Michael's POV

I'm going to my mothers house for lunch and when I get there I'm greeted by Lisa yet again. "hi!" She smiles opening the front door and pecks my cheek as I walk in "what are the you doing here?" I frown confused. "for lunch silly. Kathrine invited me. Lunch is going to be a while, so you settle down and I'll fetch you a beer" she smiles sweetly and walks off.

"why the fuck is Lisa here again?" I frown turning to Janet. "she came here early and mother asked if she wanted to stay for lunch. You know what mothers like, she wasn't going to kick her out" she whispers to me then leans back in her seat as Lisa comes back "here you go, baby" she smiles handing me a beer then heads back into the kitchen to help my mother with the cooking. "don't drink it, phycho bitch probably drugged it" Janet giggles, making me laugh

Janet's never liked Lisa from day one and she said it was something about her ora or something weird like that, but I wished I'd listens to her at the time.

*

At lunch Lisa makes a point of sitting next to me and it's actually getting pretty creepy the way she's been acting. It's like she's completely forgot the last year and is acting like we're still married.

"annerversys coming up soon you guys made any arrangements yet?" Lisa asks my mother and she shakes her head "not yet, we're thinking of staying home this year instead of a long trip"

"you should treat yourself, Michael and I loved going away just the two of us. It really helps clear your mind and gives you a chance to just relax and enjoy each others company. Isn't that right sweetie" she smiles sweetly at me. "I prefer to stay home" I shrug. "i'm the same. there's nothing like sleeping in your own bed" Joseph agrees with me. "you enjoyed our trip to London" Lisa turns back to me "didn't it rain most of the time you were there?" Janet cuts in before I can answer. "there was still lots for us to do" Lisa smirks and I feel her hand move under the table onto my thigh and I quickly move my leg. "speaking of trips, are you and Leanne planning on taking a little mini break anytime soon" Janet asks and smirks slightly seeing the pissed off look on Lisa's face. "their just friends" Lisa smirks back at her moving her hand back on my thigh up towards my crotch. "you seemed a little closer than just Friend's' during the event Joseph cuts in and I feel Lisa rubbing harder against my crotch, which I have to admit is really turning me on. "be right back" I say quickly rushing from the table before anybody notices.

I rush up to the bathroom locking the door and quickly unzip my pants and begin stroking hard and fast on my hard member trying to relieve myself as quickly as possible. "Ahhh.... Fuck!" I moan quietly as I get closer. "Mmm... Leanne!" I moan as I cum.

'did I just?' I say to myself confused, releasing what I just said. I wasn't even thinking about her or anybody for that matter so it's weird I call out her name. It was probably just because her name was just brought up or somthing. I say to myself, shrugging it off. Thank god I'm not married anymore. That wouldn't have gone down well sayings other woman's name.

After I clean up I open the door to go back downstairs and Lisa is walking towards the bathroom door. "oh my God! Will you quit following me around?" I roll my eyes. "I was just coming to check you was Ok, since you ran up here so fast" she shrugs innocently. "no you weren't" I shake my head "and quit acting like we're still married or something. It's getting really creepy"

"I haven't been, but of that's how your seeing it then your obviously feeling that way and that's what you still want And deep down you know you do" she mutters moving closer to me. "well it's not" I shake my head moving away from her. "I know what your doing and I'm not gonna let you get inside my head again" I say in a slightly shakily tone and go back downstairs before she has a chance to say anything else.

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Leanne's POV

"Leanne! Hurry up and get ready! I don't have all day for this!" my aunt Mary snaps opening my bedroom door then leaves without waiting for an answer.

We're going to my parents grave today. My aunt didn't let me go to the funeral and made me work that day so this is the first time for me going to visit them.

"there's nothing to be afraid of. I've been to people's graves myself. just relax you'll be fine" Mia tries to comfort me seeing I'm getting worked up again.

"fine? How will it be fine? I'm going to my parents grave and will be standing there knowing that they would be ashamed and disgusted with the person I've become" I croak."what do you have to be ashamed about?" She shrugs "your not on drugs or walking the streets"

"I may as well. It's no different from what I'm doing now"

"Leanne, you live in a nice house, make good money and have all the latest designer clothes. How many girls your age can say that, huh? You don't even have to go to high school anymore. Do you know how girls your age would love to have all that?"

