do this, they clearly do it because their disgusted at the idea of being with me after someone else and I don't blame them because I feel like that about myself everyday and the only difference is these men are here by choice. Unlike some of us here. I know some of the girls do wanna be here and are happy, but most of us are miserable here and don't have a choice.

"someone looks nice" Mia smiles walking into the bedroom "someone's coming to see in an hour" I mumble "so why do you look so miserable? You haven't had to work all morning" she shrugs confused and I tell her "sweetie, how many times? Try not to think about all that and just go in there do what you have to and leave"

"doesn't make me feel any less..."

"Leanne, don't do this. Not right now" she cuts me off "how do you do it? Just block it all out? Because I try to I really do but..."

"it gets easier over time" she smiles at me sympathetically through pursed lips. "just try and think about something else right now. You don't wanna get all worked up when the client gets here. Did you see who booked you?"

"mhm. It was Michael. Not that to makes a difference" I shrug "sure it does! He tips big, which means more shopping sprees for you. See? Not everything's so bad" she smiles "it's just stuff none of it means anything" I mumble and she sighs "don't do this to yourself"

"but what if he hurts me? Like the last one did" I croak sitting on the edge of the bed and she comes over and wraps her arms around me "I understand you being scared but you have to remember not all clients are that rough. Some are nice" she says softly "but even the nice ones aren't always nice. None of them are not really and..."

"you can't get scared every time a client comes in. I know it's hard sometimes I get it, but sometimes that happens and we just have to deal with it and move on" she tries to reassure me seeing the scared look on my face "c'mon, you need to pull yourself together before your client arrives" she smiles getting up and I nod fighting the back my tears and trying not to break down (yet again)

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Michael's POV

After finally deciding on a shirt, I head to the bathroom to check my hair and stuff looks ok then look down and scrunch my face and go back into the bedroom to change quickly before I'm late. I know I won't be wearing my clothes for very long so it doesn't really matter what shirt I wear, but Leanne's not going to be dressed that long either and she always looks nice just like the other girls make the effort and I don't think there's anything wrong with wanting look presentable when I go there.

After changing my shirt again I finally leave the house then sigh, rolling my eyes seeing Lisa walking up towards the front door. "what do you want!?"

"I just came to see how you are and..."

"well I'm busy sooo.. Go away" I say moving past her to "are you going on a date?" She frowns "nope"

"so why are you all dressed up?" She shrugs "I'm not. now if you don't mind"

"who is she? Do I know her?"

"I'm not going on a date!" I sigh irritated with the questions "and even if I was, me and you are divorced so it's none of your business who I choose to fuck" I shrug and turn to get in my car and she grabs my arms slightly turning me to face her. "Michael, I meant what I said. I still love and I want us to be together as we were before I made that stupid mistake" she sighs and I don't say anything "please can we talk?"

"no, I'm busy. I have to be somewhere in ten minutes so..."

"forget about her" she says and I look at her confused "whoever this woman is your going to see. Forget about her. She will never love you as much as I do. No woman could possibly love a man as much and I love you. Please stay and talk to me" she pleads and I don't answer her "Michael, I love you and I'll do whatever it takes for you to see I'm truly sorry and we can work this out. We can go to marriage therapy anything. Anything you want"

"anything I want?" I mumble and she smiles "anything you want"

"kill yourself. Then I'll think about working things out with you" I say sarcastically and get into the car and drive off, pissed that Lisa is doing this to me again. She did look sincere when she was telling me how she felt, but she looked sincere the first time... And the second... And the third. And I'm not gonna fall for that again.

When I get to the brothel I feel slightly nervous while I'm waiting for some reason and when I see Leanne come over she smiles at me through pursed lips and I smile back the same way and we make our way to one of the rooms.

"how've you been?" I ask closing the door "fine" she replies quickly and smiles through pursed lips then goes straight over to the bed and sits on the edge taking a condom from the draw and waits for me while I lock the door then I walk over and sit beside her "are you ok? Your really quite" I say softly and she nods and smiles at me "I'm fine. Can we just get on with this?" She says clearly not interested in talking to me and I nod then lean in and press my lips softly against hers and she doesn't object this time. Her lips barely move, but she kisses me back slightly and we begin undressing each other.

I lead us both down onto the bed and start kissing my way down her body "can I?" I whisper and she nods. She moans slightly as I slowly work my tongue inside and around her womanhood, but I can tell by the look on her face she's not actually getting any pleasure from it this time and is faking it for my benefit so I stop and make my way back up to her "you ok?" I whisper shakily onto her lips and she nod "are you ready?" I ask and she nods and sits up slightly while I put a condom on.

I hold her hand and slowly push myself into her while softly kissing on her neck and begin thrusting slowly, being as delicate as possible just as I always do then out of nowhere Leanne bursts into tears. "shit! I'm so sorry" I say quickly getting up and she doesn't say anything and starts shaking "I'm so sorry. I didn't been to hurt you" I say softly and go to put my hand on her shoulder, but quickly move it when she flintches. "Leanne, I'm really sorry" I say sincerely. I'm not sure exactly what I did, but I clearly hurt her for her to react this way. "do you want me to leave?" I ask about to get up and she quickly turns to me, but doesn't actually face me "no- no" she shakes her head "I'm so sorry" she says nervously and lays back down on the bed and I gently lift her back up and wipe the tears from her face and sit at the edge of the bed

"I'm not gonna do anything if you don't want me to or if your upset" I say softly "I do! Honestly I'm fine. You didn't do anything wrong. It was all my fault" she protests "what did I do?" I ask knowing I did something and she shakes her head "nothing, you didn't hurt me. I just had a bad morning" she mumbles "do you wanna talk about it?" I ask softly and she shakes her head looking away from me. "I had a pretty bad morning myself too... and last night too" I sigh heavily and I tell her about Lisa and about her turning up at my house yesterday.

