"I need you, idiot"
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Sitting on my bed, tear stained face, I tried to regain my posture. No I wasn't on my time of the month, thank you very much. Just the feeling of being so alone scared me, sudden fear took over me.

It wasn't normal. But it happened. Sometimes if not realise it until then. And then I'd break down. As Jayden fetched me a tub of ice cream, I rolled my eyes and pushed it away.

"I'm not losing my damn six pack because of a tub of ice cream." I rolled my eyes at him. He then went to go get another tub. A look of disbelief sat on my face.

"You don't even have a six pack." Jayden replied and I felt my face scrunch up in offence. And then I took it upon my face to leave a cocky grin there.
"How do you know? Been checking me out?"
He rolled his eyes and took out a huge packet of sensations (I swear, me and the author are addicted to the stuff) and I nodded. "Now that's what I'm talking about." I laughed, shaking off the tears.

Coming to mention it, it's probably scary to think that people who are playing a while football league - or soccer league ; stupid bloody Americans - to have this much junk food. And this isn't even their home. Yeah that's pretty traumatising thing to imagine, so save yourself and don't.

"Now, I don't know a lot about me, I mean that's ironic because I am me so technically I should know, but I don't. And I'm still piecing a lot together. So if it comes off as confusing... yeah." I rambled incoherently, making no sense whatsoever, I guess?

Yes I was beyond nervous. This was the first time someone was going to get the real thing. Maybe I wasn't gonna be able to divulge all the information of my existence tonight, maybe I would.

"It's okay, Alex. Maybe you should, I don't know, take your time - find yourself first. I feel very honoured to listen to your story, don't get me wrong. I mean, I'm probably being the first to listen to it anyways. Just because we've got this... I don't know, this mess of a semi relationship and a semi friendship, you don't need to feel obliged to tell me anything." Jayden looked into my eyes, like he was communicating the words of his heart to my heart. He understood.

His delicate, umber eyes reflected compassion and understanding. Whilst busy getting lost in the maze of his eyes, a soft hand squeezed mine reassuringly.

My hand slightly flinched at the sudden contact, but relaxed straight after, realising it was only Jayden. The miniature 'move' shall we call it sent my heart escalating to beating over two hundred beats per minute. And that was double, in some cases triple, the amount of beats per second a normal person my age would grow through ; the normal heart rate was between 60 and 100 beats per minute (bpm) - mine surpassed that years ago.

Euphoria erupted inside of me, yet felt so foreign. When was the last time I felt like this? Probably never. Pretty sad to think about it, is what a lot of people told me in secondary school and my tuition class I taught on Saturdays. But honestly, I was glad I was experiencing this now of all times. It just felt like I was mature and I could trust myself, and rusty giving my heart.

I just hoped he wasn't going to break it. It was fragile. More frail than glass and plasma. It was scary to think about it at times, yet others just made me feel like I was on a never ending rollercoaster.

After allowing what he'd call a man of himself to see me breakdown like I did that day after the Alyssa incident... I felt like I could trust him any-day. But everyone has the old doubter, the one whose always there, figuratively speaking.

Surprise, surprise, the great Alexis also has that voice. Yeah, it's common in everyone. Some people are just better at blocking it out than others. I know, even I'm not invincible.

My eyes flickered down to our intwined hands, and a small smile snaked it's way onto my lips. He gave it a reassuring squeeze, and my eyes found his again.

Lost yet again, I moved in ever so slightly, and Jayden began to fill in the gap -

"Jayden!" We quickly jumped away from each other, and I quickly hid under the blankets of Jayden's bed, acting asleep.

Wait, I was on Jayden's top bunk? What the actual - "Is Alex Okay?" I heard that voice and it sounded so familiar. It was slightly changed but I'd recognise that voice anywhere.
"Jordan?" I whispered in disbelief.

I'm kidding that didn't happen. But the person, being Nick, did ask for my well being. "I don't know, man. She's asleep right now, had to bribe her with junk food to get her to sleep." Jayden sighed. Idiot knew.

"Are you sure? Where you talking to yourself?" The voice of Carson asked and I held in a silent snicker. Slowly turning around, imitating the young sleep I was in, I slightly lifted the blanket with my pinkie to see Jayden's reaction.

Pink stained the tops of his ears and my heart awed at the sight, but the fact of getting spotted kept me from saying or even breathing, to be honest. "Uh, yeah, yeah. I'm just-"

"We know man. You really like her-" Chase began and a stupid smile took my face. Huntsman, do tell. "- and you have had a crush on her for a long ass time -" obviously. Jayden, however, looked at Chase as if pleading him to stop, "-and you're waiting for the perfect time -" Jayden's ears are fully red now, a deep layer of blood covering his cheeks had developed over the ten seconds of Chase speaking. This was perfect. "- and I mean, you really care for her and don't want her to be hurt." Chase paused, and I was finding it very hard to stop squirming in, I actually don't know, was it excitement for having dirt against Jayden? I could use this as blackmail. "We're standing right behind you. Go get your girl, son." Chase ended, as Jayden chocked a small laugh.

"Yeah, Anyways, were all going out. But since you're with Alex, we'll bring you two dinner. Don't miss us too much." I could hear the smile that Carson cracked at "dinner", and it made me roll my eyes. Typical.

Soon enough, Jayden said aú revoír to them and subtly shut the door in their faces. I stayed under the covers for a few more moments, to you know, ensure they were gone. Safety precautions.

As soon as that happened, I lifted the blanket off my face and burst out laughing. "Aww, Jayden's got the hots for me!"