"and how do I have those things, huh? I don't care about living in a nice house or having nice thing's. I never wanted any of this and still don't. I'd do anything to have my old life back" I croak. "it doesn't matter how you got those thing's the fact is you do and I know this sounds mean, but you can never have your old life back, your parents are gone and if it wasn't for your aunt you'd been living in and orphanage. I've lived in those places when I was younger and trust me those places are a nightmare. You should try an be a little more grateful your aunt brought you here and took care of you the way she has been doing" she says softly and I don't answer her "I'm gonna leave you to finish getting ready" she smiles at me through pursed lips then leaves the room closing the door behind her.

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Lisa's POV

I know the reason Michael rushed upstairs the way that he did and I know exactly what he was doing too, because I know exactly what buttons the press to get him worked up and always have. I can see in his face he's coming around. I'm in his head now and there's nothing he can do about. It doesn't matter how many of those little sluts from the brothel he fucks because Michael will always belong to me and those whores have nothing on me. Even the the girl he brought to the event, sure she looked kinda cute, but the whole time I was watching her she didn't say a word to anybody and just spent the night following Michael around like some lost child and that's why I'm not worried about her because I know Michael and I know he likes his women to be strong and know how to stick up for themselves, not some little lap dog that is only good for one thing and that's spreading her legs for any man that looks her way.

I'm getting ready to leave and am saying my goodbyes and I make a point of asking Michael to drive me home on front of his mother because I know he'd never refuse in front of her.

*

"I'm really sorry about the way I acted during the event" I mutter "it's fine" he mumbles and continues driving "and I'm sorry for judging you for going to that place. I understand you have needs like all men. I just got jealous seeing you with another women. You can understand that right?"

"I did tell you I was taking nobody"

"I know" I sigh "she was really pretty. Did you chose her personally? Or do they just send who's available?" I ask in a curious tone. "I asked for her" he mumbles "any particular reason you chose her?"

"just did" he shrugs "did you and her. You know? Have sex that night?"

"Not that it matters, but yes. Now can we please stop talking about it?" He sighs and I can tell by his face he feels ashamed and embarrassed about sleeping with her.

We pull up outside my apartment and Michael turns off the engine and there's a moment of silence. "we're here" he mumbles awkwardly. "would you like to come in? I'll make us some coffee before you leave"

"I don't think that's a good idea"

"maybe next time" I smile at him through pursed lips and he nods smiling back at me the same way. "I meant what I said" I say softly and he looks at me confused "about me still loving you and..."

"I really don't wanna talk about this" he cuts me off. "Michael, I want us to be together again and I know deep down you want that too"

He sighs heavily, not answering me and I lean over and peck his lips then break away. "you know where I am when your ready to talk" I say softly and leave the car.

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Leanne's POV

We're sitting in an office and a lawyer is discussing some legal stuff with me and my aunt about my parents will. "since your under the age of 18 all the money will be placed into a trust fund until then" he explains and I nod "what about the house?" My aunt asks "well again with Leanne's age the legal management of the home will be given to the parent or guardian which is you" he explains and she nods and I see a slight smile form on my aunts face.

After explaining everything to me and my aunt we get back in the car and we drive off. "I can't wait to get that place on the market. that house is worth a fortune!" my aunt smiles excitedly. "do I really have to sell it?" I croak thinking about all the happy memories I've had in the house I once called home and she glances over frowing. "will you quit with the crying already!? You heard what the lawyer said. I'm in charge not you and I'm putting it on the market. Conversation over!"

"can we go to see my parents grave now?" I mutter and she sighs rolling her eyes "I haven't got time for all that. I do have a business to run"

"but you said..."

"if you wanna go to the cemetery then you can do it on your day off in your free time" she cuts me off "but, where is it?" I ask and she puts the radio on ignoring my question.

I get home and the second I get to my room I burst into tears "didn't go so well?" Mia says softly putting her arms around me "it's always hard the first time, but it gets easier and..."

"we didn't go to see my parents. Mary just said that and took me to see a lawyer about my parents will instead" I sob cutting her off "well maybe she didn't feel comfortable going. Some people don't. You can always go by yourself on your day off or something"

"no I can't because I don't know where it is and she won't tell me. She didn't even let me going to the funeral because she said I had to work" I croak. "that's why I kept breaking down that day"

"awww... Sweetie I'm sorry you should have told me. At least you managed to hold it together in front of the client. That shows how strong you are and if you can do it then, then you..."

"no I didn't" I cut her off and tell her what happened that day. "you did what!?" She snaps "I didn't do it on purpose. "it doesn't matter. What if Michael would have complained or said something to Mary!?"