"I was so hurt when we divorced and I still am and even though I'm over her. I still can't get over what she did, you know?" I turn to Leanne and she's sat on the other end of the bed looking at the ground nervously and I turn back the other way continuing to talk.

"I can't believe how blind and stupid I was not to see it. I gave her everything she wanted and it still wasn't enough and I wasn't good enough" I sniffle "will you cuddle with me?" I mumble turning back to Leanne and she looks me confused "I know you girls have a rule about that and I won't tell anybody we didn't have sex. To be honest I'd much rather have a cuddle right now" I tell her truthfully and she nods nervously and I put a sheet over us and lay down with my arms wrapped around her and she lays her head on my chest still not speaking. "god I've missed this feeling" I sigh contently, holding her close to me and I can tell by the way she has her arms around me, she doesn't get many cuddles either. "do you wanna talk about what upset you?" I ask softly and she shakes her head and we both just lay there not speaking. I Don't asks her anymore questions because she obviously doesn't want to talk.

I'm not sure why I told Leanne about Lisa or why I keep telling her stuff and feeling like I have to explain myself. She's made it clear she's not interested in what I have to say and is probably sick of men crying and telling her their problems.

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Leanne's POV

I can't believe I just broke down in front of a client like that. 'Never cry in front of a client' it's one of the main rules. It's bad enough I've let Michael make love to me on my first day and broken other rules with him too and if Mary ever found out she'd flip and I dread to think what she'd do if she found out I just broke down and cried in front of a client and didn't even have sex with him.

There's a knock on the door to let us know Michael's hour is up and he sighs disappointed and we both get up and get dressed and he hands me some money. "you don't have to give me a tip. I didn't do anything with you" I mumble handing it back to him. "actually, you did alot more than you think" he smiles softly and kisses my temple handing the money back to me "are you feeling any better?" He asks and I nod smiling through pursed lips "mhm. Are you?"

"much better" he smiles "would it be ok to see you again?" He asks nervously and unsure and I nod. "thank you" he smiles softly and pecks my lips softly before leaving.

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Michael's POV

After leaving the brothel I head over to my car and Lisa is standing outside the building waiting for me. "oh my god! Will you leave me alone?" I roll my eyes "and why's that? You worried people will find out your so desperate these days you've been going to a whore house and paying someone to have sex with you?" She smirks "I'm not that desperate I'm following me EX and begging them to take me back though" I smirk back at her and turn to leave and she takes my arms stopping my "Michael, why are you lowering yourself by going to places like this and paying for whores when you can have your wife back?"

"because the girl I was just with fucks me better" I shrug arrogantly "what do you expect it's her job she's bound to have alot of expericance" she scoffs. "then maybe you should go in there and ask for a job. You have plenty of experience. Although I doubt you'll make as much money as the girl I was just fucking gets. Incase you forgot I gave up on a free blowjob from you and paid someone else to do to it. Way better than you ever could" I smirk and walk off to my car, not wanting to talk to her anymore.

It really surprised me that I stood up for Leanne like that, but I just wish Lisa would leave me alone. She's already messing with my head and nothings even going on between us anymore. We're divorced and have been for over a year and I don't have to explain shit to her about what I do in my free time.

I'm driving home and I still feel really bad about what happened with Leanne. I was trying my best to be as gentle as possible just like I always do with her and I'm still not sure what I did to make her react that way. She was really sobbing and shaking and even flinched when I tried to put my hand on her shoulder. She said I didn't hurt her but I know I did, other wise she wouldnt have reacted the way she did.

I know some people would say I'm crazy for giving Leanne $800 just for cuddling with me, especially since she was paid for sex, but I couldn't do it and she clearly didn't want to do anything with me. I could have just switched girls, but if I had then she might have gotten in trouble or something and it wouldn't be fair to do that to her when it was my fault she got upset in the first place and  even if I had switched girls what would I say. A girl doesn't wanna have sex with me? She obviously didn't want to and just because she gets paid doesn't mean she doesn't have the right to say no and even though Leanne said it was ok to continue. She clearly didn't want to and I wasn't about to force her to do anything with me. It doesn't matter if the girl gets paid or it's your partner or with random girl I met in a club. No mean no

I know sometimes I may come across like I hate woman sometimes, but that couldn't be further from the truth. I have alot of respect for women and that incudes the women at the brothel. I don't judge them or think their whores like alot of people think of them. If that's the lifestyle they wanted then that's their choice to make and nobody else's. I just wished Leanne told me what exactly I did wrong so I could make sure it doesn't happen again. I actually really enjoyed cuddling with her though. I haven't cuddled with anybody since Lisa and I split and it really did make me feel alot better