Jayden wore an embarrassed smile, as an even darker shade too his features as he awkwardly scratched his neck. He started walking up the ladder and then walked back down, half way. "Gonna have a quick shower. You gonna go after?"

"Nah, I'm gonna have mine after dinner. I'm not sweaty, unlike you. But, let's be honest. Who wouldn't want this?" I asked, gesturing to my messy self.

"Anyone but me." He pointed out bluntly, taking out his clothes from the duffle bag. I smiled. It was true. Who was capable of likening a football geekess? Yes, geekess. But the answer was Jayden. And I guess I couldn't be more satisfied.

Climbing down too, I jumped on top of his back, and he quickly dropped his clothes, securing me on his back. "Holy crap, Alex! Don't do that. You could fall, you idiot." He scolded, holding on to me as tightly as he could.

I nuzzled into the crook of his neck, and Jayden rested his chin on my face, completing forgetting about what he was saying. It sounds uncomfortable, but it weirdly wasn't. Trust me.

We were both, surprisingly, in our kits and that was generally weird. Mainly because we'd both hug the bathroom or fight to change. Literally, we hated being in our kits as weird as it sounded.

On the pitch, great. Before the match, fine. But after? Hell to the no.

Jayden backed towards the bunk bed and let me down gently, and then his eyes stayed put on my eyes the whole time, never leaving his target.

He then picked me up in the same style, except on his front side and then backed me up against the wall. He smirked, and I kind of gulped, kind of apprehensive.

Then, without even the time to blink, Jayden swooped in and somehow reached my lips, claiming them. After a few moments, though, we needed to breath because we were exhausted from the match.

"And this is why you're mine." He said to me and I smiled, as nervous butterflies were let out and flying over my body.

It was weird, right? None of us made the move to make each other our boyfriend/girlfriend, yet we acted so much like a couple. I was kind of grateful we hadn't yet, though. I'd be a crap girlfriend.

"No you wouldn't. You'd be amazing." Jayden whispered. Wait... did I just...?
"Did I just...?"

"Yeah, you said that out loud, sweetheart." Jayden laughed. Then, securely holding me of course - he wouldn't want me to fall -, Jayden led me to the bed.

"I am going to be back after I have a shower. Before you interrupted me." Jayden laughed, allowing me to laugh with him.

As he collected everything from the floor he dropped, he threw the stuff over his shoulder, including his towel, and made his way to the door of the bathroom. Get this though: before he went in, he turned his face and winked at me. He freaking winked at me.

When he locked his door, I sighed as I dragged myself towards my own duffle back that was also Nike and black, like Jayden's. The only difference was that I had a black pompom on the zipper, something that Ava gave me.

Taking out a Mickey Mouse knee length hoodie and a pair of leggings. I didn't like showing my legs or my arms off. Okay, arms I wouldn't mind as much, but I barely showed my legs. Mainly because I wasn't like those girls who shaved ten times a week. Insert eye roll here.

Soon enough, Jayden walked out, towel in hand. Then I groaned. "What?" He asked, cracking a cocky smirk. He was wearing grey sweatpants, and his underwear was slightly visible.

"You're doing this on purpose." I growled trough clenched teeth. Those clenched teeth ended up gritting against each other, and my eyes tried to look everywhere but his fucking six pack.

My scheme failed, I'll tell you that.

Well, if he wanted to play like that, sure. Oh the things I do just to even the scores out. "I'm taking a shower." I gritted out, and Jayden chuckled, moving out the way for me.

I gladly walked past him and took a warm and quick 20 minute shower. After I was done, I tied my hair again in a high ponytail, wore my sports bra and my leggings.

I walked out, only to find Jayden on his phone. "Oh my Lord, you've gotta check this out, Al-" Jayden looked up at me and stopped speaking all together. Okay, I didn't have any packs yet, but I swear I was trying. Even though the junk food didn't necessarily help my case, but you know.

"Whoops, I forgot my hoodie." I remarked dryly, a bored look hung on my face proudly like Leonardo Da Vinci's painting of Mona Lisa.

After putting in on, I climbed the ladder and sat next to Jayden on his bunk. Not even paying attention to whatever the heck he was doing, I leaned against his shoulder and yawned.

"You sleepy?" He asked me and I nodded, yawning again.

Jayden changed his position, this time we both were laying down on the bed how we were supposed to, length wise. Before we were sitting cross legged width wise if that's what you were wondering.

We now lay down, my head still leaning against his shoulder. My wet hair was spread out behind me, getting the pillow wet. Jayden reached for the extra pillow each bunk was given that was at the end of his bed and gave t to me, and I closed my eyes. I was closer to the wall, thankfully and before I slipped into my slumber, I asked, "can you sleep with me? Obviously, when you're sleepy." My eyes opened weakly, the sleep draining out their power bit by bit.

Jayden looked away from his phone and looked at me, smiling. "I thought you'd never ask. I'm kidding. But of course. Anything for the great Alexis. Night, sweetheart."

I chuckled softly, and before I could reply to him, the need for sleep whisked me away to a mind-forged world of football and all things could - dreamland.

A/N
Well I wrote this chapter out today. Surprisingly. And I only posted yesterday too. I guess this makes up for the lack of updates lol. It was really cute to write and I think I may be the biggest Jaylex shipper 😂😂😂

I know, huge shocked. Note the sarcasm :)

Anyways I loved this chapter, even though it may not be edited. It's like almost 12 Pm and I can't sleep because I have the worst flu so here you go :))

You're welcome. It was a pleasure to write 😂😂😂❤️❤️❤️

Love y'all and stay flawsome x

QOTD:
Do you have siblings? If so, are you the oldest, youngest etc. If not, do you want a sibling?