"but, he didn't and he promised that he would tell"

"then you got lucky, he didn't wanna lose a good fuck" she shakes her head and sighs heavily "Leanne, you really need to start growing thicker skin and accept that this is your life now and no amount of crying is going to change that. I was upset when I first started here just like alot of us was, but sooner or later your going to have to deal with it because you got lucky Michael didn't complain that time. But I doubt he wouldn't think twice about doing it of it happens again and neither would any other client"

"I never cried in front of the others" I tell her honestly. "and you so you shouldn't. I've told you, you need to learn to block things out. Not just with clients, but all the time.

*

Mia and I are talking and Emma walks in without knocking. "your needed downstairs" she says coldly to Mia and she nods and gets up leaving the room without saying a word to her.

"I heard you guys talking" she says walking over to my closet looking through my clothes. "don't worry about what Mia said, if Michael didn't complain at the time I doubt he will now" she comments taking out some clothes "you heard that?" I say nervously "don't worry I won't tell" she smiles coming over and sits beside me on the bed "I have a secret too" she smirks and I look at her confused "you know the event we both worked on?"

"yeah" I shrug "well, that guy Randy I was with. I kinda let him go down on me. But you can't tell"

"I won't. I Kinda let Michael do the same" I mutter "I think it's such a stupid rule we can't receive anything back from the clients. I think Mary just randomly makes stuff up" she chuckles "I mean. I get the whole no getting personal or making love, but alot of them are pretty dumb"

"have you ever... Broke the last two rules?" I mumble and she shakes her head. "nope and I suggest you never do either. Their strictly..."

"forbidden?" I giggle cutting her off "that's right. Now hurry up and get ready" She smiles changing the topic "for what?" I frown confused. "we both have the night off and I'm taking you to the bar to cheer you up. And Don't worry I got you a fake ID. You look like you could do with a drink" she smiles through pursed lips "but this doesn't make us friend's. I just don't wanna listen to you crying all night" she shrugs leaving the room while I get ready.

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Michael's POV

The whole drive home I couldn't help but think about what Lisa said. She sounded really genuine when she was saying she still loved me and I have to admit she has been going out of her way to get my attention. She never followed me around or gone to these lengths just for me to hear her out and I'm starting wonder whether or not I should. I meant what I said about not being in love with her anymore or wanting to get back with her, but I'm started to feel bad about the way I've been cold towards her. I go on all the time about her messing with my head and me having sex with her that day and kissing her is just as bad as what she's done to me so many times.

As I get to my house, I sigh heavily to my self. And start the car again. I don't want to get back with Lisa and I have no intention of it, but I need to talk to her and let her say her piece and in a way try and get some kind of closer or answers or something.

*

When I get to Lisa's apartment, I'm about to knock and notice the door is open slightly and walk in. I'm about to call for her and I hear muffled noises from down the hall.

The muffled sounds become clearer when I get closer to the bedroom door. I open the door slightly and both Lisa and some overweight old guy quickly jump up.

The guy quickly puts his pants on and runs past me carrying his shirt and Lisa remains on the bed with the sheet covering her. "I- I can explain" she stutters coming over to me with sheet wrapped around her. "he meant nothing to me. I- I have needs. Just like you an- and..."

I don't answer and turn my attention to the bedside table and she looks in the same direction. "that's not what it looks like" she stutters pointing to the money on the table. "I- I um..."

"yeah, I got it" I snap cutting her off and turn to leave. "Michael, please? I can explain" Lisa says rushing after me, but I ignore her and keep walking and slam the front door behind me.

I didn't go over there to get back with her, but I still feel completely stupid for actually thinking that she cared and what's worst is that when I saw the money on the table and realised what she was doing, I wasn't even surprised. She cheated on me the whole time we were married and it doesn't surprise me she was obviously getting paid for it because money is all Lisa has ever really cared about. Not me.

*

I pull over and sit confused to how I got here. I was on my way home and I know that where I should go, but somehow I find myself outside of the brothel.

I walk over to the desk and Mary greets me with a smile as always. "Hello, Michael" she smiles softly "hi... um.. Is Leanne available?" I croak and try not to look upset. "I'm sorry. Leanne isn't working today. Mia's available though" she smiles "oh... Um.. ok" I mumble as Mia comes over.

We go into the room and Mia goes straight over to the bed without at word, just like I do with the others, well except for Leanne. I like when she talks to me and I love looking into her eyes when we have sex, but not the others. I hate when they talk or even glance over at me.

I stroke gently on my shaft for a moment trying to get hard which I've never had this problem with before and eventually I get hard enough to put the condom on, but as soon as I'm about to push myself into Mia it quickly goes down again. "What the the fuck?" I say to myself trying to get it hard again and Mia turns around. "let me help you with that" she smiles taking my dick away from my hand and starts slowly sucking on me which has zero effect. "just, forget it" I mutter moving her away from me, adjusting myself quickly and leave the room.

