the world keeps trying to kill me
and one day, i might just give in
but it worries the fuck out of me
that i wouldn't be able to go back

what if resurrection day does not pass?
what if i am forever stuck in the abyss
of loneliness and the cold
and i am never able to love truly again?

if i kill the good that's left inside of me
i can turn everything and everyone
to stone and ashes and dust
will killing my loved ones purify my soul?

will i be finally happy?
will their deaths lead to my rebirth
or will i only continue to spread
chaos and pain and worsen it all?

if the world and this life demands of me
to let go of my humanity
so my suffering would end
is it truly for the good of all?