"is everything ok?" Mary asks seeing the look on my face. "would Leanne be available tomorrow?" I ask ignoring her question. "of course. Same arrangements?"

"mhm" I nod "was their a problem with Mia?" She asks again once she's book us together and I shake my head "no, I'd just prefer Leanne... We have our own arrangements" I mumble and turn to leave, then smile slightly for the first time, when I see Leanne walking in giggling with Emma. She doesn't see me and is clearly drunk and trips over and I manage to grab her quickly. "I'll see you tomorrow" I whisper into her ear as I help her up then leave.

**

Leanne's POV

Michael whispers something into my ear, but I didn't quite catch what he said and I stand confused for a second until Mary snaps at me.

"what the fuck do you two think your playing at, walking in here drunk like that!? The front door is for clients. The back door is for you and the others. You know the rules!"

"I know, I'm really sorry. I..."

"I'm gonna let it go this time because your niece, but if it ever happens again..."

"it won't we promise" Emma cuts in. "you two better go get so thing to eat and drink. I don't want you being hungover on the job, especially you, because your booked with Michael tomorrow" she turns to me "Mia's already pissed him off and you better make sure he leaves here tomorrow happy. I'm not going to stand for people complaining, especially regular clients" she frowns and I nod and turn to leave with Emma "one more thing" Mary shouts and we both turn back to her. "Michael said something about you two having you 'own' arrangements. What did he mean?"

"oh, he meant he likes things a certain way" Emma cuts in before I can answer. "he prefers the girls just go in do the job and leave without any talking or eye contact and doesn't like explaining it Everytime he's here. Michael used to be a regular of mine until Leanne came here" she smiles and Mary looks and me skeptically for a moment and I nod in agreement with Emma. "well you two go and get something to eat and it's best you sleep in Emma's room tonight" she says in a neutral tone and heads towards the stairs.

*

"so what's this private arrangent you have with Michael?" Emma asks as we're eating. "you already said it" I shrug "I said what our arrangent was and that's how he wants it with the others, but clearly that's not your arrangement with him"

"It is" I lie and looks at me raising an eyebrow, clearly not believing me "He's never booked girls before or complained about getting another girl, and he's never requested a girl stay clean and have no other clients before him. So what is it?"

"I um.. I kinda let him kiss and cuddle with me after" I mutter "that's it?" She frowns confused "and the other thing... That we were talking about earlier"

"you mean he goes down on you?"

"mhm" I nod awkwardly. "he doesn't say anything or try and get personal with you does he?"

"no, he doesn't really say anything" I lie "well make sure he doesn't if you start letting him get personal then he'll start getting attached and that never works out well. and it's probably best you don't tell anybody about this 'private arrangent' ok? Aunt or not If Mary found she'd flip. So let's just keep this between us"

"thanks" I smile slightly through pursed lips and she smiles back the same way.

After we've finished eating we're on our way to Emma's room and I hear Mia crying and screaming in our room and the door is closed and Mary yelling, but the yelling's so loud I can't really hear what she's saying. "c'mon" Emma says motioning me into her room and she closes the door and puts the radio on. "it's best we keep out of it" she says sensing my worry for Mia.

Even with the radio on I can still hear everything that's going on in the room next to me, then after about and hour Emma switches off the radio and everything is silent. "do you think I should to check on her?"

"probably best you don't" she says softly coming over to me and I nod trying to block it out to keep myself from crying and Emma puts her arms around me. "it's ok. You can let it out" she says softly and I break down and start crying in her arms.

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Michael's POV

I feel kind of bad storming out on that Mia girl like I did. She didn't do anything wrong, but I was really hoping to see Leanne and to be honest I didn't even want sex. I know it's against their rules to cuddle and stuff and Leanne doesn't give a crap about me, but sometimes that's all I really want and every now and then Leanne has let me cuddle with her and it feels nice to have someone to cuddle with from time to time.

I get home and I can't stop thinking about everything that's happened today. The only reason I went to Lisa's apartment was to hear her out and get some kind of closer and to get answers, but all I got was a reminder of the day I came home early and caught her in our bed with another man. This is why I don't trust women anymore, because they lie and the hurt me and this is why i never want another relationship because I couldn't take being hurt again.

I get into bed and completely break down sobbing. Every relationship I've ever had has always ended up the same way and I've given the girl everything she wanted and would do anything they wanted and it was still never enough for them because I was never good enough for them. All I want is for someone to care about me.